Ever been heartbroken?

It'll be a while before I understand "love", so it'll be a while before I can have this experience.

I have been and to a certain extent i still am. Was over a decade ago but i still think about it at least for a second or two every day. She was for all intents and purposes the perfect girl.

I am still not sure i have met anyone as physically attractive since her. And more importantly than that, she really did love me in return for mine. You could just tell that she cared which is something i have yet to find in a woman since. She was exactly what i would want in a relationship today, i was just too young to know it.

She treated me better than anyone has treated me before or since and was the most genuine person i have ever known. We were together for 3 years and lived together for 2 of those. It really bums me out even talking about it. As the years have went by though its easier to look back fondly on how happy i was at the time but then i get depressed knowing that it was totally my fault. I am ashamed as if it had happened yesterday.

How i acted and the things i did are absolutely embarrassing when i think about them.

Its something i wont ever be able to fix, she deserved much more than i gave her and i just wish i was as wise then as i am now. I feel like i cheated myself out of something special and i struggle with it all the time. Its not so much the "lost love" that affects me. Its the fact that i KNOW i did wrong and cant repair it.

The whole thing really worked me over and i doubt I'll ever be able to feel that way about anyone else ever again. Its an unending cycle where i find myself not giving my current GF a fair shake because i want so badly for her to be someone else so i can relive that point in my life vicariously through her.

Rambling...

Just the once.

He left me a week before our 5 year anniversary.

Is not fun.

Just the once.

He left me a week before our 5 year anniversary.

Is not fun.

I have been and to a certain extent i still am. Was over a decade ago but i still think about it at least for a second or two every day. She was for all intents and purposes the perfect girl.

I am still not sure i have met anyone as physically attractive since her. And more importantly than that, she really did love me in return for mine. You could just tell that she cared which is something i have yet to find in a woman since. She was exactly what i would want in a relationship today, i was just too young to know it.

She treated me better than anyone has treated me before or since and was the most genuine person i have ever known. We were together for 3 years and lived together for 2 of those. It really bums me out even talking about it. As the years have went by though its easier to look back fondly on how happy i was at the time but then i get depressed knowing that it was totally my fault. I am ashamed as if it had happened yesterday.

How i acted and the things i did are absolutely embarrassing when i think about them.

Its something i wont ever be able to fix, she deserved much more than i gave her and i just wish i was as wise then as i am now. I feel like i cheated myself out of something special and i struggle with it all the time. Its not so much the "lost love" that affects me. Its the fact that i KNOW i did wrong and cant repair it.

The whole thing really worked me over and i doubt I'll ever be able to feel that way about anyone else ever again. Its an unending cycle where i find myself not giving my current GF a fair shake because i want so badly for her to be someone else so i can relive that point in my life vicariously through her.

Rambling...

Alter_Echo

Once.

Yes. Maybe it's just me, but being cheated on five times isn't exactly heart warming. :/ayanami_rei

Yeah one time, it was pretty bad. It bothered me for about a year. I'm over it by now and wouldn't trade the good memories for anything.

[QUOTE="ayanami_rei"]Yes. Maybe it's just me, but being cheated on five times isn't exactly heart warming. :/rawsavon

[QUOTE="rawsavon"][QUOTE="ayanami_rei"]Yes. Maybe it's just me, but being cheated on five times isn't exactly heart warming. :/ayanami_rei

[QUOTE="rawsavon"][QUOTE="ayanami_rei"]Yes. Maybe it's just me, but being cheated on five times isn't exactly heart warming. :/ayanami_rei

Yeah, I have. I go so wound up my face broke out into red dots everywhere, sometimes they'd cluster together in big blotches. I think crying and throwing up from crying broke blood vessels in my face, but I'm not sure.XilePrincess

[QUOTE="XilePrincess"]Yeah, I have. I go so wound up my face broke out into red dots everywhere, sometimes they'd cluster together in big blotches. I think crying and throwing up from crying broke blood vessels in my face, but I'm not sure.rawsavon

[QUOTE="rawsavon"][QUOTE="XilePrincess"]Yeah, I have. I go so wound up my face broke out into red dots everywhere, sometimes they'd cluster together in big blotches. I think crying and throwing up from crying broke blood vessels in my face, but I'm not sure.icygangsta

[QUOTE="XilePrincess"]Yeah, I have. I go so wound up my face broke out into red dots everywhere, sometimes they'd cluster together in big blotches. I think crying and throwing up from crying broke blood vessels in my face, but I'm not sure.rawsavon

Five different guys cheated on me. One just talked about me behind my back and said a lot of mean stuff with his best friend, agreeing with him, etc.ayanami_rei

You sure gotsome serious bad luck in dating

[QUOTE="rawsavon"][QUOTE="XilePrincess"]Yeah, I have. I go so wound up my face broke out into red dots everywhere, sometimes they'd cluster together in big blotches. I think crying and throwing up from crying broke blood vessels in my face, but I'm not sure.CocoMarshmellow

Yeah. I still am, really. :(Bourbons3

Yea, I couldn't sleep for weeks. It sucks having a broken-heart, but I just had to realize nothing lasts forever...which was painful but it was the only way to attempt to get over it. To answer your question, I feel like when you care for someone deeply.....you give apart of yourself to that person And when you lose that person, you just feel uneven.CleanPlayer

Very true.I know how that feel's..

Heartbreak is an interesting monster. I remember during High School when I split up with my ex, I thought that heartbreak was bad. But then I dated another girl for 3 years and when we split and I realized that I was actually in love with her, that hit me like a truck. The first few weeks she was gone I thought I was going to die... and this is coming from someone who has almost died.

I got over it though and moved on. You realize after a while that it simply wasn't meant to be. We dated for 3 years, and she's engaged to a guy now that she's been with for 1. You realize that sometimes no matter how good a relationship is that sometimes there's a better person out there for you. I haven't met that girl yet, but I will. I guess what I'm trying to say is that heartbreak sucks, but you eventually meet people that bring you back to reality. I've met girls since then that are absolutely amazing. I think the worst part of heart break is how completely alone you feel but, well, look at everyone talking about their hurt on here and it's clear you aren't alone.

I'll post up a quick version of my sad story: I was with a girl for almost three years, then one day, after a few days of silence from her, I get the call that we're breaking up... I'm still devastated. It was July 31st, Saturday. This year. We had wedding plans, knew where and basically knew when... She said she lost the loving feeling... So much pain inside...

Nope. To be honest, I haven't even been in a serious relationship yet . . . and I'm okay with that. I'm only 17 and I'm a take my time until a find a great woman to break my heart :P

I have been heartbroken but not that bad