I'm a bit overwhelmed right now but I wanted to write this because I want to tell you guys some things. I was reading up on what is going on with #twittersilence at the moment - basically standing up for women who get rape and death threats for being feminist and what have you. In regards to the feminist stuff I was brought up on a very simple and very honest definition of the word. To be a feminist is to believe in equality for both sexes.

I hate how distorted and corrupted the image is of that word. Women are afraid to use it and associate themselves with bra burning and men are threatened by it because they think its associated with man hating. It is not either of those things. I dont overanalyse calling myself a feminist. I believe in equality. That word means gender equality. Thats it.

Anyway, I do get a lot of hate. Every single person you've ever seen on the internet does. Hell, maybe you do. And while it's bad for everyone it CAN be particularly hurtful and difficult for women to deal with when certain individuals resort to making terrifying rape or death threats. There is no universe where this is okay but I do feel like there will always be the insecure, pathetic individuals who will resort to that. I am in the somewhat unfortunate position of catering mostly to a young, male audience which does pry out some of these individuals from under their shitty woodwork but I have learnt to deal with it. I am still learning to deal with it.

Here's the important part I want to get to, though. Those people suck, and they're there but they aren't all that there is because the overwhelming majority is you guys on Twitter, Facebook, or on my GS News video pages which I hang out in EVERY DAY. I get to talk to you and make inside jokes and I really love it. I am a strange, introverted girl and you guys made my little show page feel like home and that's special to me. I was tentative about how that show would be received and mostly it's just been fantastic. It's the reason I get angry when trolls abuse any of you on there and I fiercely protect you because already, even after only a few weeks, I feel like we have our own little community.

Then there's the people who follow me on Twitter or who just follow my work in general and I dont say fans - I hate that word. I hate any term that somehow signifies we are on different levels because we aren't. I'm just a girl who happens to be employed in a public-facing position at a website that you guys frequent. We both love games, you might like the Xbox while I like my PS3 but, hey, I think we can sort it out. We're just people, and not so different from one another. But, you know, I have tricky days.

Days when people are really harsh, or I'm just generally feeling down and the extra criticism weighs heavier than it normally would. I see all these women I admire on Twitter talking today about how much hate they get on Twitter every single day and I almost feel guilty because you guys have never given me anything but your support. When I'm sick, when my job gets hard or when I'm feeling down youre just there. And I hope it seems like I care about you and your lives too because I honestly do. Thats why I love being in the comments and replying to every single tweet I possibly can.

You guys are why I get joy out of my job. If you care about what I say and you're happy with my work then thats really all I care about. Sorry for ALL of the emotions.

Basically, I love your faces, you're all freaking excellent people and you make what I do feel worthwhile. Thank you, whether you follow me or watch my videos or actively chat to me I just need to say thank you. I'm overcome with the realisation that most of you are so decent and kind. I'm eternally humbled.

Have awesome days <3