RIDICULOUS, I tell ya ! Just ridiculous. I don't even know why I was banned, but I guess that posting all these hateful racial comments and posting pics of tubgirl aren't doing a favor to my cause... :roll:

I am :D. Long time no ''journal'', eh ? Well, not much going on here, except the fact that I got suspended once again. This is getting ridiculous, but then again, I'm such a terrible forumite and I'm an absolute scum bag. Yea, I know :(. Anyway, my OT days are numbered, so I won't complain too much. Why the title ? Oh, I just got an A in my 2nd exam of med school !!!!! I'm so happy that my hard work finally paid off, and this motivates me to work harder next time to get another excellent grade. I'm about to start my neurology unit in 3 weeks, and I'm already contacting the neurosurgery staff to spend a lot of time in the OR and to learn how to write some case reports in some journals. I really hope I'll be able to do research in NS this year, it'd be just awesome. Oh, I've become the dorm's DJ :lol:. The RIAA must be looking for me right now, hehe. God I love music. I just love it :oops: !

See you next time

BlackJack :D

This will be short. Well, I'm getting bored of OT. I know, it's not the first time, but today is just incredibly boring. I think I'll take a break from these forums (besides, we have an exam in 2 weeks, so I've got to set my priorities straight).

Ciao :D

Damn, now you can realise how boring I am. My titles lack originality, but eh, it's the thought that counts, or in this case, the lack of thoughts...

Another average day. I had a 3 hours PBL (problem based learning) class. It was interesting, since I managed to fully understand the material. Med school is actually easy. People don't realise this. It's ultra competitive to enter, but once you're in, you'll realise that the material is indeed easy. It sure isn't quantum mechanics and nuclear physics, so I'm all good. The only catch is the volume of material. My friends call it : drinking water out of a fire hydrant. No, that's too easy. Make it 2 fire hydrants, lol. Anyway, after the class ended, I came back to my room which is like 100 meters from the medical faculty + hospital. I ate with a friend, then we went back to the faculty to have a conference on cancer. This was definitely an interesting conference. Dr. Kinov is an incredibly funny professor, and she always puts pictures of random stuff in her powerpoints. We saw Blade, mickey mouse, and a robin hood in the presentation, lol. There were more shocking parts to the powerpoints though. People who had a half their face eaten away by cancer, people so skinny they would make the most anorexic person you've seen look like a 500 LB wrestler. Definitely something that makes you think about the amount of suffering some people endure every single day in their lives, how lucky you are to have a relatively perfect health. We really need to find a cure for stupid cancer...

After the conference, I went to the hospital to get a vaccine against influenza. Since we'll be exposed to all kinds of diseases in the upcoming months, our faculty thought it'd be a great idea to give this vaccine to most people. My arm is still a bit numb, but I'm alright. I'll fast forward from here until around 7 pm. I was having diner with 3 friends when I noticed something outside. I was looking at someone playing videogames in his room, through his window. You can't even imagine how rare gamers are in this place. So, I decided to go see the guy who was gaming, and to talk to him a little bit. 20 minutes later, I was kicking the ass of three 3rd year students in Soul Calibur 2, lol. those guys are really cool and laid back. That's the kind of people I enjoy being with. They're serious when it's time to work, and they know how to have fun (my kind of fun) when it's time to play. Anyway, I managed to meet new people today, so that's quite interesting. And a few hours later, here I am writing these very words. I have kind of slacked today, to tell you the truth. I don't have too many things to do this week, and tomorrow we don't have a class, so I'm taking it easy. I guess I still have a balance somehow, eh.

And that 's about it for today.My journal is starting to look like a short version of my everyday life. Most people don't do this in their journals though, but don't worry, if I have something important to talk about, I'll make it a subject of my journal. Thanks for taking your time to read this. Bye !

Funk, aka BlackJack :lol:

Yea, I'm out of ideas for a title... Well, where shall we start ?

Today was a pretty ordinary day. Just as usual. Studying, eating, posting in OT, and more studying. My life is exciting, I know, but somehow it doesn't bother me at all. It seems to bother others more than it does bother me. Go figure. I realized you can't expect a really exciting life when you're so focused on your education. For those who do not know (how could you ? the name is a hint), I'm a medical student. I started my first year 3 months ago, and so far, it's alright. It's definitely a lot of work but it's interesting to learn how the human body works every day. I enjoy having some knowledge on a lot of stuff, especially when it's about science. I'm not really balanced though so far. Maybe I'll find some balance later, but I doubt it.

I'm very focused on working and studying, and I hardly go out and all. Yes, I don't have much of a social life, although I do have friends. I just don't go out often with them. Personal choice, I suppose, and to tell you the truth, there are some things that don't really excite me (going to bars isn't my cup of tea, nor going to wild parties). I have no wild side, it seems. I'm a fairly boring guy who has few major interests in life, and that's the cold hard truth. Can't be more boring than Funk...Oh well, I suppose maybe it's that kind of personality it takes to be a work-aholic surgeon. Ideally, I'd love to become a neurosurgeon, but there are chances I'll change my mind about it. The good thing is, I'm really open when it comes to any field of medicine, except a few like dermatology and pathology. That's what so great about medicine, almost everything is fun and exciting. I really can't wait to hit the wards. Whether it sounds cheesy or not, I enjoy helping people the best way I can. I can't believe they're letting me become a doctor. The job owns, at least from what I've seen so far ! You get to help and save people all the time, and feel really proud of yourself, since you made a difference somehow in this crazy world we live in. I'm still a med noob though, and I have a LOT to learn, but so far, I feel like I'm definitely in the right place. And the time is passing by so fast...

Oh, I've been personally attacked once again today. I'm starting to get used to it, and frankly, I'm partly to blame for being so open about my education and my professional goals in life. But I just think it,s ridiculous to bash someone and to make a pseudo-analysis of his personality and motives given the relatively low personal info online. Listen, if money was my main motivation, I'd be interested in more lucrative fields, where there are less chances of being sued, and where you don't work 100 hours a week on average. A neurosurgery resident at my school told me : NS is a way of life. And from what I've heard so far, it's true. Those guys could care less about their bank account. It's all about the love of the job, the dedication for excellence. They're driven by the never-ending quest for surgical perfection, and improving the quality of people's lives. I just love reading stories of pioneers in neurosurgery who created revolutionnary techniques to help the community. Working on the brain is probably the rare few things these guys enjoy in life. You have to meet one to believe it, otherwise you'll think it's just BS. One of my friends, who is in his second year, is also dead set on neurosurgery. It's hard to explain, but I just love every single great thing I hear about this field. I really can't wait for my neurology unit in february. I'll study 80 hours a week if that's what it takes to ace this particular unit. Even the names own ! Come on, aren't you excited when you hear of transphenoidal pituitary surgery ? What about thoracoabdominal aneurysm repair ? Vagus nerve stimulation ? I take it I'll be the only one with illuminated eyes. Your loss :P

And to people who enjoy bashing me, do you actually think it makes me question my motivations about medicine ? Nah, come on, don't be foolish. People will take any chance to stab you, it seems. I won't necessarily call it jealousy, but it sure isn't love. People who know me in real life know that I'm a fairl simple guy. My head is on my shoulders, and I'm not expecting people to create a gold statue of me. Hell, you don't even have to like me. Just don't hate me, it's that simple. I personally hate it when I get portrayed as a pompous arrogant jerk, because that's not my personality at all (although, to say the truth, surgeons, and especially neurosurgeons are stereotyped as pompous arrogant jerks with god complexes, according to med students and other docs). But I don't care about stereotypes. God-willing, I'll be a neurosurgeon, and a good one on top of that, no matter what online forumer # 32495 thinks. And I want people to consider me as a normal guy. I can't walk on water, and I can't fly. I do realise it won't be the last time someone will wrongfully judge me. That's one of the prices to pay when you have one of these rare high-paying and high-status jobs. You can't expect me to be ashamed of my education. Am I supposed to hide in a corner, because, oh heaven forbid, I have ambition ? Oh well...

Man, this is really long ! A journal is definitely therapeutic... I am not a ''big talker'' in real life, and my friends know me as the quiet guy, but it's fun expressing thoughts and emotions from time to time, to let the steam out. This is definitety more productive than I thought, and although I could theorically use the 20 minutes I'm spending here for studying instead (med student guilt syndrome :lol: ), I think it's worth it. Well, thanks for reading all of it, for those who did.

Have a good day :)

Funk.

I really should be studying instead, but after reading 50 pages of pathology, I'm kind of tired of it. Funny, I never really bothered to use a journal before. I always thought it was useless, but as I am writing these words, I'm starting to realize this could be more fun than I thought. Hmm, where do I start ? (sorry for the poor structure, and for the spelling mistakes, french being my first langauge).

Hmm, so let's talk a little about me. Well, I was born in Ivory Coast (beautiful west african country gone to hell like most countries in Africa). It seems like our leaders are only focused on stupid tribal wars, otherwise they're not happy. At the age of 12, I came to Canada with my parents. My dad, being such a good visionnaire, knew that political instability in my home country would only get worse in the future, so he chose to send his family to a better place. And he made the right choice ! At first, I doubted his decision. Come on, Canada sucks at first when you're a 12 year old immigrant kid, with no friends, in a new environnement, where you're a minority, etc... And the cold, the freaking canadian cold. To this day, I still b!tch about the damn weather. Anyway, where was I ? Hmm, yes, so at the beginning, it was rough, but as time passed by, things seem to get better. (I'm currently wondering why the hell I'm writing this, when only 2 people will read it. Oh well). Let's cut to the point : I'm quite glad I moved from Ivory Coast right now, although I miss the place. I have so many memories childhood memories back there, so many friends, family, etc. Hopefully, I'll go there next year. Hmm, I'm not trying to write too much otherwise I won't have enough ideas for the other journals. Thanks for reading it, and check my journal tomorrow (I'll try to update it as soon as I can). Bye ;)