Well HI THERE, STRANGERS!!! :) Its been a while. :) Anyways, so I was actually thinking about this site, and how long its been since I've even posted a blog or posted on any forums! So I thought I'd come on and just give an update. This is also really interesting for me, because I've been thinking, I'm in YEAR 12 next year! I joined this site when I was in year 8, and I've since realised how much I have grown up since then. You know that teacher I was practically in LOVE with for the past three years? Well, this was his last year. He left three weeks ago, at the end of term. I think I'm okay, but I have been feeling kind of lonely and let down, knowing that I'm not going to see him again. :( But other than that, I'm okay.

My Grandad died in the end of October. There's so much that upsets me, especially knowing that Christmas is coming up, and my family is going to be really sad. There's a lot of sh!t that upsets me still, but I think I'm dealing with it okay.... I think. :P

GUESS WHAT! I was made editor of Pink! I was really excited, but luckily for me, nobody had tried to submit anything, because I haven't been on here in ages. But I'm going to try and come on a bit more often (TRY TO).

I think the reason I don't come on here so muchis because everyone that I used to talk to every single day has gone.... I think its the age thing. The older I got, the less I came on. All my friends on here have "moved on" I guess. I wish you guys came on more often, because you all helped me through a LOT of sh!t when I was younger. :) But I do understand why you don't come on more often. :)

Please let me know how you all are!

So my Grandad has cancer.... We've known since the start of the year, and he's been getting chemo, but this week we found out that he wasn't going to make it to Christmas. We knew that he wasn't going to survive it, but we were kind of expecting.... or hoping i guess, that he'd at least make it until next year, and then we learn that he's going to be on onxygen from now on, and he's really puffy because the cancer has spread to his liver, and now his liver is pretty much buggered.

I am so scared. I cannot imagine things without my grandad. And because I was expecting next year when they were talking about time frames at the start of the year, I am not prepared for such a small time. I have no idea how to handle any of it.

So lately I've been thinking a lot about University and where I'm going to go and what I'm going to do. We went to a Career's Expo where 7 of the 9 Uni's in Queensland had little Expo's. I decided that I'd love to go down South, like go to Brisbane or somewhere for Uni. but the only issue with that is that I live in North Queensland, and the issue would be getting from NQ to the bottom of the State. But, I've decided that I would love to go to Bond University if I decide to do something that is offered at that University. But, I'm even more confused about what I'm going to do..... RRAAAHHH!!!!! But, Bond looks like the nicest campus to be at, the accommodation is the cheapest, and its only 20 years old this year! But my parents want me to go somewhere that's closer to home, but I just want to get the hell out of here. I want to get as far away from here as I possibly can, which going to the Gold Coast seems like a really good idea. But its so hard to try and get through to my parents.

What do you guys think of Uni? Has anyone been to a Uni in QLD, or even Bond Uni? I need all the information I can get to make up my mind and stop stressing! And, in your opinion, how much money do you think is a good amount to go to Uni with?

Sorry its been a while... I meant to upload these pictures the second I got home from Brisbane, but time just got away from me.... I had a bunch of school stuff to do, and then I had work experience. But I'll talk about those after the concert pictures!!

So last week I went with the instrumental music teacher, and it was really interesting. The only thing is is that you can't really get u the kids for not practicing, because otherwise they'll quit on you, and then your numbers godown. And where I live, we can't afford for the numbers to go down, because otherwise Education Queensland will can the program in my area, and I don't want that to happen, and the music teacher doesn't want that to happen, so he's just gotta try and nudge them into practicing, which is really difficult to do. Also, you don't have much support from the parents, which is SO ANNOYING, because kids just say that they want to quit, and parents are just like, 'Whatever', which is bullsh!t! If I were the parent, then I would tell them that they had to keep doing it until the end of the year, and make sure that they practiced on a regular basis UNTIL the end of the year!

Also, something happened (Nothing bad, just upsetting), and I'm not really sure if I'm ready to talk about it. Its really upsetting me, but I don't really want to talk about it just yet because I feel like the world's biggest loser. So just when if I do end up blogging about it, then I just want to know that you guys aren't going to judge me for it. Like I said, nothing bad, just something upsetting. :)

So I'm going to Pink's Funhouse concert in 7 days!!! am SO EXCITED! I'm trying to look for what the shirts look like, but I'm going to buy one regardless. I'll make sure I post any pictures I get (They'll be pretty crap, but I'm still going to try!) OMG I am sooooo(ten o's)oooo excited!!!!

SO I haven't blogged in a while, and I feel bad cuz I feel like I've abandoned you guys, but I still luv all of ya. :P So, on Tuesday, there was a teacher strike for every teacher in the union for Queensland (Horrah!). They want better pay, because they are the lowest paid teachers in Australia. When one of my teachers started, she said she was lucky to be earning $40 000 a year, and now, a few years later, she said that she earns about $50 000, but loses half of it on tax, and gets MORE taken out of her pay for Uni expenses. So, she gets paid something like $500 a week, which is unbelievable. The miners in this town get something like $100 000 for leaving school at year 10, whereas teachers had to finish school, go to Uni, PAY for Uni, and get abused everytime they come to work! So, they're going for a 21% pay increase, which would bring that teacher I was talking about up to $61 000, which in my opinion, is honestly still not enough, but its definately an improvement. And there's school. I was nearly crying today because I had so much school work, but I haven't been doing it because its SO F&CKING BORING! I did something like 20 textbook pages for biology in a week, and I've got a Home Ec assignment, maths assignment, legal studies assignment, and a chemistry assignment, and I think I'm supposed to be getting an EEI for biology! Not to mention exams for all the subjects listed above! But it's so unfair how they expect us to do all this homework for every subject, and on top of normal homework, do assignments! And then they wonder why we don't get both done, when we were working on either the homework or the assignment, or another subjects that was due that day! It just doesn't make ANY SENSE! Anyway, I feel a little better now. :P I haven't ranted in a while. Peace!

So my Grandad was told yesterday that he's got 2 - 3 months left without treatment. There's nothing they can do, even if they can treat the cancer. So he's got another appointment of Friday to discuss whether they can treat it, but even if they can, I don't know if they will, so he can spend his last months doing what he loves. So I just need losts and lots of hugs.

ANZAC Day today. I was actually MC in both the Dawn and morning ceremony this year, and I've never actually marched before until today. But I finally understand how important it is. For those that don't know what ANZAC day is, its a day that we have in Australia to remember all those that died in the war.

I love the last post. It's one of the saddest, most beautiful songs I've ever heard.... When it was playing, the song echoed through the town and it was so sad and eerie...

My Grandad Lou was a supplier/stocker for WWII in Papua New Guinea, and although he wasn't a soldier, I am still so proud, because he would have still seen a lot of terrifying, crazy stuff. He's got a bunch of medals, and I've actually decided to track them down so I can look at them.

Lest We Forget.

And where I live, we have a big showday fr May Day (Labour Day). We have floats, a show, heaps of stuff. Our school is doing 'Let's Entertain!', so me and my friend have decided to go as Bill and Ben the Flowerpot men. I'm so excited!!!

He has lung and liver cancer - We don't know how advanced it is or whats going to happen until he meets with the specialist next week. I have no idea how to actually deal with it - I know that I can't dwell on it, but I just can get over the fact that he's got cancer. I can't imagine how hard it must be for dad, for grandma and for my Auntys when its so hard for me. I just don't know what to do.... :(

Lol, 7 terms left till I'm finished school for good!!! Woot woot!! And I've also decided that I'm going to try to come on here more and post on the forums more. I'll do my best!! Well, here's what I got for term 1:

Maths B - C (woot woot, I passed!)
English - B
Legal Studies - A
Chemistry - A
Biology - B
Home Ec - B

So I'm happy. But I'm not happy because I've got to go back to school soon. Boo. :(