It has been 3 days sinced I have finished Snake Eater, but I still feel, remember and reflect on the message it brought. I had always thought that BIg Boss was just a megalomaniacal dicatator that wanted to rule the world. I was wrong.

Ever since I had played Snake Eater, I realized that Big Boss was just like Snake. A soldier, that believed in his country, that did his duty without question and that in the end was just a pawn in a political game. In the end, Big Boss was made a hero by the U.S., but that was far from the truth. Big Boss realized he was not a hero, at least he felt that he was no hero. He killed his mentor, a person who was a patriot to the end, just to provide a scapegoat for the U.S. Nobody would feel a hero if one did that.

And Big Boss was also betrayed in an another form, by Eva. Big Boss, being alone for almost all his life, never felt emotion for anybody, save maybe the Boss, still that was just a relationship between mentor and protege. What Big Boss lacked was romantic love, a feeling that he thought he had found with Eva. At first though, he did not want to acknowledge that fact, however he could not resist her charms for long, so he succumbed to the fact that he was in love. Big Boss thought that he finally found somebody to share his life with somebody, but in the end, was also betrayed by Eva.

In the end, Big Boss had enough betrayals for one lifetime, so when he was being congratulated by everybody, it felt hollow to him. No merit or medal could ever bring back his mentor, the Boss or Eva and with that he felt empty. He was dissapointed and angry at his country for doing this to him. Angry that, in the end, no matter what they did in the past, no matter how many great feats they did for their country, they were still considered expendable.

At first I was angry at Kojima for creating a game that featured Big Boss instead of Snake because I wanted to know if Snake would face the Patriots in MGS3, however after playing the game and reading various character analyses, I knew that this was a step in the right direction. Showing that Big Boss was just like Snake was, how he was as much a patriot as Snake was gave the gamer a background on a phenomenal and deep character that is often misunderstood, Big Boss.

Once again I say farewell to you journal, until I write to you again, Sayonara.