Hello my secksy friends :)

I miss everyone and everything, especially this keyboard I'm typing on! :D But yeah, I managed to get some revision done but I have to admit, I got distracted many time, my friends wanted to go out, reading comics and playing my DS which reminds me, I recently bought Final Fantasy:Echoes of Time. It's cool so far. I still never found my maths coursework... oh wells.

So how y'all doing? Going out today hopefully to buy another game and new bag then staying at a mates for movies and games. Fun :)

Nothing else new lately except I dyed my hair purple, not all of it though so don't get hapz or shocked lol. I'll be catching up on the blogs I missed when I can seeing as I've not been home lately but I'll try friendly ones (:

Buhbye.

Sorry for this but I have to go on a break for around 10 days. I have crap loads of revision to do because straight after my two weeks easter break, I have exams to do. It's bad enough already I haven't finished my ICT work which is due in this Friday, I have no chance of completing them. I also lost my Maths assignment and I also have to give it in before Friday. I've totally failed man that's why I really need to do well on my upcoming exams.

Other than that, I hope everyone has a good easter :)

Laterz.

EDIT: I just found out I've been tagged by FIREsausage so gotta add another 10 facts lol.

Yeah I got tagged a while back by dark_massenger so here's some 20 lame facts about me...

1. I'm probablly the most random person evar. E.g Sometimes I ask my friends if they want to know something cool, I end up telling them something about my... panties lol.

2. I love RPG games, like a lot. I instantly fall in love with anyone who loves RPGs.

3. I have a picture on my wall of three transvestites that are prostitutes.

4. I'm really weird and crazy. Crazy-I tried flying into a bush and I run into the walls for the fun of it.

5. Most people I know think I'm bi-sexual because I'm always on about how I love Lara Crofts boobs and 'cause I'm always saying how hot I think some girls are.

6. I kissed a girl once, worst experience in my life. Disgusting.

7. I'm a very gullable person.

8. I hate it when people cheat in relationships no matter what the excuse is, it's pathetic.

9. I'm playing Tales of Symphonia now, what a great fact.

10. After reading Twilight and all the stupid fangirls going nuts about it, I pretty much dislike it now. From love to hate, wow.

11. I really want to watch Monsters vs. Aliens. Bob is so cute!!!

12. I'm listening to Hearts on fire by John Cafferty now

13. I've only just woke up so I'm still in my sexy pyjamas

14. I have some games that I've still never played before lol

15. I read hentai sometimes. It's so funny.

16. People see me more of a tomboy at most times than a girly girl or whatever.

17. I wear boys clothes sometimes, they'r so comfortable!

18. I'm a hetrosexual -_-

19. I'm a dumb 15 year old

20. I decorated my wii mote and wii with brawl stickers, nice eh :D

Yeah so that's it, I didn't know what other facts to write and I'm not tagging anyone, I really can't be bothered lol. Oh yeah and a super big apology, I've been missing a load of blogs, I've been kinda busy... playing... games... a lot... lol. I'll try to comment on some now :)

My birthday party was the best party EVAR! xD

Thanks everyone for the birthday wishes.

But yeah, as I said I'ma get pissed, I did lol. I'm a bit of lightweight sadly. I drank a whole large bottle of cider, two big bottles of WKD and another bottle of WKD mixed with vodka, then a few sips with vodka on it's own. Lightweight? Meh. Lol. I remember some stuff that has happened but not clearly, but I do remeber puking up everywhere... even on my own shoe which was disgusting. Oh well, I told you I'll make the best out of my party and I did. I enjoyed myself so much. Only bad thing is that I lost most of my birthday money, 70 pounds! I was pissed so I can't exactly remember what I did with it :( But hey, enjoying myself is what counts :)

Apart from that which can go on forever lol, hows everyone doing eh? :)

Yeah, suprisingly enough I'm still alive. I read your comments and I kinda felt better. You lot pretty much supported me a lot. I can't say I'm now the happiest human on earth because I'm really not, I'm still heavily depressed but I'm trying my best to cover it up in front of my friends and family 'cause I know they're just going to ask me what's wrong then I'll be even more emo. I still can't talk about my problems, I know, it's my fault but I try.. But I don't know why, I just can't even though I really want to.. it's so hard.

But seriously, thanks to everyone here.. I would've been really lost with out your incredible support.

It's my birthday tomorow and I'm gonna try to make the best out of it. I have a feeling that the special some one won't come so I asked my friend do get more booze and keep extra supervision on me, I don't wanna run away again. I wanna get pissed like hell too, forget some crap and have a great time.

Again, thank you to all of you.

Right... this has nothing to do with gamespot or any of you lot. This is just me trying to let all my emotions out 'cause I got no where else to go to... Here goes...

AAARRRRGGGGGHHHHH I can't bloody handle it anymore :cry: All this pain!!!! It just keeps getting worse to every second that passes by!! I just want to bloody kill myself, peace!!!! Every day, I take a step closer to my veins! More blood, and more... blood blood friggen blood!!!! All I ever tried to do is to keep everyone happy, be there for them, but now I just want to runaway from all this. I'm too depressed to handle anymore of this. I can't talk to anyone about my problems 'cause no one even friggen cares or bothers. If they say there'll be there for me they'd just be like "believe in yourself" "be strong" "dont give up" WWWTTTTTFFFFFF I try everyday to keep this stupid smile on my god damn face yet it just feels like fading every hour that passes by. I'm a really difficult person to understand, I never talk about my problems even though I want to but wanna know why? CAUSE NO ONE EVEN BLOODY CARES!!! They dont encourage me to let myself speak about whats wrong when they clearly see me feeling down. They either stop talking to me or they just say oh just leave her, she seems upset.... but when I see them like that I friggen givwe them all the love and care I can... WWWHHHHAAATTTT TTTHHHEEEE FFFF************* AAAAARRRRRRRRRGHHHHHHHHH

KILL ME ALREADY I CANT HANDLE ITTT ITS BEEN GOING ON FOR YEARSSSS I CANT HANDLE IT ANYMORRREEEEEEE

I cant fake it anymore.... theres only one person that made me know what happiness is.... yet im still forgetting what the heck it is.

I. Want. To. Die.

ORLY? YARLY. NOWAI! YAWAI.

I have a thing for saying orly... anywho how's everyone doing?

I don't really have any gaming updates but I'm sure I will have some by next week as I'd be getting new games. The one's that I'm sure I'll be getting are: Tales of Symphonia, Sonic and the Black Knight and Fire Emblem:Radiant Dawn or Shadow Dragon.

I've read a review today in the Official Nintendo Magazine about GTA:Chinatown wars and it seems like a pretty awesome game. It got 94% and the only negative feedback it got was that it's "dangerously addictive" Doesn't sound so bad to me :P So I'm considering of buying this game along with Final Fantasy:Echoes of time and Dragon Quest:The hand of the Heavenly Bride.

I'm thinking about writing a review soon, not sure what of though but maybe after I finish some coursework lol :D

Oh and sorry to some of you, I seem to have missed quite a lot of blogs :? I'll be sure to catch up on it.

Laterz dudes!

ROFLMAO!

Watch that video and that song will be stuck in your head for ever! :D Oh and hai, I'm back! :)

I still haven't done what I wanted to and I definitely haven't finished my coursework... lol. It's my birthday soon so I'm making a list of games I want for my parents/friends can get me :P I want Sonic & The Black Knight too tbh, the gameplay looks reasonable so it might actually be quite fun.

Not much has happened whilst I was gone but I came up with something once, about what thoughts often pop up whenever my ex is mentioned or he sends me an email, this is what I wrote:

Dear Moe,

I will be your reaper therefore, when I find you, I promise you with every bit of sorrow and darkness that holds within my heart, I will kill you. I ask for a favour, wait patiently for your silent, gruesome death. Please be my good victim, I would like to enjoy myself slicing your throat, ripping your cold heart out of your chest, writing on your disgusting wall with your filthy blood "I found you, now give us a smile". I will make you suffer but let me tell you this, when I say suffer, I mean worse than the fierceful and gorey hell. My friend, I beg of you, say your goodbyes to your loved ones as you will no longer live to see tomorow. I shall burn your soul and tear your happiness apart. My wish is for dirty animals like you to be executed. I will be your reaper.

From your dearest, worst nightmare.

This is what I meant by my previous blog title "I don't think you wanna mess with me" :P My friend got freaked out by this message but I can't help my hatred for such an ejit. Anywhoooo though, who wants to pley brawl?! :D

Laterz.

This must be pretty annoying to some of you out there, but I'm going on one of those breaks again. I got problems to solve and coursework to complete. Wish you all well etc etc etccccc

Don't know when I'm coming back, I might not, never know.

Anywho, goodbye to all.