I've had a really tough week because of my friend's death, and lately I've fallen into a slight depression. I even cancelled all of the auditions, showcases, and meetings that I had planned for my dance career...and that's not like me. But today, I recieved a package in the mail from Evan (my boyfriend) He sent me a 'love package' as he calls it. Inside, was a tape that he made of my family saying hi to me, and he said a little speech that made my heart melt. Also, he sent me a HUGE teddy bear, pictures of me and him throughout the years, and...a beautiful heart necklace. He made me laugh, and smile, and cry. I love him so so much and I can't wait to see him.

"You're not alone through all of this, Ry. We love you. And I love you. I admire you so much for everything you go through. With both dance and your life. You are truely my hero and my inspiration for everything. Without you, I don't know what I would do. I wouldn't be the person I am today...and I definitely wouldn't know what love truely is. Luckily, I do know what love is...and that's all thanks to you." -Evan....my everything.

I'm still sad over the loss of my friend, but I needed to post something a little happy.

Here's another shout-out to family. To say everything that they mean to me and how glad I am to have them in my life.
It's my twin sisters' birthday today...Happy birthday, girls!

Tyler: Thank you so much for the love. You email me everyday and it made me feel so much better through all of this. You are always there to protect me.

Josh: Even through my hardest, saddest, worst days...you can always make me laugh. You have no idea how much I love you for that.

Carly: Oh my...I don't even know what to say about you, little sister. You are my bestest friend in the whole world. Thank you so so much for being there to talk to me, day or night, on the phone. Tell mom that it's my fault that your cell phone bill is so high lol.

Alexa: Happy Birthday, lexa bean! (family nickname..don't ask lol) You're now officially a teenager. Oh geeze...what will we do with you? Parties, boys, sneaking out...haha. Knowing you, you're bound to get in trouble one of these days. I'll have your back when you do.

Haley: Once again, Happy Birthday, sister! Even though you're twins, you and bean are nothing alike. I know that you'll be a good girl. Watch over our sister! (jk lexa...or maybe not =P) I love you.

Noah: Goodness, I love you cutie! You always know how to make me smile. No matter what. I can't believe that the family baby is already 7! You're going to grow up to be an awesome guy.

Evan: This is my boyfriend...but he's considered family. Words can't describe how much you mean to me. You always are there for me...and even though we're a country away, I still feel like your here, protecting me. I love you so much, babe and I'll see you as soon as you can fly out with Josh and Ty.

Mommy and Daddy: I'm still your little girl and I'm so so glad that you guys are supporting me on all of my decisions. I admire you guys so much with raising 7 kids and still are able to stay in love, work full time, and run a whole household. I love you guys more than you'll ever know. Each and every one of you.

And thank you to all of you guys here on tv.com for all of the support with my hard time. I love you guys.

...And Aiden, please watch over me and keep me safe. I know that you're happy now and would want me to be happy. I miss you so much. I miss talking to you for at least an hour everyday. I love you so much.

I'm so lucky to have this support system. I love you all.

I have no words to describe how I feel right now.  My best friend was killed in a car accident last week.  I didn't want to talk about it for days, but now, I just needed to get out my feelings.  I don't know what I'm going to do without him.  I've known him for ten years, now.  He was my first true love.  I can't stop crying and I wish I was able to say goodbye.  I'm flying out to california for the services, but I still have to come back for a manditory performance.  I don't know what to do with myself.  I'm a total mess.  Please help in any way you can...?

RIP Aiden.

Okay, so you all might already know that im a HUGE bright/hannah shipper.  Idk, there's just something really refreshing and cute about them that i love so much.  Well, right now, i watched the re-run on abc family of "land of confusion"...and i didnt realize i would get THAT mad watching bright cheat on hannah with that ***** (you can fill in the blank)  I mean, I know what happens with bright and hannah at the end of the series, but still, i got so fired up that i was actually looking for something to throw at the tv.   Of course, i didnt find anything in time, so i just started to freak out lol.  now im mad at bright and i feel bad for hannah, even though i know what happens.  wow, this show is really having an impact on my life...lol

anyways, just thought i'd share my anger.  now i have to get to bed...i have another audition for this showcase tomorrow.  bye!

Hey!

I just wanted to see if anyone was willing to make me an Everwood Bright/Hannah icon that I can use on here.  I can't seem to find one and I dont want to take anyone's without asking, so if anyone wants to offer me one, that'd be wonderful!!  Thanks a bunch!

Fave Tv Show

Survey

01. what show did you choose?: Everwood

02. name the main (regular) characters: Ephram, Amy, Bright, Andy, Delia, Rose, Harold, Edna, Irv, Hannah

03. is it still on the air? if not, when did it air?: No =(
2002-2006

04. five favorite episodes (titles, and/or descriptions):

a. Season 2 finale: Ephram and Amy finally together!

b. Season 3, Staking Claim: Ephram and Amy exchange "I love you"s for the first time!

c. Season 3 finale: BRIGHT AND HANNH KISS!

d. Season 4 Pro Choice: Bright and Hannah...I love you's

e. Series Fianle:  Ephram/Amy finally together again, Andy/Nina engaged, Bright/ Hannah = best friends for life...love it!

05. five favorite characters:

a. Bright

b. Ephram

c. Hannah

d. Amy

e. Delia (^not in any particular order)

06. five favorite quotes (or moments):

a. Bright: So it's going to be me and you...just best friends, for life.

b. Ephram: ...because I love you too.  I knew it then, I know it now, I'll know it always.  You're it, Amy.  You're my one.

c. Bright:  (telling Hannah how beautiful she is) ...and I picture you at 3 in the morning.  You look amazing.

d.  Ephram:  (to Amy)  I still love you.

e. Amy:  This is a good song
Ephram: (jokes) Yeah...maybe Hannah and I will play it at our wedding
Ephram:(Amy hits him) You are a very violent person.


07. anything you would change about the series?: I just wish that there would've been more Bright/Hannah scenes in the finale and that the series ran longer

08. ever thought up a premise for an episode you wish they'd do? what was it about?:  I've had ideas for the show... but no full episodes

09. ever had a dream related to the show, its characters, or actors?  Surprisingly, no

10. did the show have any spin-offs? Nope

okay, well, my siblings wanted me to do an 'about them' blog since i never get to see them anymore.  so here we go, here's all my brothers and sisters:

Tyler (23 yrs): My older brother... always willing to help me out with whatever.

Josh (21 yrs): Party animal!  Haha, long story.  The funniest guy in our family.

Carly (16 yrs): My little sister...my best friend.  Seriously, even though I'm older than her, I look up to her for everything.

Alexa (12 yrs): The most outgoing and loud... this girl is up for anything!

Haley (12 yrs): "the brains of the family"... to put it in tv language..for all who watch gilmore girls, this girl is definitely a Rory!

Noah (7 yrs): The baby...he's my little buddy and always puts a smile on my face!

And of course, my wonderful parents!



I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH AND I'LL SEE YOU AS SOON AS I CAN!


:D

Well, I'm in new york now and have been for over a week, I just haven't felt like writing really, lol.  My boyfriend came with me, as you know, but he left yesterday :(  It was so hard to say goodbye but hopefully I'll see him soon.  He really wants to transfer out of UCSB and move to new york with me, but I won't let him.  I can't let him give up everything for me...  so anyways, i finished unpacking a couple of days ago with my Aunt, but I'm thinking about renting this apartment that's really nice and right down the block from her, but I want to get settled down here before I do anything.  Well, I'm going to rest a little because I have an audition for a small show tomorrow... not a biggie, but if any important people come, i have a chance at a big break.  Wish me luck!

    Im moving to New York with my aunt to continue my dancing career.  My plane takes off on January 3rd.  I don't know whether to be happy that my career will actually get somewhere, or to be sad because my family doesn't want me to go.  We all talked it over, and they are okay with me moving, but of course, they're still a little upset, which makes me upset.  As for my boyfriend, he finally came to his senses and he's okay (kinda) with me moving.  He's going to fly there with me, so I won't have to be alone, and he's going to stay for the remaining time of his break from school.  Then he'll go home and he'll come back to visit me as often as he can, on long weekends, or breaks, or for my birthday (coming this April)  I just hope everything will work out.  Well, I'll be taking my laptop with me so I can still go on TV.com.  Thanks for the support, you guys.

        Wish me luck! :)

I've started packing for New York, and it hasn't been easy, just dealing with that task alone.  But also dealing with my family and boyfriend.  My mom was just very quiet when I told her... happy for me, but at the same time, very disappointed.  On the other hand, my dad had a huge blowout.  He siad that I could persuade my dancing right here in Cali, but I disagree.  Now, he won't talk to me and I know that deep inside he's happy for me, too, but he just covers it up with anger.  Im not as upset about their reaction because I know that they'll eventually come around.  But my boyfriend... that's another story.

I called him to come over so I could tell him, and he did.  I first just spent szome time with him, because I wasn't sure if it would be the last time after I told him.  When I broke the news to him, he responded just like my mom, quite and very sad.  I told him about working out a long distance relationship, but he said that those never work out.  He just started to walk out, and when I tried talking to him, he said that he just needed some time.  In guy language, that could mean different things.  So he left, and hasn't gotten in touch with me yet.  I'm pretty sure we just broke up, and I really don't want that to happen.  But I just have to go to new york for many reasons.  So now, My family AND boyfriend is mad at me, and I still have a TON of packing to do.
im not having a good day :?