Yea, I am ready to just give up, pack my bags, and gtfo. You would think that being married sorta means yanno.. 'loyal'. But I guess that whole concept surpasses my husband. Hes recently confided in me that he wishes we had a 'swinger' kind of relationship, where we could do whoever we wanted. I'm not that kind of lady. I thought about it for a while, cause I just wanted my husband to be happy. So i seriously thought about it. But no. I cant let that happen... not while we are married. I dont wanna be with anyone else but him... and it hurts i guess that he does.

Also, a huge issue now, is that theres a girl who has pretty much won his heart. He doesnt know her irl, but they met over WoW. They talk a lot, and ive talked to her even. She is a good friend to him. Shes in a very bad place right now, with her current living conditions and my husband is worried for her safety and has offered her to move here and in with us. I of course am irritated by this. He also told me the other day that if she moved here he would do her. But only if she did me too. I was like 'i dont wanna have that kinda relationship with anyone. I just want you. So looks like you wont be getting any from her cause i will not do her.' Its stupid. Im so frustrated. If she moves here... im out. He can have her. He told me also that he does love her. And its complicated. So ill cut the problem out. Im tired of this anyhow. *Sighs* I wanna cookie.