I have always had to deal with my own cenundrum.
I am a very good drawer and very artistic and creative and original and charasmatic and powerfuland everything that a good artist is.
Yet, I have always kind of hated my gift because I always felt like it wasn't good for anything, like my gift could only lead to a luxary, but not a necessity.
I always explained to people tha I thought art was useless and they said "no it's not, people need to feel human" and I always disagreed with them and wanted my talent to be something like science where I thought it was useful and beneficial.
To me, art wasn't necessary, because it's not really 'necessary' to have a painting hanging on a wall. A painting never treated cancer or built a bridge.
I always felt guilty for being good at something that I thought was useless, too easy.
However, it's not that I was wrong or that the people that disagreed with me were wrong, we were both right in our own way, which led me to this conclusion:
"Art as a painting or a sculpture isn't necessary, but EMOTIONAL STIMULATION is."
Music has always been so important to me, because it soothed my head and caressed my demons and I emotionally connected to it so strongly.
It's that EMOTIONAL CONNECTION that good art conveys that is necessary for a person, not necessarily the art itself. It doesn't have to be a painting to be 'art,' it can be music, a book, a poem, a drawing or painting, an idea, SOMETHING that causes the person to make a sincere connection, causes them to 'awe' in its beauty.
So now I don't feel guilty for being a good artist, because someday I hope to sincerely inspire or have someone take refuge in the power of MY work, like I have done in the music of my favorite bands, that wereable tocause that 'STIR'within me.
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