▲ The graphics werent very good. And the cars controlled terribly. Why are people excited about this game again? ▲

▲ With Call of Duty getting a 9.0 here, and getting good scores everywhere; not to mention the huge sales these games get, it's clear to me the FPS genre is the only gaming genre to never die.

Ever since I can remember, FPS have been huge. Since Doom, to Half-life, to Halo and now to Call of Duty. I always thought that at one point the market for these games may become saturated, this may happen yet, but it hasn't. It seems like every other genre of gaming seems to have had a moment in the light, and eventually the games stop being so popular. But the one genre that never seems to slow down is the FPS genre. I suppose it's just one of those things people never get tired of.

Allthough I personally don't find most FPS appealing, I realize I am in the minority. I wonder what is so wonderful about the prospect of shooting your enemy, it seems to have a universal charm to most people. People may never tire of this genre. But what I want is to see developers and gamers focus on other genres for a while. Because personally I'm a little tired of all these FPS.▲

▲ Amazon just had a sale/deal. You buy two games, and get one free basically. So I bought MGS: PW and Mass Effect and got MGS4 for free. Feels good man. Now I own all MGS games. This is the first time I've bought a game in a long time too...▲

▲ It was a solid game. It suffered from an indentity crisis for sure. Some iffy gameplay designs. But man the story really did it for me. I'm really eager to find out what happens next. I want to know how he became a vampire. I want to know how Zobeck survived. There is so much more to see in this reboot. I just hope they make it more like a castlevania game in the sequel. I also want IGA to make that Castlevania 1999 game for both the DS and PSP. ▲

▲ Yup, so I gave in and bought the 250GB Xbox 360, new version. Feels good, man. I bought along with it Kameo: Elements of power. That was the first game I played for the 360 years ago so it makes sense to start from there. I was going to buy the 4GB version, but thats just not enough memory. I could have also bought a hardrive with it, but a good amount of memeory would cost more than the 250GB version.

I'm pretty excited for it to arrive thursday. My brother is going to flip when he sees it. It was pricey, since i'm poor lol. Now I own all consoles. I don't plan on doing xbox live, so I'm going to have to update via memory stick - so I can play old xbox games. There are some great 360/PC exclusives I want to play for this.

w0000000000000000000000t! Now to write a paper ugh. ▲

▲ So, I've been playing this game. I'm not very impressed with it. I don't really like it. ▲

>My face after I beat the demo.

▲ Holy crap that was an amazing experience. I died 4 times, that's right, FOUR times until I beat that huge robot. It took a while for me to figure it all out. I didin't know I could go down the stairs until my last try. It took me 45 minutes to beat the demo. So many rage inducing yet awesome moments in this game. Reminds me of the first time I played DMC3. I'm just shocked right now. How am I going to sleep tonight, lol. Makes me wan't to retry Bayonetta. Graphics are good, not great. Music...couldn't even pay attention. To busy shootin stuff. QTE was unexpected but fitting. I am hyped for this. ▲

The coke line is dead and dry
Nothing but blood and tears
A wasted life to you and I
She lies with a smile

A child gripping onto life
A small thread to steal
Slippery hands loosen love
And the strength life reveals

I...can't go easy and appeal
The judge in me wants to steal
I cast a stone onto the unknown
Because the rage burns like a thousand suns

A failed attempt at suicide
The office drones squeal
He hung his shame and said goodbye
To the debts he couldn't deal

An older love, fading light
Faith is not so real
Convenience is the truest lie
When you want to kneel

And I...can't go easy and appeal
The judge in me wants to steal
The fear I feel from all that's here
I cast a stone onto the unknown
To me it's not real
No, it's not ideal

This rage burns like a thousand suns
This hate from something I cant tolerate
Into the sky, I pierce my eye
So the Sun cannot steal

It was more like two days. Why was I modded? Censor bypassing of course! I was not cussing. Just mentioned the site that shall not be named. Why is GS so scared of that site? LOL scardy cats.

Today was my first day of Community College. I'm taking CC because I did not get enough credits to go straight to a 4 year school from high school. Why did I not do well in highschool? Because I hated highschool! I hated everything about it. The people, were what I hated most. I did not mind the work that much.

So, here I am. 20 w/o a drivers license. Having my dad drive me to school. Calm down, I'm taking the Driving test on the 30th. What sucks is, I have not gotten enough driving practice so im nervous about the test. I really hope I don't faill.

Anyway, back to school. So today was my first day of CC. And everything that I hated about highschool...is still there. Same annoying stupid kids. I think I suffer from social anxiety. I don't mind talking to adults or going out in public that much. But when I'm in a schooling enviorment I feel anxious, demeaned, sad, lonely, very lonely. I've never had a girlfriend, so I was hoping this year I would lose my virginity. I'm trying but no job + no license + the way I feel in public + i get really nervous around girls and I don't know what to say to them + I see no worthwhile girls + no good looking girls around, is hindering my plan. Oddly, Im actually good looking. Also, I was picked on a lot growing up. So I guess that adds to it all. I was a fat kid. Not very good looking either. I didin't really fill out untill I was 19 or so.

I don't hate people. But I just don't fit in. Or I feel I don't.

Also, I've been trying to get a job since January. I got a callback(finally) from a store, Wal-mart of all places. No self-respecting person should have to work there. So when I did not call back my mother was really upset. Because she said I should have gone in for the interview for experience. Well she said she was not mad for me not intending on working there, but later she said the opposite. She had a mixed argument of rage for days. Even though she was the one that made me fill out the application to wal-mart...and even before that I told her if I got the job I would not take it...

So I'm trying to get a job a Harris teeter or Gamestop. Harris teeter is more likely at this point. I have to go tomorrow and talk to the manager. I really want a job so I can buy stuff!

So, I guess I'll stick with school. I'm determined to atleast get an associates degree. It's the least I can do. I have to do it. I don't wan't to work at a minimum wage job for the rest of my life. I wan't to become something, I just don't know what. But I don't like traditional options. I like singing, but I don't know how to write songs but I do write lyrics. I also don't know anybody in a band or that have any musical talent. I can sing...well. I like to draw, but that is more of a hobby. I don't think I have the drawing ability to compete with the pros or be a pro.

I am kind of working on a 20+ page piece to submit to 2 publishers; Sometime before october 30th. I hope I can get it done in time.

Also, my brother left for real college yesterday. It was hard to say goodbye to him. I guess you never know what you have until it's gone. Socially, he's even worse than me. But I have faith in him. I think he has more promise than I.

I guess that's it. For now. Bye.

I don't know how much longer I'm gonna be around. I've been getting so many moderations lately. Eh...

Anyways, I start community soon. I'm really nervous. Also, I have to take the driving test on the 30th. I wish I knew how to drive. Really nervous about that. Mom has been angry at me for days....ugh

damn.