Death scares me alot

I was thinking about my death after reading so many great topics about death, which seem to be the new fad around here. I just can't imagine dying. Maybe it's because I'm not religious, but I can't imagine just stopping. Stopping existing. What if there's nothing out there? What if all there is in this world is my body and my heart? What if dying is not that penultimate pleasure until you are judged by the feather? Dying in and of itself just seems horrible. On my deathbed, I would imagine what's going to happen, and not being able to do anything. WHy doesn't God give me the chance to tell everyone I love them when I know I won't be able to soon?

What if dying really does just feel like going to sleep, as if resting for the ultimate test, be it heaven or hell. What if I can feel my heart stopping and my brain stop thinking? What if I can feel myself losing my grasp on reality before I actually do? Maybe it's just the ideas in my head, but to stop doing what I have always been just seems horrible. Where are the billions of other people who died to give me my home and my family? Where are they in the celestial cosmos and where will I be?

What If I'm not good enough to exist as a consciousness? What if all I had ever thought and done is just a stain upon my descendants? Imagine all those years, thousands, maybe even millions of them before all of humanity joins the dead. What if I can't even see my kids or my grandkids when I die? What if all there is to death is to just stop? Not even resting, not even expecting to wake up, but to just stop being?

I need to do something so that death won't be the end of my existence (in a metaphorical sense, not go out looking for immortality).

Face it, it's going to happen. We are all going to die, and as far as I'm concerned, we need to be able to die. I don't want to live forever, I'd hate to be trapped on this world for an eternity. I don't want to go to heaven, because I would still exist, neither would I want to go to hell. When I die, I just want to cease to exist, I just want to be at peace with the universe, I just want to achieve Nirvana.

I feel that when we die, we are free of our human desires and fears, we are no longer bounded by our fragile minds. We don't have to worry about anything ever again. That's why I like the idea of dying.

Perhaps you should stop watching anime with excessive amounts of blood and gore?Slepanandiaz

That's probably not the problem. I watch bloody and gory anime all the time, and it doesn't really make much of a difference, I still see death as the ultimate form of freedom.

Face it, it's going to happen. We are all going to die, and as far as I'm concerned, we need to be able to die. I don't want to live forever, I'd hate to be trapped on this world for an eternity. I don't want to go to heaven, because I would still exist, neither would I want to go to hell. When I die, I just want to cease to exist, I just want to be at peace with the universe, I just want to achieve Nirvana.

I feel that when we die, we are free of our human desires and fears, we are no longer bounded by our fragile minds. We don't have to worry about anything ever again. That's why I like the idea of dying.

Blood-Scribe

But the mind is what makes us us, if we stop thinking, we stop existing, and there is no peace without existence!

I like the idea of dying.
Blood-Scribe

[QUOTE="Blood-Scribe"]

Face it, it's going to happen. We are all going to die, and as far as I'm concerned, we need to be able to die. I don't want to live forever, I'd hate to be trapped on this world for an eternity. I don't want to go to heaven, because I would still exist, neither would I want to go to hell. When I die, I just want to cease to exist, I just want to be at peace with the universe, I just want to achieve Nirvana.

I feel that when we die, we are free of our human desires and fears, we are no longer bounded by our fragile minds. We don't have to worry about anything ever again. That's why I like the idea of dying.

TongHua

But the mind is what makes us us, if we stop thinking, we stop existing, and there is no peace without existence!

Actually, to the contrary, without existence, there is nothing, and nothingness can be a form of peace. There is peace in death, because there's nothing to kill, and nothing to bring to life. Nothing to steal, nothing to give. Nothing to take, nothing to recieve. All is as it should be in death.

[QUOTE="Blood-Scribe"]I like the idea of dying.
Dark__Link

That doesn't mean I want to die right now, I'm just saying I like the fact that I don't have to be here forever. That would be utter hell to me.

You're born, you live, you screw like bunnies, and die. That's how it goes. :|tomxizor

[QUOTE="Dark__Link"][QUOTE="Blood-Scribe"]I like the idea of dying.
Blood-Scribe

I want to die right now

But Death was such a great band.

May Chuck Shuldiner RIP.:(

But Death was such a great band.

May Chuck Shuldiner RIP.:(

supermetroidfan

At least it wasn't as sickening as your last one.

[QUOTE="Blood-Scribe"]

[QUOTE="Dark__Link"][QUOTE="Blood-Scribe"]I like the idea of dying.
Dark__Link

I want to die right now

Oh wow, you modified my quote to make it seem like I want to die, that's real original...

[QUOTE="Dark__Link"][QUOTE="Blood-Scribe"]

[QUOTE="Dark__Link"][QUOTE="Blood-Scribe"]I like the idea of dying.
Blood-Scribe

I want to die right now

Oh wow, you modified my quote to make it seem like I want to die, that's real original...

[QUOTE="supermetroidfan"]

But Death was such a great band.

May Chuck Shuldiner RIP.:(

Slepanandiaz

At least it wasn't as sickening as your last one.

It's Ricky Ho's stupid girlfriend running off a building and dying:)

:|The other sig was so fake it's hilarious.

[QUOTE="Dark__Link"][QUOTE="Blood-Scribe"]

[QUOTE="Dark__Link"][QUOTE="Blood-Scribe"]I like the idea of dying.
Blood-Scribe

I want to die right now

Oh wow, you modified my quote to make it seem like I want to die, that's real original...

[QUOTE="Slepanandiaz"][QUOTE="supermetroidfan"]

But Death was such a great band.

May Chuck Shuldiner RIP.:(

supermetroidfan

At least it wasn't as sickening as your last one.

It's Ricky Ho's stupid girlfriend running off a building and dying:)

:|The other sig was so fake it's hilarious.

[QUOTE="Blood-Scribe"][QUOTE="Dark__Link"][QUOTE="Blood-Scribe"]

[QUOTE="Dark__Link"][QUOTE="Blood-Scribe"]I like the idea of dying.
Slepanandiaz

I want to die right now

Oh wow, you modified my quote to make it seem like I want to die, that's real original...

[QUOTE="Dark__Link"][QUOTE="Blood-Scribe"]

[QUOTE="Dark__Link"][QUOTE="Blood-Scribe"]I like the idea of dying.
Blood-Scribe

I want to die right now

Oh wow, you modified my quote to make it seem like I want to die, that's real original...

It's not like you weren't thinking that. It's just the same message in a fewer amount of words.

[QUOTE="Blood-Scribe"][QUOTE="Dark__Link"][QUOTE="Blood-Scribe"]

[QUOTE="Dark__Link"][QUOTE="Blood-Scribe"]I like the idea of dying.
DeeJayInphinity

I want to die right now

Oh wow, you modified my quote to make it seem like I want to die, that's real original...

It's not like you weren't thinking that. It's just the same message in a fewer amount of words.

I said I didn't want to die right now. I just take solace in the fact that I'm not going to be forced to stay here forever.

"I don't want to achieve immortality through my work... I want to achieve it through not dying."
- Woody Allen

I agree.

[QUOTE="Slepanandiaz"][QUOTE="Blood-Scribe"][QUOTE="Dark__Link"][QUOTE="Blood-Scribe"]

[QUOTE="Dark__Link"][QUOTE="Blood-Scribe"]I like the idea of dying.
Dark__Link

I want to die right now

Oh wow, you modified my quote to make it seem like I want to die, that's real original...

There's obviosuly something missing in your life, to think of death you must be very bored. Something must come in your life to distract you from the thoughts.craig828

Yeah, like hermaphroditic pornography. ;)

[QUOTE="craig828"]There's obviosuly something missing in your life, to think of death you must be very bored. Something must come in your life to distract you from the thoughts.tomxizor

Yeah, like hermaphroditic pornography. ;)

That's distracting. :?

[QUOTE="craig828"]There's obviosuly something missing in your life, to think of death you must be very bored. Something must come in your life to distract you from the thoughts.tomxizor

Yeah, like hermaphroditic pornography. ;)

Eh-erm :o

There's obviosuly something missing in your life, to think of death you must be very bored. Something must come in your life to distract you from the thoughts.craig828

I was about to go to sleep when I thought of all this.

I think our consciousness is made of tiny particles, and when you die, your particles leave the body and get sucked righ to the center of the Earth's gravity, and stay there forever.yian

Can I have what you're smoking?

[QUOTE="craig828"]There's obviosuly something missing in your life, to think of death you must be very bored. Something must come in your life to distract you from the thoughts.TongHua

I was about to go to sleep when I thought of all this.

Just think that Jesus is waiting for ya ;)

I was thinking about my death after reading so many great topics about death, which seem to be the new fad around here. I just can't imagine dying. Maybe it's because I'm not religious, but I can't imagine just stopping. Stopping existing. What if there's nothing out there? What if all there is in this world is my body and my heart? What if dying is not that penultimate pleasure until you are judged by the feather? Dying in and of itself just seems horrible. On my deathbed, I would imagine what's going to happen, and not being able to do anything. WHy doesn't God give me the chance to tell everyone I love them when I know I won't be able to soon?

What if dying really does just feel like going to sleep, as if resting for the ultimate test, be it heaven or hell. What if I can feel my heart stopping and my brain stop thinking? What if I can feel myself losing my grasp on reality before I actually do? Maybe it's just the ideas in my head, but to stop doing what I have always been just seems horrible. Where are the billions of other people who died to give me my home and my family? Where are they in the celestial cosmos and where will I be?

What If I'm not good enough to exist as a consciousness? What if all I had ever thought and done is just a stain upon my descendants? Imagine all those years, thousands, maybe even millions of them before all of humanity joins the dead. What if I can't even see my kids or my grandkids when I die? What if all there is to death is to just stop? Not even resting, not even expecting to wake up, but to just stop being?

I need to do something so that death won't be the end of my existence (in a metaphorical sense, not go out looking for immortality).

TongHua

Great, thoughtful post. When I was a little kid, I used to ask myself those very same questions. Then I grew up. And I still ask myself those very same questions.

You should really study philosophy in college, you've the mind for it :)

[QUOTE="Blood-Scribe"]

Face it, it's going to happen. We are all going to die, and as far as I'm concerned, we need to be able to die. I don't want to live forever, I'd hate to be trapped on this world for an eternity. I don't want to go to heaven, because I would still exist, neither would I want to go to hell. When I die, I just want to cease to exist, I just want to be at peace with the universe, I just want to achieve Nirvana.

I feel that when we die, we are free of our human desires and fears, we are no longer bounded by our fragile minds. We don't have to worry about anything ever again. That's why I like the idea of dying.

TongHua

But the mind is what makes us us, if we stop thinking, we stop existing, and there is no peace without existence!

Yes - the Eastern religious state of Zen sounds horrible - no desires? no pain? no nothing? no thanks!!!

I like to believe that people are reincarnated into other living things when they die. ernie1989

What if you become a turtle?

[QUOTE="TongHua"]

I was thinking about my death after reading so many great topics about death, which seem to be the new fad around here. I just can't imagine dying. Maybe it's because I'm not religious, but I can't imagine just stopping. Stopping existing. What if there's nothing out there? What if all there is in this world is my body and my heart? What if dying is not that penultimate pleasure until you are judged by the feather? Dying in and of itself just seems horrible. On my deathbed, I would imagine what's going to happen, and not being able to do anything. WHy doesn't God give me the chance to tell everyone I love them when I know I won't be able to soon?

What if dying really does just feel like going to sleep, as if resting for the ultimate test, be it heaven or hell. What if I can feel my heart stopping and my brain stop thinking? What if I can feel myself losing my grasp on reality before I actually do? Maybe it's just the ideas in my head, but to stop doing what I have always been just seems horrible. Where are the billions of other people who died to give me my home and my family? Where are they in the celestial cosmos and where will I be?

What If I'm not good enough to exist as a consciousness? What if all I had ever thought and done is just a stain upon my descendants? Imagine all those years, thousands, maybe even millions of them before all of humanity joins the dead. What if I can't even see my kids or my grandkids when I die? What if all there is to death is to just stop? Not even resting, not even expecting to wake up, but to just stop being?

I need to do something so that death won't be the end of my existence (in a metaphorical sense, not go out looking for immortality).

Jack_Summersby

Great, thoughtful post. When I was a little kid, I used to ask myself those very same questions. Then I grew up. And I still ask myself those very same questions.

You should really study philosophy in college, you've the mind for it :)

Bit early for that, I'm just entering high school and plan to write when i grow up.

Bit early for that, I'm just entering high school and plan to write when i grow up.

TongHua

It's certainly not too early to start a personal study of philosophy - it's fun! And all philosophers do is write and discuss, so it would definitely help you. But don't think about death too much - enjoy H.S. - in ten years you'll look back on this period as wonderful (not perfect, not ideal, but wonderful).

Why? How could you possibly be afraid of death? it is the most natural occurrence in life. Know that death is not final, but rather a step. The universe is always creating new life. You will end up as one of them again.KrayzieJ

But I want to see those steps. It's not like I want to roam around heaven as an angel, I just want to keep my consciousness, something that death will take away from me.