Hmm, i really can't shake this feeling of just being lonely. It sucks. i really need more friends to talk to. It was nice seeing Catie today but it really wasn't enough for me to get out all that I needed to. I can't really bother her to spend more time with me either. She works over 35 - 40 hours a week, i work 28 - 34 hours a week. It just sucks that I really can't make the time, but I really need the time. Working 2 jobs and going to school is just too much. And here I am 12:30 at night just typing away, ignoring my homework; I've already screwed myself over by hanging out with someone until 11:30 and staying up this late. i wish my schedule wasn't so strict. 

I don't know, it's weird. I often feel lonely because I don't know anyone that has the same common interests as I do. Well except for a co-worker I despised. That's ironic. I used to ignore him and give him a hard time and in reality he's someone that makes me feel like I'm not an unwanted, useless outcast that doesn't like sports. Uh, I feel so isolated at work, I have nothing in common with anyone, conversations go stale quickly, and I generally feel awkward and stupid for ever saying anything in the first place. I feel bad when I don't talk and then I feel worse when I do. Maybe I'll get used to talking and it'll get easier but who knows. i really can't tell if I just need more time to myself or more friends to open up to. I don't know if either would help.