I'm so upset, I'm crying, I'm numb, and I said 'I think we should be just friends'.

I don't usually make my personal life public like this, but I can't keep how I feel inside me any longer. I have/had a boyfriend since November, he's such a great guy, and I just wrote a note on Myspace breaking up with him. I feel like crap, because I've always been the one broken up with, not the other way around. And I just HAD to break up with him online. I so badly wanted to tell him in person, but the longest we ever see each other is 20 miuntesbefore 1st period, and I didn't want to tell him first thing in the morning because then, we'd both be upset all day.

I can't believe I did this, I feel so bad, andI know I had to do this, because the most I felt for him was as a friend, and I didn't want to mislead him or drag this out any longer, but that still doesn't dismiss how bad I feel for doing this. I' m the one who broke up with him and I'M crying. I've always wanted other people to be happy before myself, and knowing that he was so happy with me made me happy, but deep down, I know how I felt for him didn't match how he felt for me. I feel so extremely bad for doing this, and I really hope he reads it before tomorrow, but, then again, I really don't.

I have no idea what I'm going to do...