Hey guys!!!

Well this Thursday at my school is the day during homecoming week that we get to dress up like out favorite actress. Im really excited. My best friend is dressing up like Dr. Grey on Grey's Anatomy and was like you should dress up like Izzie cause I have blonde hair lol. And I was like umm probably not I think I will be dressing up like Miss Benson[saying that like Star did lol]. So I have been wanting to dye my hair brown for a really long time and I finally got it done!!! So I need some input from yall here.. should I wear my hair in a ponytail, halfway up, or down, my hair is cut like Olivia's is in Fault????

Also what color shirt sweater thing should I wear?

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Well guess what........7 days!

Yeah that's so exciting!!!!

School is going pretty good for me I reckon. How about the rest of y'all?

This weekend is going to be pretty fun.. Im going to apply for a job at the Haunted Barn for the month of October. Its going to be fun if I get the job. So wish me luck. lol.

J/W Is anyone else watching the episode I am watching right now I think the name is Head. Did you see that woman try and get all up on Elliot... that just ain't right. That should have been Olivia :twisted: lol.

Well I guess I am going to get off of here and finish watching law and order svu.

Oh yeah "Screwed" comes on tonight on NBC.

mucho love.

GO MARISKA!!!!!!!

Hey guys!

Well I finally redid my myspace.. so if you have one PM me and I will Send you a friend request!

I need some more SVU friends on there. lol.

Well guys i figured I would go ahead and tell you that the aunt I was talking about in one of my last blogs past away yesterday..... but it is ok because I know she is in a better place, and she is not in pain anymore....

Basic About you:

Gender: Female

Height: 5'10 or 11 [yeah im really tall]

Eye color: hazel

Hair Color: im a natural blonde. but i promise i am not dumb. lol.

Birthday: october 28th

More about you:

Do you like your handwriting? not so much...lol

Do you have any bad habits? oh yes. manyyyy

If you were another person, would you be friends with you? yeah why not?

Are you confident? I try to be. Sometimes it is hard though

How long does it take you to shower? 10 maybe 15

What color is your room? black and white.

Where do you ewant to attend college? Northwestern Tech [criminal justice and criminology bay bay]

Do you...?

Sleep with stuffed animals? nope.

Take walks in the rain? yes. makes my hair frizz like something SERIOUS though. lol.

Drive? next month!!!! woo hoooo

Want to get married? Not sure yet.

children? no..

Sing in the shower? yeah i sing everywhere. and i stink at it too.

Color/highlight your hair? Yep. havent in a whileee though.

Wear makeup everytime you go out? yeah pretty much.

Like to cook? dont like too. but i am a good cook. =]

Have you ever...?

Been out of the country? Nope

Gone skinny dipping? somewhat. lol.

Had surgery? no.

Pulled an all nighter? Yep

Gone one day without food? I don't think so

Slept all day? Almost, but no

Bungee jumped? Nope

Been on a plane? yup yup.

Pranked called someone? Yeah

Gotten a cavity? Yup

Shopped at Abercrombie and Fitch? no. im not really into that stuff. but i love ae and hollister though.

Broken a bone? Nope

Do you believe ...?

in miracles? Yep

in ghosts? no

in luck? Nope

in love at first sight?no that would be called lust.

in the Easter Bunny? lol no.

that cussing is a necessity in life? not at all.

Right this moment...

What are you wearing? workout clothes.

What are you worried about? a lot.......

What book are you reading? noneee. yeeahh

What time is it? 8:51

Are you bored? no law and order svu is on! and it comes on like 2 or 3 more times!!!!

Are you tired? no

Are you lonely or content? pretty content i guess.

Are you listening to music, if so then what? i was listening to tied together with a smile by taylor swift.

Your favorite:

Type of gum: spearmint

Restaurant: Ummmm. Kanpai. YUM.

Season: Winter

Type of weather: Snow!

Color: Pink

Candy: twix

Pizza topping: cheese.

Fruit: apples

Veggie: Zuccini, Squash, Broccoli

Type of cake: cheesecake

Magazine: any one of them that chris meloni or mariska hargitay is in. lol.

Day of the week: Tuesdays!!!!!!!!

Month: October

Holiday: Christmas

Number: 16

TV Show: SVU BAY BAY!

Flower: Rose

Well for starters today was officially a badddd day! Last week my aunt was diagnosed with cancer and they didnt give her but like 2 months if that... now they are saying maybe a week. So me my mom and my other aunt went to visit her in the hospital. It was so heartbreaking, she looked terrible she can't eat and everytime she drinks something she gets sick. So as soon as I walked in the room I started squalling. So I walked out of the room to get myself back under control, but when I walked out there was an older lady in the room beside my aunt and she was yelling out like she could see her mom and dad again (keep in mind I was in the hospice unit) and it was pitiful so it made me cry even worse. But today wouldn't have been as bad if my granny wouldnt have died a couple of years ago. She was practically my mom and to this day it still haunts me because I can see her in her hospital bed hooked up to the machine tha was breathing for her. And my aunt looked just like that today. and they look just alike so it made it worse. Then when we left my mom wouldnt even talk to me.. and she still hasnt yet except to tell me that law and order svu was on. So that is making me even worse. I just feel like I am losing everyone. I have lost so many friends over the past year. It sucks so bad...but I will be ok. Im a strong girl and I can get through anything. But I am done crying. I will not cry anymore, I refuse to. I want to be cold and not cry. I cant take it anymore. It feels like all I have done is cry. But I will be fine. and I am sorry for whining. But I just had to let me feelings out. And if anyone is still reading this really long post then God Bless you.

please pray for my aunt.

thanks.

I feel like crap. ughhhhh.

i dont know what to do..

i feel lost now, im so confused about everything. I wish i could go back in time and change everything, but i cant. i guess you just have to let go of the past and move on.

everything happens for a reason right?

Wow, I cant believe that this is the last weekend before we go back to school.... It sucks but then again i am kind of glad because that means only 47 more days til season 9 of SVU! WOOT WOOT!!

ok so this was a very short post....

goodnight all.

Ok so i am having some serious issues with school right now.....

i mean school starts in 2days and i can't figure out what school i want to go to...OHS or MCHS. I went to OHS last year but i would have to move away from my mom to go there (and i would much rather live with my mom than my dad.) And it also puts pressure on me cause wherever i go this year i have to stay because it is my sophomre year and if i move next year i couldnt be in the top 10.

anyways.. i am just really stressed and confused..