well, im happy in that i have a promising future and career aspirations when i graduate from college (another thing im happy about). and im also happy that I have a family that appreciates and loves me just as much as I do to them.
however, i am not happy with the fact that Ive been consistently bullied and mistreated by my peers from 5th to 12th grade, or the fact that im a socially awkward mess with anger issues, emotional problems and PTSD from all of the harrassment, or the fact that my parents were extremely paranoid when raising me and sheltered/coddled me growing up leading to a serious lack of social development (which resulted in all the bullying), or the fact that i am almost 20 years old and i still havent had a girlfriend yet, nevermind my first kiss. speaking of the situation with women, I really hate how ive been lead on or publicly humiliated by nearly every girl i have ever liked ever (in a nutshell: i like a girl, she pretends to like me, she leads me into a situation like a party or something and then publicly humiliates me and crushes me. either that or she drops me for another dude. its like im a stepping stone).
honestly, if i could quantum leap my way back into the 10 year old version of myself were all of this started and make myself go outside and play more, make myself actually physically fight the bullies, and make the decision NOT to change schools, everything would be completely different today. everything would be better
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