I'm really worried now. The woman who is setting up my baby-sitting job keeps delaying the meeting because the kids' mother won't return them to their father. He keeps leaving messages on her answering machine and her parents', and there's no answer. He doesn't have his van to drive down and get them himself.....we're afraid she ran off with them. I've been depressed about this all day. I want to help them, and I worry about their safety. She's supposed to be in court on June 1st to give full custody to the father....what if she doesn't show up? This will bother me for days now....and I have finals to study for! I guess the main thing that gets me is this.....whenever I look forward to something, it gets taken away from me or turns out badly. My life wasn't like this for a little while now, but I REALLY want this sitting job. I feel like I need to love those kids even though I've never met them. I hope everything turns out well in the end.

Overall I had a better week than usual. The friend I wasn't speaking to and I made up on Monday I think. She even invited me to her party two weeks from now.:)But, I don't know if I can go.

I also made the National Honor's Society!....finally! It was a really fancy ceremony. I had to dress up:roll:but it was still fun.

On Thursday, I got to do something really interesting. The 8th graders at my school were reading a book about a disabled person, and somehow the Life Skills (disabled) group at my schol was brought up. They made really nasty comments about them, so some other girls from Child Care, some kids from Culinary Arts, and I went into their English period to teach them about how disabled people really are....we work with them in Culinary Arts and Child Care and know how to treat them and what they can do. We made them ride in a wheelchair, try to turn on a speech machine, read with glasses that had Vaseline on them, try to eat Jell-O with twisted utensils tied to their wrists, and button a jacket with gloves on to teach them what disabled people do EVERY DAY. To teach them that they're NOT as smart as they think. Actually, a lot of kids even went to the Life Skills teacher and told her they learned something.:DThe kids at my school can be real jerks but can learn something when they need to...or have a guilty conscience.

I also get to take a college course this fall! It's called "Western Civilization" (I have NO clue what that is.) I have to pass a placement test....but I think I can do it.

I have finals next week.:roll:I really hate them. It's the only reason we even come to school the last four days. I have 6 1/2 days of school left!

The kids I'm baby-sitting for are probably coming at 10 am tomorrow! I hope they like me!

I gave blood today!....for the first time. It was actually kind of fun. I had to sit for about 2 hours before I could go. I actually handled it quite well...I wasn't nervous about the needle, and I didn't even feel lightheaded when I was done. The guy that took my blood was funny....he seemed impressed with how I handled it, and the fact that it only took 7 minutes to fill the bag of blood. That was the highlight of my day.:PThe rest of it sucked. Here's why....

My boyfriend and a couple of my friends went on the band trip...I didn't. One of these friends liked my boyfriend for the longest time, but was willing to respect it when I started to date him. Well, on the band trip, she was all over him....sitting on his lap and flirting, and she even flirted with one of my best friends's boyfriends. She didn't even talk to many girls! Well, my best friend told me about it today....and needless to say I was very angry. One girl even got pictures on her phone but deleted them later. Anyhow, this friend and I decided to confront her about it face-to-face. Well, I was at the blood drive, so I couldn't do it, but my friend did. This girl said that she was glad she was told how we felt. But then next period, she started bawling....of course. One of my friends...I'll call her Number 3, asked her what was wrong. And another friend of mine (#2) said, "See, this is why we fight, because you're so nosy." Then SHE wanted to know what was wrong! How can someone be so hypocritical? Anyhow, this friend who was crying, the one that was flirting with my boyfriend, said he ASKED her to do it! When my group of friends told her I was too smart to believe it, #2 said, "She's not that smart. Those answers she gave to that worksheet? They're probably all wrong. (to my other friend) "So you were on his lap huh? Good job!" Well, I'm mad now and I'm not friends with them anymore! They crawl up each other's asses and act like they're better than everyone else...and they're not. Well, a friend and I are going to the Relay on Friday to spy on her and see if she flirts with my friend's boyfriend again. I'll show them! In a way, my friend called herself stupid because I'm way smarter than she is! She even copied my double-sided History worksheet! Uggghhh! Any advice? Cause I kind of believe that my boyfriend asked her to do that.

Here's my grades at the end of the third marking period:

Academic Advisory (basically a study hall): 100

Child Care: 100

Ecology and the Environment: 94

U.S. History 2: 94

HealthA: 98

Driver's Ed: 92

Phys. Ed.: 92

English: 98

Spanish: 98

Geometry: 83