I can't sleep. This is sort of predictable since I've diagnosed myself as an insomniac. Not to mention all the stuff that keeps me up.

As I said before, with friends, there must come enemies. The list wasn't horribly long, just your usual people: jealous cheerleader (what she was jealous was beyond her. She wasn't horribly popular), popular girls, some guys...as I said, the usual stuff. Then she found the "guy of her dreams." (This makes me so sick looking back on all this). He was not remotely cute in anyway. He was a very ugly boy with glasses and a bad case of acne (I have acne too. This is not intended as an attack). But she was a nerd too. And she truly believed that she liked him. Her friends, however, were dubious of his claims. As one put it, "He looks like a pile of horse &^#! ." But love is blind or rather blinding. She would fawn over him and think about him sometimes. But then one day, she found out that truth. He didn't like her. It happened in the cafeteria when everyone had been pulled up for speaking loudly. She was standing at one of the front tables, happy in the nice new pants she had gotten (they were a nice shade of lilac). Then she heard him whisper to his friend, "Who does she think she is , standing up there like a fat cow? God, she is so fat." The girl's mouth sort of got dry. She started to feel like someone had stepped all over her. Basically it hurt. A lot. Then she started to realize something. She was sort of big. Who did she think she was, thinking she could be cute and funny like everyone else? Fat girls didn't have a hope in hell. So she screwed up. Big time.

You will have to wait at least a month for the next part. I think I'm skipping stuff, not to mention losing my touch. I hope I'm not ticking off the people who read this too much.

Oh and one last thing, I want to give a shout-out to all the people who read and comment on this. In a way, it's sort of like a fiction story. You know who you are. I just want to say (and PLEASE do not take this the wrong way) that I love all of you for commenting. It really makes my day. Sorry to get all emotional on you guys.

---twilightlullaby