By the beginning of next year, as many of you should know by now, I'll be leaving GameSpot for good. I made this decision a long time ago that I'd do this, and I've got to honor my decision. Now it's becoming more and more apparent as to why I did it, and I'm remembering why I told myself I'd do it in the first place. I've got to stay focused on my future, I need a job, my liscense, and a GED. More than all of that though, since I'm Christian, I need to pursue a closer relationship with God. To be honest with you all - I hate myself. I don't enjoy who I am, and I'm betting it's going to be a while until I do start to like who I am. Some of my friends are a little bit edgy right now that I'm going to be changing a lot very soon, and some of them aren't very convinced that I can since I've let them down before when I've said I'm going to change. If there's one thing I keep hearing time and time again, it's that 2008 is going to be the year of change. I've been hearing it for years, and to those of you that are unreligious I can't really explain it all to well, but some of you may understand even if you aren't religious.

2007 has been one of the worst years of my life, mainly because I've been so confused. 2008 will be different.

Here is to optimism.