I finally heard the complete message from master Kirael... im kinda amazed by it... he says that Ive acomplished more in this lifetime than in my previous 5 or 6... isnt that a LOT? =)

He also says that Im going exactly where i should be going, that im right in the middle of my greatest achievement so far and that Im a great magical energy pattern thats destined to make a HUGE difference on this plane... wow... i can "feel" this as I write it down here... Im happy to hear this, he also says that I have to be patient, that even if it takes some time to get where i should get, i shouldnt haste or rush anything... all in all its a great message, Its really helping me out right now... there´s just one thing that has me thinking...and feeling...

He said I should DEFINITELY start using my heart much much more than my mind... he said I was tought well enough how to make 2+2= 4 in the university...he now wants me to learn how to make 2+2=5... using my heart and following it all the time... I have to stop thinking...I have to start feeling... sounds Jedi-ish to me! lol...I have to do it... i will do it...

I saw a great movie today... "Heaven"... liked it a lot... but the good thing came when I went to Blockbuster to give the movie back... THEY ALREADY HAD THE STAR WARS TRILOGY ON DVD!!!!...next scene: me and my friend Daniel watching episode IV on DVD while munching some popcorn... talk about something cool!!! =) We had a blast watching that movie...

I got to my meditation as usual at night... then went to sleep... had some strange dreams... full of situations with some women, some other people... I dont know why I have been having these strange dreams lately...very real...yet I cant remember them when I wake up... I know there´s much more to them than being simple dreams... I just cant figure it out yet...

Viridiana is still in my mind...comes and goes... am I feeling this or am I thinking ?... Am I ready for a new relationship?... I guess this diary will tell in a few entries...

(NOTE: I write my diary the day after so that I can include everything that happened on the last day)

Today I had a very...normal day... I was writing for a while in the morning while chatting with Jeny about life as usual and had a great time... other than that not much happened, played paper mario in the afternoon... the cool things started happening in the late evening.

My whole family went to Plaza Satelite to buy some birthday presents for my sisters BF which is tomorrow... we had a decent time buying those, but then came the interesting part... we went to the food court tp have dinner there and did so... after much delivering what to have for dinner (and after meeting there by accident with one of my best friends [Daniel] also) I decided for some strange reason I wanted to try some new hot dogs place...

When I got there I got one of those moments that hardly happen too often...there was this beautiful girl in the cash register and well, i could help it, as soon as i could notice i was hitting on her (to put it someway), as well as she was on me! it was kinda...magic... the kinda magic i had been missing for so long... i could really tell she liked me as much as i liked her, then i noticed her name on her name tag, it was "Viridiana"... I like that name... when i saw her for the first time i couldnt help remembering the girl from my dreams... im almost sure she has something to do with that... im not very sure, but im kinda excited by what i felt... i know there was something... i think it will be reflected on this diary very soon as the next entries prove...once again... ;-)

After that we came back home and I did what i have been doing every monday for the past month, I tuned in to "The Great Shift with Fred Sterling" which is an internet live program about life, energy, healing, angels, etc... the cool part about it is that in the last hour of the show, Fred "channels" a light being or master called Kirael... well, I decided to call them on the phone (all the way to hawaii!) to ask him about my current problems with life... after MANY "occupied" calls, my call got through and was able to speak with him... it was so incredible... he told me many things (which i dont remember in their entirety, im waiting for them to upload the show so i can listen to it again)...one of the principal things was that I was thinking to much with my head, and that I should start listening to my heart more often...in every aspect... he especially referred to my "job" situation, and told me I should start looking for ANY kind of job right now... that it didnt matter if i didnt get payed well, or if i had to clean the streets of mexico city...that i had to get a job for some weeks or a month or so, to clear my mind and get going where i should..that i was destined to BIG things and should get moving right now... using my heart not my head... he also reminded my that i had been going through a great "pain" in my heart recently...but that he need not remind me of that cause i already knew...

I had some strange dreams that night... mostly involving Lorena and some other women.... I even killed one of them, it felt so terrible stabing her with a knife in the chest.... but the strange thing was that I knew she was going to kill me if i didnt do it first...just like the "WWII" dream i had... (im writing this the next day) i dont know why I have been dreaming so many strange things lately... mostly involving so many feelings... like love...im sure that yesterdays dream was much more than a simple dream... i wish i could know more... i guess ill have to be patient...

I´ll try to write some more when i get to hear more about my "channeling"...

Talk about day full of wonderful things!!!

This is the stupid second time I have to write this down... stupid internet conection wont let me finish this...

This is my first "journal" entry since June this year (and my first "internet" entry ever)... much has happened in those months... much has changed... im not the same person I was then... not by a longshot...Ive been through Hell and back more than once... have no job, was sick, depressed...

Putting it simple I got reborn a few weeks ago... in a way I never even dreamed possible... Im starting life from scratch...

I will only write down on special days... days that may have a special significance for me, a special "ocasion" for me... all in all this is my diary right? ;-)

I think today will keep going calm...slow...yet, nicely... I´ll be playing some games and will also go to the movies with my friends later today... Dont know if we´ll see Alien Vs. Predator or Fahrenheit 9/11...either choice sounds cool to me...

I feel life has something in the oven cooking up for me right now... i dont know what it is, but i can definitely feel it... Im so sure about it, that you just have to see some entries after this one to see how I was correct about that feeling...im THAT certain... by the time it is there, this will make more sense... Im sure of it...

The Force is Strong... I can feel it flow through me...