Wow...it's been a long time since I wrote my last blog...sorry...life isf***ing me too much since some time ago...

Well...have you ever wished you were dead...but you know...like truly mean it?...I never thought I would wish that, but I have...and I do O.o

If you ask me why, well...I have too many problems with my parents and everyday they break my heart more and more...

Today I should be visiting Diego (because he already moved) and my parents didn't let me (that would have made me happy)because it's too far and that s**t...

And I my cousin came and we stayed with him like for 3 weeks or 2...I had a lot of fun...but now he returned to Tehuacan...

I have never felt so alone in my life...it's not like "ohhh yeah...I want to be death because death is awesome" or "I want to be death because I want my parents to learn their lesson"...I wish I was death because I would finally stop suffering, all this pain is probably the worst thing EVER.

Anyway...I'm waiting for my dying day...honestly...I won't kill myself because I don't know if I would go to hell...and I don't want to take the risk and find it out...so let's wait to see if God listen my prayers of going to sleep and don't waking up...

You probably think that I a BIG problem...I do...I have depression (for real), but my parents don't take it seriously...

And this months will be harder...the only person who have truly been with me on the hard moments and makes me feel better is Diego...and he's so f***ing gone...I still can talk with him on the msn...but I want to hug him so freaking badly and I was supossed to be there with him today...I haven't seen him in a lot of days...and I won't see him soon...

I'm sooooo tired of crying this much...I am...and my brothers are not helping me...

Well...I guess that's everything I have to say...I had to get it out of my heart