It's Friday. The end of the week. The end of an absolutely terrible week. When I have a bad stretch like this, I like to reflect on what went wrong, and make changes to myself and my life so I don't fall into the same ruts again if possible.
Causes of my bad week:
#1 - Too much travel in a short period of time. It was bound to catch up to me sooner or later and it finally did in a huge way.
Solution: Stop traveling. That sounds easy enough. I'll give it a try and see how it goes.
#2 - Procrastination at work. Yeah, I put some stuff off because I though I'd have plenty of time to do it all. My project has been in a state of limbo since I started working here back in June so I've been doing whatever I could think of just to stay busy. I guess I should have been a little more focused on getting things done.
Solution: Stay on top of things a little better, and avoid distractions. ( like tv.com :cry: )
#3 - Disorganization. I've let things pile up a bit at home and at work, and I don't function well when I feel like things are out of control.
Solution: Clean up my home office, get rid of a lot of the papers I have a tendency to keep for no good reason, start making lists again to keep myself straight.
#4 - Depression. Depression has plagued me my whole life, and now is no exception. It comes and goes in cycles, and a lot of times is independent of outside factors; however, it can be triggered by overwhelming stress like I've had this past week.
Solution: This is a tricky one. I know some of you are thinking that there are drugs for this sort of thing, but I have a real problem with being dependent on drugs like that. So far I have been able to cope with it on my own by just knowing when it's happening and knowing it will pass. I also let some of the people around me know so they can keep an eye on me when it gets really bad. If I ever get to the point where I feel it is completely out of control, I will think about trying the depression drugs.
#5 - My general resistance to authority. Yeah, I've got issues with this. I don't like being told what to do. Usually if I am told what to do I will do the opposite out of rebellion. Sometimes it's even subconscious. Like if someone is encouraging me to do something I automatically insist on doing the opposite without even realizing what I'm doing.
Solution: Gah! I don't know what the solution is. Just the though of attempting to not be like this makes me rebel against the very idea.
#6 - Cold weather and no sunshine. The lack of sunshine especially has me feeling down. At work I have to go up/down 63 steps in order to see the outside world. It is dreary when I go to work in the morning and pitch dark when I go home. The cold is really getting to me this year. I don't remember it being an issue before, but I am really hating it now. It's even really cold inside where I work so I feel like I can never get warm.
Solution: Not much I can do about the weather or the way the earth is tilted, but I probably should think about buying a warmer coat and maybe a hat and gloves. The sunshine issue is really killing me, but I don't know what to do about it. My schedule is pretty fixed at the moment because I have to take my daughter to school in the morning at a certain time and then work for 9 hours. I am mulling over the idea of cutting back my work hours. I've got to sit down and go through my finances to see if I can manage with less pay first, and then ask at work to see if they will even let me do such.
Last but not least, I got some bad news last night. My grandfather fell and broke his hip and now he's in the hospital. He is in the mid to late stages of Alzheimer's where he is just about as far out in left field as he can get, but able to move around and do things. In very late stages, sufferers forget how to walk and talk even, but he's not quite there yet. His mother had Alzheimer's also so my family has been through all of this before.
Alright, that's it for me today. Don't worry, I am fine and I'm feeling much better. Writing all of this out is actually a good stress reliever.
Take care everyone, and enjoy your weekend. TGIF!!!!
~SBS
and then came the waitress of doom. It took about 30 seconds for both my husband and I to realize she wasn't playing with a full deck of cards. When she asked for our drink orders we told her water for everyone and I'll have a coffee with regular milk instead of cream. I swear it took her 10 minutes to figure that out and she still charged me for a cup of milk when the check came. Realizing that this gal was severly impaired, I knew I had to compensate as much as possible when it came time to take the food order. Sure enough, I had to make her read it back like they do at Micky D's and she had it wrong. My kids are little and barely eat so I always order a single meal and split it between the two of them. She had a really hard time understanding this concept and was planning to bring two of the same meals for the kids. She also failed to bring an extra plate so both kids would have something to eat off of and didn't even bring plates for the dinner rolls. This wouldn't have been too big of a deal except after sitting our food down she pretty much disappeared for the rest of the meal. We actually ended up asking another waitress for the things we needed. In addition to the looney waitress, the food was horrible. Like I said earlier, I have had nothing but good experiences at the same exact restaurant 20 miles down the road. How in the world could it be so different? I should have taken a picture at her blank stare for you all to see. I hope she never procreates.
To my surprise, I had no reservation and was told over the phone that Avis doesn't do pick-ups in that area. Mind you I already talked to them when I made the reservation to make sure this was possible and was assured everything would be fine and all I needed to do was call one hour before arriving at the station. I was getting kinda worried at that point so I called Enterprise and they were much more helpful and made a reservation on the spot and gave me the number to call to get picked up. 
However, the Enterprise office didn't open until 9AM and my train was arriving at 9:15 so there was a bit of a time crunch. Also, when I finally reached them they had no cars. Yeah, a rental car company with no cars. Somehow they managed to locate a car and pick me up complaining the whole time about how they had too many reservations and no cars. Fun thing to listen to after not sleeping the whole night, not eating, and listening to wailing and cursing for hours on end. I also opted to wait until I got off the train before eating breakfast. Had I known how long it was going to be before I had the opportunity to eat I probably would have stomached the prepackaged bagel on the train. 
Lack of sleep and hunger just compounded the issue. I can pretty assuredly say that my husband and I see the world from a totally different vanatage point. Every time he attempted to give me a direction I got more and more confused and eventually just hung up on him out of frustration. I just can't navigate based on a merry-go-round that I can't find, and he can't navigate base on street names and road numbers. 
Oh, and I refuse to ask directions which ticks him off to no end. :D So basically it took me forever to find the hotel but I finally did, and it was actually a very nice hotel. Once I took a shower and located an IHOP so I could eat breakfast at 2PM I felt much better. So much better that instead of going back to the hotel and sleeping I decided to ride around on a tour trolley.
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