Right at this moment. This time. Every single motion we make, step we walk, and thought we develop, is a journey. To be awake, to be fully awake in life in every moment is a great journey I will make. The answer lies in my own self in and no one else. Everything in life you can realize in one single swift thought. If I can see, I know. Truth is here. Live your life in the passion of you and you alone. Don't wait.

Today I go to class. I really feel like playing a video game before I do though, maybe Super Mario All-Stars. I still haven't finished the anime I bought. I did get to watch Red vs. Blue Season 2 and wow is that s_hit getting funnier and funnier. Red vs. Blue is deep fried cream cheese. I'm quiting Halo 2 for a while, leaving my Team Slayer rank at 25. I probably won't be able to play video games that much for a while. But I'll definately want to get back into the game when Rainbow Six Lockdown and Samurai Showdown V comes out heh.

I didn't do anything special with my friends before going back to school, but that's ok. I really want to catch up on my reading. I hope I do well in school this semester, I have to set my priorities straight and with my new experiences I've had these past months and what I've learned about myself and other people, I can possibly better my life and the lives of people I know.

My PS2 game collection I used to have:
Dynasty Warriors 4
Dynasty Warriors 4: Empires
Grand Theft Auto III
Grand Theft Auto Vice City
Red Faction
Red Faction II
Timesplitters
Timesplitters 2
Final Fantasy X
Armored Core 3
Devil May Cry
Midway Arcade Treasures 2
Activision Anthology
Namco Museum
Kengo: Master of Bushido
Virtual Fighter 4 Evolution
Soul Calibur II
Marvel vs Capcom 2
Capcom vs SNK 2
Tekken Tag Tournament
Street Fighter EX 3
Dragonball Z Budokai 2
0 of these PS2 games have online multiplayer


My current xbox game collection:
Halo
Halo 2
Ghost Recon 2 2011 Final Assault
Ghost Recon 2 Summit Strike
Rainbow Six 3
Rainbow Six 3 Black Arrow
Conker Live and Reloaded
Star Wars Battlefront
Capcom vs SNK 2 EO
Street Fighter Anniversary Collection
DOA Ultimate
King of Fighters Maximum Impact Maniax
Guilty Gear X2 #Reload
Soul Calibur 2
Bloody Roar Extreme
Phantom Dust
Crimson Skies High Road to Revenge
Project Gotham Racing 2
Phantasy Star Online Episode 1&2
Chessmaster
Fuzion Frenzy
Manhunt
Raze's Hell
18 of these xbox games have online multiplayer


Reasons why I purchased a Xbox and got rid of my PS2 games:
-Weak PS2 games coming out - I wasn't interested in any games that were coming out for the PS2, most of which were not what I liked to play. Even though there were a lot of games to choose from, I began to slowly lose interest.

-PS2 Online Multiplayer - The games I had in my PS2 library I truly wanted to play online, but since PS2's online system required companies to put in a extra effort to make their games online (which meant Sony didn't support companies to put their games online), most PS2 games didn't have online multiplayer.

-Xbox Live Online Multiplayer - Not a thought at the time, but truly a defining moment in a console gamer's life lol. $50 a year for over 300 games to choose from online. Since Xbox is supported by Microsoft, game companies can work with Xbox Live to make their games online, which is a benefit for us gamers of course. In my opinion online multiplayer is a must have for a video game, what better way to make the game last longer? It's just too fun to play with friends and people online. Great player services and games, truly destroys any other system's attempt at online multiplayer (PS2, Gamecube).

-Star Wars Knights of the Old Republic only for Xbox - Yes sir. The ultimate Star Wars game for the Star Wars fan. One of the best action rpgs I've ever played. lol I don't even have this game anymore, but I plan to get it back.

-Halo Combat Evolved - One of the funnest if not the best game to play offline in a console lan party, and pretty much revolutionized offline console lan gaming itself. I could say this is the first game ever to bring me into Xbox along with Knights of the Old Republic.

-Fighting games - The PS2 and Xbox have some rad fighting games. Ultimately though in the future I would notice none of these awesome fighting games on the PS2 would ever come online, and soon Sony of America would deny production of most 2D fighting games for their console. Sony are asses when it comes to fighting games. Most if not all Xbox fighting games are online and they graciously accept 2D fighters into production.



still convinced I made the right choice.
Xbox>PS2

I've had tons of fun. Going to Europe was a blast. I'm 20 years old and not many people in their lifetime would ever get a chance like that :D Before Europe I was having the time of my life with some new and old friends. Drinking alcohol, smoking weed, going to see Gwar, meditation, reading, love, video games, movies, loving my life even more, anime, suicide, eating sushi ^_^, religion, philosophy, video games, friends, family, love, manga, xbox live, chinese food, serene calmness, lending a helping hand. So many things have happened.

I feel more open-minded then ever before in my life, I guess this is because of the way I change in thinking in my current situations. Perhaps I will do better.

These past months, weeks, and days I have somewhat strayed away from partying and being socially active. I've quit reading at the moment and have been playing video games a lot. Sometimes I will spend days none stop playing video games on xbox live. I've started to tone down now in my video game sessions however. I'm going back to dbcc on August 23, and I'm quite prepared for the road ahead.

I wonder how all of my friends are doing. Haven't kept in touch with most of them. The last time I hung out was with this one group at rob's 4 or 5 weeks ago. Funny german kid was running after passing cars haha. I haven't gotton drunk in a very long time. I sure do miss getting drunk with friends.

I think all of them are having good times or at least trying to. I'm kinda getting tired of being a isolated hermit video gamer and now I feel like partying again, but school is about to start.. Bah.

I'm getting kinda sleepy, will update later.