Im posting a late blog entry because I need help. In my freshman year of highschool I met a girl. She was the new girl and kind of an outcast. But oneday some of my other friends invited her to our lunch table to eat and from that moment on we were best friends. We even called each other sister because we looked so much alike that everyone else thought we were twins. We told each other everything...well at least thats what I thought. I moved away about 6 months later. She gave me her phone# but never could reach her. She ended up moving too and them we lost complete contact. She emailed me about once every 6 months but never replied. Well today I remembered that she used to have an xanga page. So I thought I'd look to see if she still had it. She did. But she wasnt the same. She changed so much I dont want to believe it. Her blog posts were so horrible. A cry for help. Shes killing herself. When we were in highschool she was a cutter but she gave that up. And I know that she had done drugs before but gave that up too. But maybe they were all lies. Once she moved she went back to her old ways. Shes drinking, smoking, doing drugs, you name it shes doing it. I cant just sit by and watch her do this. I was her only true friend in school and if I let her die...I have to help her. I created my own xanga page just to talk to her. She hasnt replied back to me yet. In her blog she wrote that she hopes no one she really knows will find it because of what shes posting. Once she finds out that I found it, theres a chance she might get mad. idk What do I do? I dont want her to think that I hate her. I dont. I still love her as if she was my own sister but if she was in front of me, I swear to you, I would smack her so hard. Why? Because shes doing it again. She knows what she is doing is wrong. Yet she does it anyway. Why? She only ends up hurting herself and everyone else around her. I dont know what to do. The only way I can contact her is through her blog. The only thing I feel like I can do for her is cry.....