Never have I felt this way about anyone like I have towards him. My now ex-boyfriend wrote this in his myspace page (WARNING, AND SOMETHING I'D NEVER DO. THIS HAS MANY EXPLICITS, ALL TOWARD ME...): (highlight it)

what's a guy to do? i thought my girlfriend was special, and really liked me. wow. i got played bad. she didn't like me just strung me along... made me feel like i was needed and guess what i chose her over a friend of mine that would've had me in an instant. i don't f*cking believe this. its really funny cuz tory now that you've dumped me, i'm getting all the real story from your friends. hahaha want to be friends? tough sh*t! stop being a two face! all i'd like is someone i can hold close and feel safe who actually likes me for me like anyone would. i just want to feel miserable and just see them and my day brightens up automaticly. no one to make fun behind my back, no one to string me along, and definately not a f*cking lier. i just want to feel warm on the coldest day happy in the aftermath of a great upset, and truely in love... where can i find a feeling like that from someone?

I'm crying, yet again, because I never ever wanted any of this to happen. It wasn't suppose to be this way, and none of this is true, which is the worst part. As SOON as I realized that he would be just a friend to me, I broke up with him the very next day. I called to apologize for hurting him, I talked to him, EVERYTHING I could think of doing to make amends, I did. And still this happens. I'm hurt so bad I'm crying and I'm so mad that I'm shaking.

All I want to do is move on from all this not-needed drama, and he's still stuck on it, acting like a jerk towards me.I've apologized more times than I can remember, I've even cried about it, and for his sake, and he's done nothing but ignore me, acting like I don't exsist.

I hope that all of this drama doesn't continue on tomorrow, but I have a strong feeling that that won't be so.

*sigh* I just really need to get over this, or a hug from a friend. NO boyfriends for me for a long while.... the first time I've had to be the one to break up with someone and look where it's gotten me...