thought id just post into the anonymity of the www before i explode. man, i feel like crap. i have an extremely important assignment due tomorrow, and i still have yet to complete it. dunno if im even doing it right. i use 'doing' in the loosest possible sense - i.e.: i am not doing anything, just watching scrubs season 4 on dvd. how is this productive? i am completely stressing out, and because of that i am not functioning. i am doing absolutely no work, and i have exams coming up soon. chances are i'll fail the year, and then i will be killed by my parents. well, i wont. it will just kill me cos they will be so disappointed. because im so stressed out, i eat when i am stressed, and put on weight, and then i feel 100 times worse cos i dont feel like dressing nice, meeting up with friends, or doing exercise. now i have added an internet addiction to my list of faults. i really dont understand where all my self-destructive behaviour is coming from. i will probably just stay up tonight and finish the work. i also have to study for a tute tomorrow, but hopefully i have another tute tonight which will cover the information. life sucks at the moment, and the thing i have to remember is that noone else is going to save me. i gotta pull my own socks up. i love my course, i love my job, i love my music. i dont understand whats going wrong. in other news, i may give my fic a rest for thursday, so i can do my work. if anyone happens to have actually read this boring ass speal, dont worry about it. i just thought i would feel a bit freer if i got it out into public. smiles all round :)