Well my show is tomorrow I'm excited, but also sad. This is my friends last show he's graduating. Now I'm afraid that he won't do the other theatre company that we do together. Which means this COULD be the very last time I see him. I've been preparing my self for this day for a while. This might be the time to let go of a very dear friend. *Sniff.* I'm sorry. Since the show is the day before his 18th birthday I'll make him a card. It'll be a birthday/goodbye card. I'm not the only one feeling this way all his close friends in the show are feeling very sad too. My friend especially. So any advice on how to say goodbye without breaking down?

Today me, my mom, and my dad are going to see The Phantom Of The Opera. I'm wearing a red and black halter dress. My hair is also in beautiful curls, and I'm wearing make up. IMO I look like a Princess, and I feel like one... COOL!

Chapter 2 is up on "Together We Stand" it's on fan fiction it's getting good reviews I'm so excited! It's a fairly odd parents story!

I've been doing alot of thinking lately. Mostly about the guy I will marry. But after all the boyfriends I've had so far I'm starting to wonder if the right guy is out there somewhere. My friends at theatre tell me that he's out there. My other firend tells me just to be patient, and wait. He tells me that there is a guy out there who will love you for who you are. That means alot to me he looks after me. It's every little girls dream to get married. I know that my friend doesn't want me to grow up too fast. He likes me being his little sister. But I won't be little forever. Any advice?

So here is how my weekend went. I went to rehearsal saturday and sunday all day long! So you know my friend who was sad well now he's not. Well he tells me not to touch his folder or else he'll pick me up. Me thinking he's kidding starts poking the folding and saying "Look I'm touching your folder! Oooo!" So then guess what he does he picks me up flips me upside down and starts tickling me. Next time I'll think I'll listen. Funny huh?:)

Things are improving. My family isn't aruguing, I'm not fainting anymore, and I'm alot more happier.:) Oh here's the best part my friend is feeling happier too. When I walked into the room he smiled. He was laughing and playing with me again.:D Thank you guys so much for your love and support! Praise God!:)

I'm starting to get very stressed. My family is arguing. Another thing to worry about is that I'm not feeling well. If anyone could post a reach out blog for me to let more people know on t.v.com what's going on that'd help. Plus my friend still hasn't ansered the phone. I CAN'T TAKE MUCH MORE!!!:evil: I've been close to passing out more than once lately. I just can't handle things anymore.:cry:

*Sigh* I'm losing hope in my mission to help my friend. He hasn't answered his phone in a while which worries me. I hope he's alright. I hope he hasn't done anything stupid. Gasp would if he has. I'm so scared...:cry:

Well I saw him yesterday. We had a LONG conversation. I told him that I wanted to help him. He said "You can't help me you're too small." That really crushed me into tears. I'm not gonna let that stop me! Or maybe he's right maybe I'm too small, and weak. I just wanna grrr I'm so upset!:cry:

I'm so worried about my friend. I don't want him to kill himself. I could never get over it!:cry: This has hurt me more than ever! What do I do?! I'm desperate for advice! Any advice that help me save my friend. I can't stop thinking about him! Ever since that day I've been crying too many tears constantly! I've got to do something, but what!? I'll miss him so much if does it! No more hugs, no more hellos, no more anything!!!:evil::cry: