Lately there has been a lot going on in my life, both good and bad.
On the good side, I have been enjoying a lot of games with my Xbox Live friends, and enjoying the downloadable content for such games as Fallout 3 and Gears of War 2. There are a lot of good things coming out this year that I'm looking forward to, both downloadable content and full retail games. Things with my fiance are great, although I still don't get to see her a lot. She and I have started playing Diablo 2 together, which is great fun!
On the other hand, I've realized that I'm suffering from a form of depression/anxiety. I spend every day worrying about things needlessly. People used to tell me I needed to watch the news, but now whenever I check out the news I see terrible things (not that that's surprising) that make me worry about possibilities. For example, the current issue with North Korea, the current terrorist threat on Washington, various health scares, the April 1st virus scare, etc. I get these things in my head and can't get rid of them - I spend all day thinking about these things in the back of my mind and it keeps me stressed. Add to this the stress I feel at work because I feel my abilities and knowledge are lacking, my fears for how I will be able to provide for my family in the future if the economy doesn't get better....
....and the fact that because of my own foolishness I almost died this weekend. I went up to Uconn to visit some friends for a few days and ended up going to the hospital because I had drunk far too much alcohol. I don't remember two or three hours of that night, and the first thing I do remember after a certain point was lying on a hospital bed thinking I was dying. It's not a good way to wake up, I can assure you. Now I'm feeling physical and mental pain leading from that, and I constantly think about the fact that I almost died. Add to that hearing about the things I said or the things that happened to me, and I am really not in a position to feel good about myself.
Anyway, that's what's been going on in my life, hope everyone else is doing much better than I am.
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