Soon I might make a shocking change for most of you - I plan on making soon a switch to another account... Don't get me wrong, 6832 profile views, level 26, nearly 7000 posts and a decent amount of popularity, good reviews and emblem isn't really something that's worthy throwing away, but I don't like at all the fact that all this year I've constantly changed my direction, my attitude, but one thing is for sure - certain errors of the past have been haunting me ever since the period when I was newbie. Well, I shouldn't be surprised, I'm after all a teenager, sure, more intelligent than the average, but still a teenager and a human - therefor, it's normal to make mistakes. The real problem is not that some of those mistakes can lead me to some personal insatisfactions, is my sometimes complete lack of ambition that stopped me doing the right thing from the first moment I made this account. You see, I've always (or almost) had some great ideas in my head, but others were faster than me. In fact, I always had the impression that someone is one step ahead me, that I was maybe born too late (by the way, did I ever mentioned to you that I sincerely wished I would have catched the Lithium period?) even though I could have made the decision, but I didn't wanted to. What I've missed...
I was already a master of "re-doing from scratch". Remember when I wanted to have my post count reseted, or remember when I deleted all the games from my "Games" tab just to start all over again? You would say that I should have done this before surpassing Metal Slime. Well, I don't care so much about stats anymore. Unlike what I think, I simply don't judge a user by its post count or emblems or whatever. If a user is above level 30 and has more than 20,000 posts, that doesn't mean (s)he doesn't have no life, as it doesn't mean that (s)he spammed to get to that post count. Actually, I know some users with many posts that actually manage to be intelligent. Also, if someone is new around the site, that doesn't mean he should put in the same category with all the "n00bs" or trolls. There's a difference between what's on the outside and what's on the inside. Cheap phylosphy...
I don't know what to say. Intentions aren't the same as facts; this might be just another canceled plan... But something isn't there anymore. I used to love the name of Ponsardin, but now I only mildly like it. I used to love earning emblems, but now I simply don't like waiting months for another easy emblem or an emblem that isn't the "live feed" or "tournament participating" types which seem to be really hip these days... I really need to re-establish my priorities... I'll tell you guys if I'll make this big step... Either the decision will be, now I'll going to finally make that alternate account... We'll see if it will be alt for ever.
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