Ello everyone, I thought I'd post one last blog before the new year. A friend of mine from college showed me an evaluation he did of himself, meaning, he wanted to see how much he changed from a couple years ago till now, so he suggested I try it out and this is what I came up with:
2006 Version of Shawn:
Uncontrollable temper- Believe it or not, I wasn't the wisecracking, calm and collected guy I am today. I was actually a very short tempered kid. The slightest thing that annoyed me would drive me insane, which is why people always picked fights with me(Bad idea for them cause I do know to fight). In my defense, I don't start fights, I just finish em(Sounds cheesy I know:P), people who chose to fight me would always get in trouble instead of me, why? Having someone throw the first punch in a fight allowed me to plead self-defense:lol: I guess the reason I had a temper(I still do, but I control a lot better now, but thats somethin for later) is because of my heritage. My mom once told me that Jamaicans were descendants of pirates, and I'll let you guess what pirates did:P Plus, my family has a history(Was actually famous in Jamaica) of having bad tempers.
Liked Rap-I still do, but only old-school rap, not the garbage I hear on the radios and tv. To many people rappin about girls, money and other stupid stuff. AND I WANTED TO BE LIKE THEM!! Guess I just wanted to fit in.
EXTREMELY LAZY- I'm still lazy:lol: Just not as much.
So now you're probably wondering what happened that made me change. Well, one winter's day, I was relaxing in my bed thinking about my life up to that point and realized something: The crowd I wanted to be in wasn't my idea of a life, the rap waylife just didn't suit me, and these are the changes that hit me like bricks:
2010 Version of Shawn:
Learned to control my temper- Like I said before, I still have a temper(Thanks family), BUT I have learned to control it, in fact, I've only been2 fights since high school, the first being in m senior year(That guy now has a missing tooth to remember me by...yeah, a little force in that fight) and early in college(That person only had a bump on his forehead...hopefully, cause I stormed away in a rage sparing him only a passing glance, never seeing him again).
Got into rock music- The song that got me to like rock? "If Everyone Cared" by Nickelback and the rest is history.
I also learned that there are people who are gonna hate me so I stopped bending over backwards to please people, as long as my friends liked me, I didn't care about the opinions of others. During this time, the rest of my personality changed. I'm became more calm under pressure, became more sarcastic, more aloof to the point where less and less things offended me(Almost emotionless:|) and learned to fight ONLY when legitly threatened by someone.
But these changesdid have some drawbacks however. Because my temper is more contained, I find myself "blacking out" when something annoys me. Basically, everything becomes a blur, moves more slowly and my body moves all on its own and when does, you can almost guarantee my hands have formed a fist, but I do regain control of myself before I actually hit anyone. I told this to my mom and thats where she told me about the Pirate ancestors and the family temper. I guess this is why my friends were afraid of me in high school, not just my voice, but the times I would "black out" when something irritated me. Whatever those things were, I can't remember them.
Overall, that little evaluation taught me things about myself I would have never suspected. Gotta remember to thank that jerk I call a friend the next time I see him:P
See ya around the boards. Next blog won't be until next year.
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