Still on the border of suicide

Im not going to read this, no offense, but suicide is never the answer bro. You have so much to live for, and so many people who love you and would be distraught in your early demise.

Hold on and get help if you need to, but suicide isnt worth it at all.

Paragraphs would be a lovely edition to this long ass story...

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edit: okay I read it anyways, because your first few sentences made me feel like a jerk

I really don't know what to tell you. It seems like a very peculiar situation. Why would you put so much of your heart and faith into this one person you haven't met in real life. It seems so stupid. What would you do when you finally met? Play WoW? I'm not trying to insult you, but I am being critical.

I would call it infatuation, but anytime I say that, girls tend to scream at me( despite always being right about it)

tl;dr

down the street, not across

we have blogs for a reason :|teh_destroyer

She is the only one who love's you? Your family don't? Are her friends dead?

Wall of text..

*slits wrist*

Look, I'm no expert on relationships, but do you really want to be with a woman who's already cheated, I believe you said 8 times on her husband? What makes you so sure that she won't do it to you? I say that you leave her. I also think you should get help as soon as possible. You should go see a therapist and try to get some medication for your depression.

Also, suicide is never the answer. I remember a quote: "Life may not be great, but the alternative is never acceptable."

That two page paragraph was about an internet relationship?

TO EVERYONE WHO HASN'T READ THE PARAGRAPH I'LL PARAPHRASE.

--Paragraph 1---

WAAHHHHHHH!!!

Paragraph 2

Met a girl on Wow WAHHHHHHH!!!

Somehow, i read that, and I have this to ask you.

Do you REALLY believe this is worth suiciding over? Or better yet, do you honestly believe you can't make something out of your life? YOU may think the position your in is bad, but there have been PLENTY of other people who've had much more reason to suicide than this.

This may sound mean, but...to suicide over this is like throwing a tantrum because something doesnt go you way.

I honestly think you're lying for attention. L ast time you posted this you got tons support from people so just quit your whining and move on. Ther's other fish in the sea.suicidalpoptrt

I've never talked to anyone as her who would understand me so well, and care for me even a bit. Besides I promised her I will never be with any other woman in my life except her so other fish is not an option for me.

I was expecting you to have died already.

You're not in love with a girl you've never met before. Since you've never been in a relationship, I would suggest not getting seriously attached, because it will only end upp making you hurt worse.

It's not the hand you're dealt it's how you play the cards. So try actually going out a playing a hand before you cash in your chips.

[QUOTE="suicidalpoptrt"]I honestly think you're lying for attention. L ast time you posted this you got tons support from people so just quit your whining and move on. Ther's other fish in the sea.Lokantis

I've never talked to anyone as her who would understand me so well, and care for me even a bit. Besides I promised her I will never be with any other woman in my life except her so other fish is not an option for me.

wow well if thats the way you feel then sure offing youself would be the best bet :|

If you expect someone to read that without taking the liberty to split it into paragraphs then suicide really is your only option. It's already been pointed out in this thread however I've decided to give you a very helpful diagram:

Aradae2357

That picture is very informative.. :) I hope the TC notices it..

Don't do it, theres so much things to live for it's impossible to summerize it up. I'm not talking about objects, it's an unseen world out there waiting to be discovered. Don't listen to them, I read it.

My story is quite long and complicated so I am not gonna describe all of it. Even if I tell it short (which I am gonna do), it will be one of the longer topics on gamespot OT forum. And I know it seems stupid to post such serious and long thread on this kind of forrum but I do it because there is a lot of people here, plus the fact that its long means that only those serious enough to read it all are gonna post. Also this story might seem like a typical love story, just fyi. Some people might say like if you wanna kill yourself, then just do it, why post topics on gamespot OT? But the reason I dont is because like I said I am still on the border and things are not clear yet. I don't even know why the hell I am making this topic, it doesn't really have any purpose and remember no one is forcing you to read this.

First, about me in one sentence: I am a lonely 18 year old guy, living in Canada, with no friends, careless parents who are gonna kick me out of house in Fall, a job in fast food (which I just recently got), and poor and depressing childhood. Even though my childhood wasnt the best in the world, I managed to kind of absorb myself in fantasy world instead by reading forgotten realms and dragonlance books. And recently playing mmorpgs. I used to think I could live by myself fine, and that I dont need anything else except my books and computer. But then (are you ready for this?) I met a 20 year old, married girl on WoW that has had sexual relationships with 8 different men (more like boys I guess) in her lifetime.

So in short, I will say right now that yes, she is the reason I am on the border of commiting suicide.. Anyway, even though we never met in RL, we have talked over mic and phone. And we do love each other and right now she is doing all the stuff ( she says she wants do start a new life without anyone's help, even mine), she is getting the money and she will soon file a divorce with her husband. Though she did say that if he finds out she is cheating before the divorce, all the family belongings will go to husband because of some marital agreement (forgot the name). And I was completely shocked when she said that if that happens we wont be able to be together, I am not sure why, maybe she meant we wont be able to meet for a long time because she woudl have no money but Idunno. And I didnt want to ask her because she seemed really mad and said that if I keep talking about what if's she is gonna break up with me. She said we have to be more carefull when talking online because her husband is around sometimes and can look at the monitor and what we type.

Since then It seems to me like she doesnt need me anymore, she says either husband is around so we cant talk or she is too busy running instances in WoW. I wrote her an email 3 days ago and she says she hasnt got a chance to read it. I asked her today, will you read it tomorrow? She said, yeah maybe idk. I asked why not. She said, bc idk. I asked will you read it eventually? She said yep. Also at that time husband was around so I guess thats why she didnt want to talk. But I also asked her, wanna do dailies with me tomorrow, and she said sure. So I dunno, I never been in a relationship with a girl before. Right now I am just waiting till she reads my love emails and responds. In the last few days she did say she loves me a few times but we didnt get a chance to talk much so I am really depressed. I almost feel like she might act like this because she wants to break up with me but she knows that if she does it too suddenly.

I might commit suicide so maybe she just does it slowly (she knows I would because I've told her before. Also she said she lost many friends that way.. when I first heard it I was kinda shocked like, so she seduced all those guys the left them and they killed themselves? So I asked her if they killed themselves because of her, but she said no) but it doesnt matter, if I lose her, I lose everything in my life because she is all I have and she is the only one who really cares about me. I have nothing else to lose or gain except being with her. And I am certain I will kill myself if I lose her. Maybe not the very same day but after living for a while after her and see how miserable my life is it would be pointless to continue. But on the other hand maybe I am only worried because of all the depression in my brain (after all depression is chemistry) and that I really dont have to worry about losing her like she's always been saying.

We promised each other to never leave each other no matter what difficulties we might face and I believe its true. Well thanks for reading and sharing my feelings. I will ignore any posts posted in less than the time it takes to read the post. Lokantis

paragraphed for the lazy

[QUOTE="suicidalpoptrt"]I honestly think you're lying for attention. L ast time you posted this you got tons support from people so just quit your whining and move on. Ther's other fish in the sea.Lokantis

I've never talked to anyone as her who would understand me so well, and care for me even a bit. Besides I promised her I will never be with any other woman in my life except her so other fish is not an option for me.

What the...YOUR EIGHTEEN. SAY IT WITH ME. EIGHTEEN.

Making promises at such a young age like that is stupid and moreso pathetic.

My story is quite long and complicated so I am not gonna describe all of it. Even if I tell it short (which I am gonna do)....blah blah blah blah Lokantis

Did you really want the last words you've written down to be a lie?

My story is quite long and complicated so I am not gonna describe all of it. Even if I tell it short (which I am gonna do), it will be one of the longer topics on gamespot OT forum. And I know it seems stupid to post such serious and long thread on this kind of forrum but I do it because there is a lot of people here, plus the fact that its long means that only those serious enough to read it all are gonna post. Also this story might seem like a typical love story, just fyi. Some people might say like if you wanna kill yourself, then just do it, why post topics on gamespot OT? But the reason I dont is because like I said I am still on the border and things are not clear yet. I don't even know why the hell I am making this topic, it doesn't really have any purpose and remember no one is forcing you to read this. First, about me in one sentence: I am a lonely 18 year old guy, living in Canada, with no friends, careless parents who are gonna kick me out of house in Fall, a job in fast food (which I just recently got), and poor and depressing childhood. Even though my childhood wasnt the best in the world, I managed to kind of absorb myself in fantasy world instead by reading forgotten realms and dragonlance books. And recently playing mmorpgs. I used to think I could live by myself fine, and that I dont need anything else except my books and computer. But then (are you ready for this?) I met a 20 year old, married girl on WoW that has had sexual relationships with 8 different men (more like boys I guess) in her lifetime. So in short, I will say right now that yes, she is the reason I am on the border of commiting suicide.. Anyway, even though we never met in RL, we have talked over mic and phone. And we do love each other and right now she is doing all the stuff ( she says she wants do start a new life without anyone's help, even mine), she is getting the money and she will soon file a divorce with her husband. Though she did say that if he finds out she is cheating before the divorce, all the family belongings will go to husband because of some marital agreement (forgot the name). And I was completely shocked when she said that if that happens we wont be able to be together, I am not sure why, maybe she meant we wont be able to meet for a long time because she woudl have no money but Idunno. And I didnt want to ask her because she seemed really mad and said that if I keep talking about what if's she is gonna break up with me. She said we have to be more carefull when talking online because her husband is around sometimes and can look at the monitor and what we type. Since then It seems to me like she doesnt need me anymore, she says either husband is around so we cant talk or she is too busy running instances in WoW. I wrote her an email 3 days ago and she says she hasnt got a chance to read it. I asked her today, will you read it tomorrow? She said, yeah maybe idk. I asked why not. She said, bc idk. I asked will you read it eventually? She said yep. Also at that time husband was around so I guess thats why she didnt want to talk. But I also asked her, wanna do dailies with me tomorrow, and she said sure. So I dunno, I never been in a relationship with a girl before. Right now I am just waiting till she reads my love emails and responds. In the last few days she did say she loves me a few times but we didnt get a chance to talk much so I am really depressed. I almost feel like she might act like this because she wants to break up with me but she knows that if she does it too suddenly, I might commit suicide so maybe she just does it slowly (she knows I would because I've told her before. Also she said she lost many friends that way.. when I first heard it I was kinda shocked like, so she seduced all those guys the left them and they killed themselves? So I asked her if they killed themselves because of her, but she said no) but it doesnt matter, if I lose her, I lose everything in my life because she is all I have and she is the only one who really cares about me. I have nothing else to lose or gain except being with her. And I am certain I will kill myself if I lose her. Maybe not the very same day but after living for a while after her and see how miserable my life is it would be pointless to continue. But on the other hand maybe I am only worried because of all the depression in my brain (after all depression is chemistry) and that I really dont have to worry about losing her like she's always been saying. We promised each other to never leave each other no matter what difficulties we might face and I believe its true. Well thanks for reading and sharing my feelings. I will ignore any posts posted in less than the time it takes to read the post. Lokantis

Dude,

First of all you must know, that suicide is the WORST thing you can do. THE WORST. Life is a gift, some people around the world cant even eat every day, but they still STICK to it, U should do the same.

I completely understand what you feelin', I got depression stuck in ma head constantly. But I admit your case of love thru the net is pretty unusual, even tho I had 2 friends in the same "love" situation as yours, one got married with the gurl and the other one cried days and night cuz she "broke" with him.

When you say you got NOTHING ELSE to gain or to lose, thats sooooooo wrong. If you love her that much, then do what your heart tells you to do, and if she lets you on the side, DONT GIVE UP ON LIFE FOR SUCH A SITUATION. Life is about Ups and Downs, thats what makes it enjoyable.

Now try to get some fun

Oh and dont listen to the people on the Internetz, they R all selfish and think they can anything becuz they dont know U. But lulz they R t3h ignorants

So let me get this straight.

Youve met a girl who you THINK you love on a GAME and youve NEVER met her in REAL life but something bad is happening and you want to kill yourself over it?

Thats pathetic, go do it.

Matt-4542

I think there is a word for this, hmm let me think... oh yea,, it's called:

NATRUAL SELECTION

TO EVERYONE WHO HASN'T READ THE PARAGRAPH I'LL PARAPHRASE.

--Paragraph 1---

WAAHHHHHHH!!!

Paragraph 2

Met a girl on Wow WAHHHHHHH!!!

HeebsDizzle

There are 2 paragraphs?

God help me, I can't find the second.

[QUOTE="suicidalpoptrt"]I honestly think you're lying for attention. L ast time you posted this you got tons support from people so just quit your whining and move on. Ther's other fish in the sea.Lokantis

I've never talked to anyone as her who would understand me so well, and care for me even a bit. Besides I promised her I will never be with any other woman in my life except her so other fish is not an option for me.

[QUOTE="HeebsDizzle"]

TO EVERYONE WHO HASN'T READ THE PARAGRAPH I'LL PARAPHRASE.

--Paragraph 1---

WAAHHHHHHH!!!

Paragraph 2

Met a girl on Wow WAHHHHHHH!!!

Aradae2357

There are 2 paragraphs?

God help me, I can't find the second.

[QUOTE="Lokantis"]

[QUOTE="suicidalpoptrt"]I honestly think you're lying for attention. L ast time you posted this you got tons support from people so just quit your whining and move on. Ther's other fish in the sea.suicidalpoptrt

I've never talked to anyone as her who would understand me so well, and care for me even a bit. Besides I promised her I will never be with any other woman in my life except her so other fish is not an option for me.

Who said she did? It's just that it's all kinda hard when all you can do is talk over mic or text chat. But I am sure it will change soon

Suicide is never the answer. You're so young and you have an entire life to live. Instead of getting a fast food job go to college or something, meet people and get friends(a social life), and a real job. I would never trust someone on WOW, you don't even know the person. I'd imagine she could be some creepy pedophile pervert shemale man-thingy with big deformed kazonkers and a moldy male-thing. Just live your life and you will find your place in the world and true happiness. After all, you're only 18, who knows what surprises life will hold, eh?ligerz76

College is not an option for me since parents are kicking me out soon and I have to work full time to afford living. I might go to army though, but only when I become Canadian citizen, still about another year till application and if things go wrong I dont think I would be able to wait that long. I guess army would be the only thing that could help me.

[QUOTE="suicidalpoptrt"][QUOTE="Lokantis"]

[QUOTE="suicidalpoptrt"]I honestly think you're lying for attention. L ast time you posted this you got tons support from people so just quit your whining and move on. Ther's other fish in the sea.Lokantis

I've never talked to anyone as her who would understand me so well, and care for me even a bit. Besides I promised her I will never be with any other woman in my life except her so other fish is not an option for me.

Who said she did? It's just that it's all kinda hard when all you can do is talk over mic or text chat. But I am sure it will change soon

The fact is you don't need her, You need Jesus!

[QUOTE="ligerz76"]Suicide is never the answer. You're so young and you have an entire life to live. Instead of getting a fast food job go to college or something, meet people and get friends(a social life), and a real job. I would never trust someone on WOW, you don't even know the person. I'd imagine she could be some creepy pedophile pervert shemale man-thingy with big deformed kazonkers and a moldy male-thing. Just live your life and you will find your place in the world and true happiness. After all, you're only 18, who knows what surprises life will hold, eh?Lokantis

College is not an option for me since parents are kicking me out soon and I have to work full time to afford living. I might go to army though, but only when I become Canadian citizen, still about another year till application and if things go wrong I dont think I would be able to wait that long. I guess army would be the only thing that could help me.

[QUOTE="Aradae2357"][QUOTE="HeebsDizzle"]

TO EVERYONE WHO HASN'T READ THE PARAGRAPH I'LL PARAPHRASE.

--Paragraph 1---

WAAHHHHHHH!!!

Paragraph 2

Met a girl on Wow WAHHHHHHH!!!

DivergeUnify

There are 2 paragraphs?

God help me, I can't find the second.

I did, that post was before you broke it down.

OP, why would you tell someone you presumably "love" that you're going to kill yourself if they leave you. Why do you need that to keep a relationship together. Because it's not really a relationship but just a admiration.

There have been times where I have felt that there really is no point in going on but then I look at myself and what my goals are. Whether they're short term such as beating GTAIV, getting past a raid dungeon, or learning a little bit more about electromagnetism, or long term like making your name prestigious and developing a groundbreaking theory in physics. I actually do hold that last goal as one of my own and though I realize that I may never reach it, I also realize that I'll never reach it if I'm dead.

Just set some long and short term goals to make it through the days.

[QUOTE="Lokantis"]

[QUOTE="ligerz76"]Suicide is never the answer. You're so young and you have an entire life to live. Instead of getting a fast food job go to college or something, meet people and get friends(a social life), and a real job. I would never trust someone on WOW, you don't even know the person. I'd imagine she could be some creepy pedophile pervert shemale man-thingy with big deformed kazonkers and a moldy male-thing. Just live your life and you will find your place in the world and true happiness. After all, you're only 18, who knows what surprises life will hold, eh?DivergeUnify

College is not an option for me since parents are kicking me out soon and I have to work full time to afford living. I might go to army though, but only when I become Canadian citizen, still about another year till application and if things go wrong I dont think I would be able to wait that long. I guess army would be the only thing that could help me.

Yes, a very good option. If you're thinking at such a low point that you're thinking about suicide and can't support yourself any other way the military really is the way to go. Basic will inspire self-confidence and they you'll get a lot of benefits while you're in there.

[QUOTE="suicidalpoptrt"][QUOTE="Lokantis"]

[QUOTE="suicidalpoptrt"]I honestly think you're lying for attention. L ast time you posted this you got tons support from people so just quit your whining and move on. Ther's other fish in the sea.Lokantis

I've never talked to anyone as her who would understand me so well, and care for me even a bit. Besides I promised her I will never be with any other woman in my life except her so other fish is not an option for me.

Who said she did? It's just that it's all kinda hard when all you can do is talk over mic or text chat. But I am sure it will change soon