Staying here at my cousin's house taught me something new... Well it would be that, my cousin dana and my cousin raymond would be the kind of people that like to have fun, but only in a social kind of circle that does not involve my aunt and uncle. Lets start off for a bit with me saying that, jeez what a bummer, like the bond between parent and child has died in my cousin dana, and raymond.

I'll start off with my cousin raymond; you see I have basically grew up with him, and seeing him change over the times is not so much of a suprise to me except the fact that he has a girl friend, he moved out, also hes been well mooching off my stuff earlier ( its over now so I'll stop with it ). But it seemed to start off with my cousin when the thin line between his parent's started to break. I have spent countless times in his room before he moved out talking about why he wanted to move out, since he cannot stand his parent's dumb decision's. For instance, when I would visit my grandma's house, I go to his house and go to his room first, then he would be on his laptop as usual. And we would go on about how his parent's dumb decision's about making purchases beyond belief, which is the one where they sold the lexus, and my cousin thought that was a dumb thing. In actuality I always thought that the love and care for parents was the best thing, it came to me later that he was sick and tired of the care, and thought his parent's did not do a good job at it, as when I see it, there is nothing wrong. But I cannot help feel like, my cousin did the same thing to me as with his parent's because as I see it, he mooched off his parent's picked up and left, and came to mooch of me, but he expects me to provide the thing's for him to do menial tasks for his college work, or in other cases for job interview's to land him a better job. So now, he visit's on occassion back to his old home, to use him room and hang out a bit. I find it sad at most seeing that, he doesn't have any love for his parent's anymore when in reality his parent's love him back, when he takes that for granted; he has never hugged his mom in month's even his dad, nor showed any compassion for both his parent's.

At times like that I feel pretty lucky, that I cherish my mom and dad every day. ( cried a bit at that part, but onto more of the blog )

Second is with my cousin dana, and it took a little longer for her to snip the connection. I'll start of when I seemed to look at her, as the only sort of bright and cheerful female cousin I had that lived in the household. Now when I spent some time in her room, and my uncle would come in and hug he, she seemed very repelent of hugging. I'll drag in my story of oregon, when I stayed there for a week without my mom and dad; when I stayed at my cousin's place I was a bit more than worried that my cousin might get on my computer again, but I did not call for that at times, I called my dad most of the time to see how it was going, and seeing that out of the whole trip it seemed that my cousin dana, did not care much to pick up her cell phone and call her parent's, I mean I would go out of my way to ask my cousin ray for his cellphone so I can call my dad. But as the day's went on in oregon I saw that my cousin dana was pretty close and attached to Ray, and I mean by pretty close she went as far as to lick his neck, which in my standard's was beyond odd. Going along with that, I noticed she started to well "mom" me a lot like she own's me as a kid. Some example of that were, to take a shower, because she usually knows I am not well known for my hygiene and I am well aware of that, along with brush my teeth. At this time I was starting to get a bit of mad, because I cannot be told around by my cousin dana, I mean she's like 15 years old. And at the time she was having her period. I remember one time when all of us were in the house, and I was lounging in my cousin ray's room and I told him why I am starting to get a bit mad at dana, and that house is like the grand canyon because my cousin dana heard me from down stairs. She came up stairs to the room and told me I could hear every word you said. When I said back, oh yeah so you can hear what I say to make it clear to you.

It just so happen's that when I am there at my cousin's house I had so much fun, as to make my cousin laugh, and play along with me when I was playing Eternal Sonata (great game in my thoughts ). But only my cousin dana was the only person slowing me down when I was making jokes. Back into California, and now the present it would seem as, she seem's more connected to her friends rather than her parent's. Have I seen such contact with her parent's well not a lot, but it seems like time is repeating itself, well sort of, and it begin's to happen with my cousin dana secluding herself from the rest of the house, like she would be in her room all day, and not set a single foot outside her room, unless her friend was there. All couped up on the computer looking at manga. Another thing I would like to point out again is that she doesn't seem to give any sort of affection back to her parent's, she would give a good chat up with her brother, but not so much with her parent's. Lastly it would seem she is kind of this crazy cat lady pinkie pie said when you give her time.

What I want people to understand out of this blog post is that, if you have parent's that care for you, show some love and affection, as what I did for my parent's because nothing is more greater or better than a family bond between their children and their parent's. And never take care for granted.

Words of Wisdom

"A path walked together must be known to stay together until the end"

I know it has been a while when I actually did a blog, im sorry about that, but if you don't have much care in the world, you can go about your business.

Thursday 7/28/11

Now I have been a brony pretty much since january, when the series of My Little Pony: Friendship is magic is really addicting, and it is.

and here's my story on loosing a friend.

was a late last night, around 3 if I can remember properly and as I said I am a brony so in this case I would keep posting in a ponies thread. But it would seem that the thread has been moved to the spam section of the forum, and knowing from experience that when a thread is moved there, thing's tend to die out pretty fast, because people pay more attention to the recent thread box at the side of shoutbox( the shoutbox is basically an IRC but with simple coding and text ). Continuing on; so I wrote in a form of not a letter of an argument later in the morning, but a letter of just change, nothing more to it, except this one paragraph I wrote, it was about a friend of mine. In these exact words I have said

"See I don't see any use in trying to change bibi's mind, since it would seem as it would be like talking to a brick wall, with a spray on it"

And I wrote more about how the community of bronies can change, so it would not end up in the spam thread, but end up back to where it was. I also wanted so it is a gradual change, not a change that happen's right away and we don't keep our word. Writing more of the letter of change I included a section that would include such rebuttalsas to give reason's to them, I do that as to make it so the person who is going to question, have not much to say, and is already provided with a reason. So I then end of with a PS. which were suggestion's on what could be done after we are proven worthy of come back onto the grounds of the forum's.

Soon after my friend fenrir came online, I thought that if I talk to him I knew what to do next, but it seemed as if there were nothing more he could give on advice, or what to do next, because I at the time was thinking that. Moving one thread back to where it belong's was just a dumb idea. Another seemed like it was a good idea to bring it back, since there is a tiny community of bronies within the forums, so I thought I would be doing them a favor and bring the thread back to where it was for easy access. Sitting here and typing the blog I kind of look at it as if it were a how can I solve this situation to satisfy both sides, but it would seem that did not happen with the upcoming paragraph.

One of the leader's of the community or fugworld in this case was Snood, I talked to him, and seeing as if I mentioned the word ponies he was already sick and tired of all the pony drama. So he told me to talk to bibi. I saw that bibi was online and I talked to bibi about it, and in the end we agree'd it stay in the spam section of the forum's since she told me the purpose why it should stay in the spam section of the forum's since I understand there is nothing but a constant stream and pour of pony pictures over and over, so when that was done, I left happy knowing the reason why. And then I ate some lunch, and took a shower.

I came back to see a message left by bibi, and I read it, and oh god it was not really good, I mean she saw the unedited version of the the previous letter. From that then on I knew I was in deep dog doo doo. But there was a reason why I edited the letter back, it was so I dont hurt anyones feeling. I hope she understand's that, but I really did not get that word out to her. So as the conversation went on, she literally came at me with well why I shouldn't have said that. I understand that, but it would seem she held that close to herself. And she felt backstabbed because I said that. She also thought I wrote the letter after I settled it with her the reason why it should be in the spam section of the forum's, that is not true. But for her it kind of added a insult to injury. one thing I remember from that was how I said she sounded intimitating when I read her post's. Then tell's me that I think she should go goody two shoes on these people. I really had no word's after that because I'm being talked down on, and seeing that I am not good with that kind of thing's I ummm..uuhh back down... A lot so in the end she ended up just putting the thread back leaving me with a message of discontent of saying that, you do whatever you please and go with your business. I did not know losing a friend would be like that if you talk an open mind. So the thread got move back, but I did not get any satisfaction out of it, since I feel terribe now seeing that I lost a friend just to get one thread back to where it is.

So after being the sensitive being I am I cried for a bit, seeing that huh I lost 1 friend, but in a way it was pretty harsh and taught me a lesson. An open mind can be joyful, but in the end harm other's close to you and importantly yourself. In this case I felt so much shame I couldn't bear witness to see the thread back in its place. So I decided to take a break from fugworld for a bit, but still look at ponies, but cringe at the fact that I have done both the good and bad to myself.

Words of Wisdom

"A Sin is a heavy burden to carry, only yet it is a figment of the past and your imagination"

Sounds like a carrot... a russian carrot.

The recent times has come to me and I guess being inspired by many things tend to make my itch to draw grow big, so I take out my sketch book and draw.

When it came to me being in digital art I can just be as free with my art as much as I can, but not as free its just to the extent where I do not have much sexual images in there, but it tends to be a more fantasy matter when it comes to me drawing, because I surely do love drawing witches, soldiers, and other things that pertain to fantasy. Or I can draw video game characters, so far I draw a rendition of Left 4 Dead characters with me and my sister also my cousin is francis.

When it came to me drawing video game characters it comes to the point where I need to observe how the character looks like then implement it on my own drawing style to make it easier for me to draw. I also did a rendition of mario, link, and castle crashers.

Since this is a short blog I'll give you a hint of advice

Words Of Wisdom

"If one among friends, has a liar would a trust still be strong"

Yes amazingly this game was once for the Xbox 360 and I played the living programming language out of it. From the RPG element to the beat em' up style it was a nostalgia heaven for me and my sister to play. I played as the green knight she played as the Red knight. But it came that time of day when I had to leave from my cousins house and return home from where I sleep. Now it came the day when it was released for the PSN (Playstation Network) special thing about the Castle Crashers this time around is the fact that all the DLC from the Xbox 360 version is free. At the cost of people have to play through the game to unlock said characters such as the Necromancer from the Necromancer pack also the King from the King DLC both from the 360 version of the game. Another difference is the fact that there is no more mini games, and it has been replaced by the volleyball game which in my opinion no where as good as the mini game since being on the same plane as the volleyball is annoying, and how it moves from plane to plane is more annoying.

How did I obtain said Castle Crashers, well as it was released on a wednesday, I have purchased a 20$ PSN card from the PSN store, and then after school I got the game on release date, and already knowing there was a guy who was already 1st on the leader board with 100,000 exp. Like geez I cannot play that fast to get that much EXP. But as I started up the game, I did not know which character I should choose, so I went with the green knight, because it looked like link from the Legend of Zelda but instead. He shoot poison from his hand, also he has the post DPS or damage per second for the after effect. Going through the game I mapped out where I would soon plan my farming trip to get more EXP for my characters. Such as the theives forest and the Ice land level. Near the end of the game I had to fight this evil wizard which in fact had about 5 stages to go through just as much as the boss from the Phantom hourglass or Spirit Tracks.

After all that I went through the credits and the last part of the game where my character kissed the orange princess which was actually a clown. Uh oh spoiler haha sorry. After all that I pretty much had to go through another mode called insane mode, this mode will make your thumbs wish they had not played this mode because it is just as hard as it gets, since the enemies have massive amounts of health such as 3500 HP while you are only dealing 35-42 damage, and they deal to you around 100- 237 damage per when you only have 1035 health (as a level 99) I find that to be insane and as the title of the mode says it. But the mode was made intentionally for the 4 player concept of the game which makes this game work alot more better and awesome. Also in this mode it is when you unlock the DLC characters like the King and the Necromancer.

If I was to choose my favorite part out of the entire game it would have to be the Ninja Pirate ship battle, it was the most awesomest thing I have seen in a game. Like really who does a level with Ninja Pirates... BEHEMOTH THATS WHO! Also the musical score is just wonderful for the game, and as soon as you start it up.

My main grips about the game as I said earlier is the volleyball mode, also when it comes to the online play when it comes to the intense parts of boss battles it can get really laggy and if unlucky and I had this happen a few times, make the game lag very hard so both connections are lost. Thats when the game pretty much slaps you and say go outside and do something else.

for now I am still addicted to the game play, and many more weapons to unlock!

Words Of Wisdom

"There are 3 kinds of Lies Lieing, Darn Lies, and Statistics"

-from this guy ( correct me )

As you may have noticed I was no longer well active among the friends that I am with on game spot the reason for that was I was with another community called FUG a group or community that has put up servers for other people to play on. On the account of the servers, they have admins to keep the griefers from griefing other people. Thus let me tell you bit of back story on how I got involved with such a community called FUG.

It all start last year when I was going to Fry's down in a town called roseville, a place not as far from where I live, and I was browsing the place and I wanted to play a game for the PC, since my sister was getting a game too, so I do not feel left out from her getting a game. I decided on getting portal which is the stand alone game, but I noticed the Orange box at the end of the isle of PC games, and I noticed it had portal, Team Fortress 2, & Half Life 2: episode 1 and 2. So I then decided to get the game and try out the entire package of games. I went home to play all the half life's and when I got around I played TF2 at first I was expecting this story line, instead I had to choose a server to play on. I went on various servers, and I felt that something was missing in those servers. What is the word I am looking for... Um.... Social yeah there we go. Then I stumbled upon these servers called FUG and from the start I fell in love with the servers, and I kept playing and playing, not for the game play it was more likely the community it had, just the laughs and giggles I have had.

Then comes this year and it is 2010 and if I can remember it was around April I rejoined back onto the Fug community, meeting new people such as carnage, terry bogard, and kleptor. Also some old faces from last year like um, Redrum. I came to be more open this time around and be more friendlier to other people and I got more and more into the game the more I got to commune with the community, got to know the admins alot more. And what to know I was like a little star in the community, sort of.

So came this thing called admin bootcamp where I would learn about the rules and how they operate, and it was alot to remember, but I can only keep the basics, and I read back at the rules from time to time. From that point I felt like I could be an admin on the servers and I had a feeling people would have a bit of a positive effect around me, at the same time I would be a bit crazy with the power I have been given, a tiny portion of me is saying that I should be an admin and help other people get to know the game TF2 a lot more better. I went with the gut feeling of the third option. So I put up an application, and I put it up as professionally as posible. Within a few months from that I have been given a letter from one of the founders that I am a level 1(4 being the highest). Also that was the time I was in the phillipines, I felt very happy and it was something I had to reflect on while I was there. When I returned to the states the feeling of being admin was a feeling of being more responsible this time around, but I did neglect one thing and that is being an officer of the NAS.

Being a level 2 now I surely was a bit more satisfies than usual although I had the feeling that I did not do much of a job when I was a level 1 so why should I go up a level, but I guess getting 2 is ok. That is all I'll give for the fug community.

Basically I was not as active among the unions I was being an officer in, since being an admin of a server was nothing I had done before and it is an experience I will not forget and it is something to look back on.

Words of Wisdom

"Fear is the embowellment of what mankind has accept on the side of courage"

YaY I leveled up and to Max force, sounds kind of tacky.

As I have begun the new B-Day with NAS. I have decided to post funny blogs at the NAS. And it surely has been a joyous time making them, because I have time to spend time with my sister making up funny jokes to make the day more fun!

Words of Wisdom

"Have Old Build New"

As I have begun the new B-Day with NAS. I have decided to post funny blogs at the NAS. And it surely has been a joyous time making them, because I have time to spend time with my sister making up funny jokes to make the day more fun!

Words of Wisdom

"Have Old Build New"

AH HA!! this time I had to keep playing brutal legend, and now I have gotten the gold trophy!

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