I always feel better when I dress nicely. My oba-chan always says, "look good, feel good." I've never been a fan of jeans because they never fit right and the minute I break them in, they mysteriously get dirty. :x This probably is the NOT appropriate place to talk about clothing (it's a gaming website, for goodness sake), but I've just been thinking about this sort of thing lately.

mprezzy wrote this blog about remembering things and it reminded me of stuff, so I'm kind of stealing his idea right now.

(this makes me feel so nostalgic. so much.)

the best years of my kid years were when I was in the third/fourth grade, right before middle school. I had just moved to Maryland, and it was a whole new world for me to explore (having lived in Florida for the past two or so years). There was a trail that wrapped around the neighborhood I lived in for a while, and it became a place for me to act out, with the little boy who lived down the road a ways, adventures with wargs and goblins and spirits of the woods. Bikes became horses, a little sister became a princess to be protected, and playgrounds became towns to stop in along the way.

It was a golden age for friends too, as I met my two constant partners-in-crime this year (we all wouldn't become really good friends until...probably the start of high school!). In some ways this is embarassing to admit, but I was homeschooled on and off (which always made it hard for me to fit in; public school kids think you're some freaky-deek religious nutjob that's totally sheltered and homeschool kids view you as "liberal" and "secular."). During fourth grade, there was this group of eight kids, four girls and four guys. We were all the best of friends. We all got taught science and history in this tiny trailer by a rotation of our various mothers. There are some pictures of us all standing on this playground and it's just so cute. But things aren't the same now, really. Three of the guys still get along really well- the one who was chubby and nerdy-looking became really hot (I liked him a lot when I was little, even though the other girls were like "ew are you weird." then he moved and came back, changed. it's a long story.). The other guy is doing okay; we're enemies. One of the girls is a total bad word, one is absorbed in trying to make the grade for the STEM program (along with dealing with her family), one is always getting into trouble with guys and is about to get kicked out, and then there's me.

oh how things have changed.

I kind of wish we had all stayed friends but you know. It's just the nature of life. They tore down the building (and a good part of the woods) that we used to play around. It's not the same anymore, anyway. Things are just really different now.

Plus I live in a new place! Everyone is always talking about "do you remember this from middle school? oh hahaha yes! you wouldn't know about this twilight because YOU WEREN'T THERE" and sometimes its kind of sad.

everyone is expecting me to be more adult-like and mature...but I've always been responsible, ever since I was little. even my parents are like, "yeah, we can't claim credit for a lot of your behaviors (etiquette and stuff like that)." I guess that comes off in a bad light, but I dunno.

I kind of want to be a little kid again! I'm tired of everyone treating high school like serious business because it really isn't! I mean, yeah, it's important to do well, but it's not a matter of life and death. If we get a 94 instead of a 100 on a lab, it's not the end of the world. I get frustrated with people at school because they don't really have perspective on things. I guess that it could be argued that I only say these things because I am only -this- or -that- or -theother- but whatever. These are just my opinions. Nothing much, really.

you know what describes virginia really well? Fleet Foxes. especially this song. I mean, I just look outside sometimes and I think, "fleet foxes."

on an unrelated note, we listen to country music in advanced PE. country music is not my fave, to say the least, but it's better than the other stuff. anyway, there's this one song about camouflage...and that is all that needs to be said. CAMOUFLAGE.

it's nice to hear the sound of trains outside. the weather's been very spring-y lately. We didn't even have a proper winter...

ALSO THE LAST STORY HAS A NA RELEASE. finally! I've been excited about this game for I don't even know how long.

Baccano reminds me of the Great Gatsby. I do not know why.

that is all.