Hello again ! Today was a typical Summer Sunday in Rio de Janeiro. Bright sun, blue sky, hot hot weather to compensate so many days of rain.



I spent the day by the pool at my brother's, eating a delicious barbecue. Dad, Mom, Sis, all the kids to celebrate my nephew's birthday. Very good ! Updated my tan, had a good chat with Sis, gave all the attention to Mom. Happy family Sunday party !!!



Because of all that sun and pool I feel now like I could sleep a whole week. But as I have not won the lottery, tomorrow is Monday and working day. Oh, shoot !!! I totally agree with Garfield - Mondays suck !!!





However, who knows ? Perhaps this will be THE week !!!! Good stuff in the oven. Tell later.

happy to be back

Thought I would never be back in  here in during this lifetime!

Busy, busy week. Some visitors from Norway and the office was crowded, noisy, crazy team... Old Blonde Guy leaving, emotions flowing, New Cute Young Blonde Guy arriving, couldn't get my eyes of him. He has been here before, but everytime is the same thing - temperature rises a lot just by looking at his astonishing blue eyes, his incredibly long eyelashes and his cute, firm, sexy butt. Oh, my, Big Blond Boss is about to loose his #1 position...

On Tuesday we had the farewell dinner for the Old Guy. It was at Porcao, the fancy barbecue restaurant. Never had so much fun before - people drink a lot and start speaking up their minds. Lots of jokes, dirty comments flying back and forth the big dinner table. And as if it was not enough, good idea from Crazy Driver - everybody went to Carioca da Gema to dance samba. I danced so much next morning my ankles were killing me. Bad idea dancing samba with a 15 cm heel. But Old Guy loved the party, was really happy, a tv crew filmed us, everybody went home in peace, drunk and happy.

Next day the hangover was the main character on board. Silence, heads down and big, sore eyes and feet and ankles. Even Big Blond Boss seemed to be feeling tired - he the one who never gets tired.

And so the week seemed to last twice as long as usual. Friday looked so far in the horizon. Me studying hard - every day, not counting Tuesday, of course. Really involved again with Law, concepts, debates and question, millions of questions. Less than 20 days to start classes. Can barely wait.

Really missed here, the posts, the girls from boards, eveything. I will try to keep updated during lunch time working days and during the weekends.

mood: oh God do help me !!!!

music: No Woman No Cry - Ben Harper

Day full of emotions !

During the night, strange nightmare - dreamed with a former colleague who left the company sometime ago and with the Barbie girl. So strange and yet, so predictable! Now it is time to forget - no point mourning of the spilled milk.



In the morning, the eyes were puffy like if I had cried all night - I think the swimming pool had too much chloride and as I am alergic to it, no surprise they were pretty sore. Clean face for the day - just like a school girl.



Then, I arrived at the office just to find out the net was down - no emails, no internet, nothing was working. A lightning storm in Curitiba on Friday set equipments on fire and maintenance team crazy all around the city trying to fix everything. Perhaps tomorrow things will be back to normal.



Because of that, Big Blonde Boss didn't receive my ranting email. Being stupid as I am, I disregarded this as a sign to stay quiet and did speak up my mind. As usual, he appreciated my gesture, thanked me a lot and, because he insists in speaking Portuguese, I am so far not sure if he did get the whole point. I hope so - it would be a very unpleasant surprise for both of us if he did just the opposite I have asked him to.



I don't know yet if I am promoted or unemployed. Be my guest - your bet is as good as mine. The important is that I unburdened my heart and put a good fight for what I believe in. I am fighting for myself and if Prime Minister is pouting, screw her. I don't give a damn. Now it is wait and see what happens. Fingers still crossed and already hurting. As well as my shoulder - seems that tendinite (don't know the word for inflamation of shoulder tendon) is here to stay. Now I have to be careful so no one notices it.



Good news - enrollment completed with success ! I can only attend 4 disciplines this semester due to conflicts of schedule. But it is better than nothing. Next semester I will try to compensate. So, it is count the days until Feb 12 !!!



What else ? Oh, yes, good perspectives announced by the horoscope. Seems that until Jan 31 I will be a star. Social magnetism, lots of good things in work, love, everything. Couldn't be better. Says there I will be even beautiful during this period. For Christ sake, I do need that !!!!

Anyway, just a period of serenity would be nice to me. It is all I want - peace, tranquility !!!

location: crawling to bed

mood: think gonna be sick...

music: Maybe tomorrow - video clip by Wave

Well, it seems we have a trend these days - being busy !!!

I thought I would have plenty of time this weekend to post a lot in here and everywhere... What a poor guess ! 

Saturday morning is supermarket time and I was feeling bad - like getting a pretty bad cold. Headache, sickness, tired, I bought all the things and came home, feeling like a zumbi. So I went to bed and prayed to get better - cause I had promised to Princess Daughter to take her and couple of friends to the movies. I really had to drag myself out of the bed and dress up and take a cab and take the teens to see Ben Stiller. In the end, the film was really good, so funny that it helped to make me feel less worse. When I got home, all I wanted was my soft pillow and lights out.

Today Sunday, I went to mom's. I had promised her I would be there for lunch and to my Brilliant Brother I would go too. So, dragged myself out of bed again, dragged kids out of theirs and there we went. Again, it was such a good family time that I am feeling almost human now. That is why I decided to say hello.

I can see I am freaking about tomorrow's chat with Big Blonde Boss - I know I will get burned anyway, at least really stressed. It is as everything is with me - extremes - being fired or being promoted. But I am worried, cannot deny it.

And besides of everything, it seems that the grey cloud is trying to come back - I will fight it fiercely but in these days of PMT, it will be a tough time.

So, let's cross the fingers and hope for the best, in all the areas... See you around !!!

Oh yes, by the way, found some very nice images. Check them below...

-> When the grey cloud insists on hiding the sun:



and it makes me feel really unhappy and lonely



then I remember there are so many wonderful things in my life and many others yet to come



and the grey cloud goes away and I fell happy again !!!




  

mood: stressed, tired, hot but happy

For the love of the Lord, I have never waited so anxiously for the weekend as this week. So many things goind on, so much work to do, so much to talk about and no chance at all to come in back here...

But today is FRIDAY !!! Day of posting and getting updated !!!



Still studying hard, trying to use every available minute to compensate the four year gap. Sitll so  many things to review and research and study. And it is so good to be thinking in the law area again - the concepts, the terms, the ideas. How I missed it....



Besides having so much to study, also at work things are pretty busy these days. Visitors from Norway, new project manager arrived, old project manager leaving, Big Blond Boss still with nose glued to the laptop screen, Prime Minister doing nothing to solve problems... 

Today I decided to kick the bucket again and for once this time. The first conversation with BBB was soft and generic. This time it will be really tough and specific. I do have to shake him up to get everything on track again. So, on Monday either I will be looking for a job or I will be promoted.



Dog and cat ok, kids ok, mom and dad ok too. Everything in family is fine - off-home is a chaos, but I have control of my small kingdom.

Ok, I will have the weekend to post in here. No need to rush.

Hi everybody ! I am missing the old days I could post here more frequently... Now I have to make 4 years in less than 30 days. Studying hard, sleeping badly, worrying too much about everything. Stress level is far up but the grey cloud is definitively away for a good while.



People at office were so happy for me getting my "request-for-coming-back" approval and we all went out for lunch to celebrate. The guys there are really great and supportive. Big Blonde Boss was at first concerned I might consider quiting job and being a full-time student. He is so naive. I could never afford this. Just told him, no, mister, I will be right out there for a long time looking at you and at your disposal (more literally than he knows about it = hehehehe....).



Now, I am just waiting for them to confirm my internal transfer from Rio downtown campus to Niteroi dowtown campus. But I don't think I will have problems with that and even though, I will attend class in Rio if necessary.



The cat Sime is lovely, very smart and totally tiranic - meows all the time following me around asking, no, demanding that I take her and keep her in my arms. So queen-like! When I am sitting at the computer, she literally climbs my legs clawing my tighs to reach my lap. My legs are now just like a sieve, full of little holes... When she is comfortably set, she falls asleep and I cannot move my legs until I get them numb. What am I going to do with such a spoiled little cat?

Poor dog Billy is still quite jealous. But he is overcoming this with my attention. He being so brute is not helping in his friendship with little Sime, who shows him her claws whenever he comes really near her. Both black, both full of attitude... I love them!


Just passed by to say hello and say: keep believing, dreams come true and miracles happen !!!!

Love you all !!!!

"Don't let your heart be filled with sorrow, for all you know tomorrow the dream that you wish will come true".

No, it is not a new TV series about a bunch of lawyer cheating on the system. The post today is about dreams.

Someone told me that 2007 would be a year of accomplishments. I listened to that and thought about how many people have dreams yet to be fulfilled and because some of these dreams are so difficult to be achieved, people have lost their hopes. Then it was a good thing that during this new year some of these people would have a chance to see their dreams come true.

I never expected to be one of these people, especially so soon. I have adopted the above theme from a as my life moto and have been trying to follow the idea and keep faith. Sometimes it is easier, sometimes it is very hard. I see now that good things happen when you least expect.

My folks recently found out I had quit my Law course because I could no longer afford to pay it. For me, a single mom with two kids and all the bills to pay, it is so hard to set appart that money each month. Then I decided to put the course on hold and wait for a miracle (such as winning the lottery or finding a rich sponsor). But then Mom and Dad got to know about the situation - from third parties, I believe, cause I never share my problems with them.

So Mom called me yesterday and out of the blue told me they have decided to pay the monthly tuition and that I should get ready for starting this semester. I was really skeptical at first for I know they have a difficult financial life as well. But Mom says I should not worry about this - it is their commitment now and I should focus on studying hard and becoming a Federal Judge.

After crying my soul out, I then applied for the semester and decided to remove the cobwebs from the books and notes and revise everything - after all, I have to fill this 4 years gap.

Another funny aspect of the matter is people asking me why Law School, as I have always worked with text production, translation and administrative organization.

The explanation is - exactly ! Laws are nothing more than a collection of texts produced by a group of people representing a society and expressing the rules for the social life. These texts are the true and actual representation of society thoughts, wishes, concepts and morality. The way these laws are applied to the people represents the ability of the State to afirm its power - on the other side, the people reaction towards the law and its application shows the reaction and acceptance of the State. Also, the way the law is written and structured shows how organized we can make our society and life.

So, I covered all aspects. More than anything, I like to study laws because it is a window to study people's mind as individuals (considering their submission or transgression of these rules) and the society (considering the reasons behind the rules and penalties and their application).

Does it make sense to you? Makes a hell of sense to me !

Anyway, I will be fulltime dedicated to study from now on. Therefore, my posts here will be more occasional.

(Strange, I can hear some cheering now)

I am really happy !  Wish I could share my joy with everyone !