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One morning, I woke up ready to start a wonderful day that I had palnned for a long time. I live with 5 other people, and they were all finally gone. I was planning on relaxing, and then at night I was would have all my favorite junk food that I had bought earlier, and watch some shows on DVD. To start my day, I had a nice mug of cappuccino, a drink I hadn't had in a long time. I mostly stay away from caffine. In fact, this may have been the first one in over 6 months. Another thing I was supposed to do is take my celexa, a drug that my parents insisted I starttaking again, even though I really don't need it. I had taken a very small dose the day before yesterday, and I took the same dose this day. It was supposed to help with anxiety, but it has a lot of possible side effects. I didn't think any of the side effects would come up, since i had taken it about a year ago and it never did anything drastic that I noticed. Wondering where I'm going with this? Well let me continue.
The entire day I was a bit annoyed by muscle pain and knots in my lower back and neck, which had given me a slight headache yesterday night. I kept thinking that if it continued, I wouldn't be able to do the main event at night. Well, night came and it wasn't too bad anymore, but it was still there. i decided I wouldn't let it stop me from enjoying my night. I was going to take a shower, but then i realized an opportunity to do something different and adventurous. I was all alone, it was late at night (11:30pm), and i was about to take a shower. So, I did what anyone would have done under the curcumstances: i took my clothes off and decided to go outside in my yard and have a little nature walk, just to see what it felt like to be totally free. I did actually feel pretty free, and there was a nice breeze going past me. But then....a car came by, and I think some woman may have seen me! I don't think i've been seen nekkid by a woman ever since I was around 3. i have no idea what kind of effects that might have on people.I was also afraid it may have been someone my parents knew, though that isn't very likely. I came in with my heart racing, and took my shower. My aching was less noticeable now. I got into my nice clean bed ready to enjoy my TV on DVD, when I noticed that I was depressed. I sat there for a whilenot doing anything, and the feeling got more noticeable. I was very depressed, and I don't get depressed often. Since I was depressed, I decided I would forget about my night. You only get to watch an episode of one of your favorite shows for the first time once, so for me it was a special occasion.
The big problem here is that I have no idea what made me so depressed. It could have been.....teh nekkid.I couldn't be sure that being seen nekkid by awoman didn't do anything to a person's mind.It could be that my body needed more caffine.I hadn't had it for a long time, so it could cause some strange effects. it could be the celexa, because depression is one of the side effects. Again, my body may have thought it needed more of that, since I had taken such a small dose. It could also be all the stress about the aches. I suppose it could even have been because nobody had ben there that day, and i wasn't used to it. I'm 17 though it's not like i need my family to be happy...........quite the contrary. Which one of these is it? There are so many possibilities. I'm posting it here becuase one of you may be able to tell me something I don't know. Any thoughts?
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