Well no matter what the situation, you can make it as good as possible. It sounds hard, but it can be done. No one believes anymore. No one has faith. And I'm not talking about God here. You can do it, for the love of God it can be done, quit thinking things are impossible. You have no irrefutable proof of anything because the "irrefutable proof" is still subjected to your own opinions and limited cranial capacity when taking in through your eyes and processed in your mind.
Sure it's difficult, but once you get the hang of it, things become alot more easy. I must say though confidence is good but arrogance is not. Confidence must be arranged with humility, grace, heart and courage as well as strength. These are where your true values must lie along with your honor, dignity and integrity.
Although, relationships have turned out to be so much trouble - I wonder if it's even worthit anymore.
Eh problem is I've not had too much experience with them. I'm somewhat under confident in that arena. The girl I just mentioned and I had a short stint for a couple weeks and we still like eachother and all, but the current situation doesn't favor anything being between us really, probably not for a couple years at least. So whether or not anything happens with us or not later down the road or if one of us finds something else, it's been a good experience. As much as I hate losing anyone, like my mother whom I lost when I was 13, I've come to realize the huge mistakes I had made earlier in life that made me somewhat hateful of the teenage kind and unsocial. I had friends and I knew everyone in my year and such but I had very few close friends. I didn't bother with it too much and I never made any effort with the girls I liked nor did I ever return the affection that I believe a few had for me like I should have because I honestly was scared to get close, whom were all great girls and the kind I like. Smart, attractive, hard working and very amiable and likeable.
Basically I've come to realize that relationships with friends, family, lovers and such are very important. Cherish them, hold them dear. Things don't always go smoothly but they are people like yourself. At some point you will lose them. That isn't reason to never know them, but it should be the reason to get to know them. This is your chance to learn about a different person and about yourself in the process from a being with mutual respect for the two of you. With the right person, it becomes more than that, and something much more so than I can really explain nor any religious zealot or tight @$$ed atheist could ever explain properly. With such idea I've also come to think that I must protect life now. I used to hate admiting I was part physical human, who is subject to bodily and material desires, but I had a revelation that it was part of me, along with my spiritual side. I'm both parts. I hated thinking that I was an animal, especially susceptible to sexual desires in particular, as I thought that's something that keeps me from reaching the ideal state that is truly human and beyond animal. That can't be as humans are biological as well as spiritual in nature. A relationship that I try to comprehend and can't explain, but I know is there. And because of my realization, it only drives me to protect life as it's so precious. This planet, the animals, the vegetation and us people. I don't want to see it be ended by something as cynical and stupid as ourselves or anything so menial. I must preserve it for the sake of everything else now. Part of me won't ever let me go of memories, I need them. And because of that I can feel guilty or stupid at times for making a mistake, but I learn and grow from it even if my conciense won't let me escape from them.
Pretty much you're here, try to make the best of it because when it's all said and done, the only thing you have once you're gone could be your memories of life as you drift endlessly through the concieseness of time and space. I must survive, I must preserve my life and life in general. I have to protect it.
Well, it turns out I couldn't sleep because thoughts of life started to terrorize my brain.
So, I'm wondering, are you guys happy? Like in general, are you happy about how your life is going, are you a happy person?_Marisa_
Well I'm not happy and I have the same thoughts as you, not necessarily terrorizing, but it does keep me awake. Well despite not being happy per se, I am on my way to financial independence at just over 20 years old, got a big promotion at my job and hopefully will have a place to call my own as well as a different car. Everything will be my responsibility, no one elses. Other than that I'm just working on myself and trying to do what I can to create a good future for myself and whomever I perhaps meet and fall in love with. Currently that's my weakest front by far, I'm shy but amiable. The girl I like is too young as of right now and has some growing up to do, but I know she'll mature into a fine woman with time and idk, she's a maybe perhaps but at least there is a mutual feeling between us.
So I'm not happy per se, but I do have alot going. Financial independence. Freedom to create my future and cultivate my mind as well make this life as good as possible. Just don't have a significant other....that's all. But I've been having revelations of sort lately and it's giving me more of a reason to live and take heed to things in my life. The seperation of the physical human being and spiritual human/soul can conflict me at times, but I've come to understand both alot better and the relationship of the two, as both are me and I am both.
[QUOTE="TacticalElefant"]It was alright. Had Indieness written all over it. God I hate it when indie movies try to be "indie" and you know it. Detracts from the movie, not to mention it wasn't that good and Sean Penn is a douche.Film-Guy
an indie movie trying to be indie, what else could it be:|
IDK I could feel something dishonest about it when I was watching.
It was alright. Had Indieness written all over it. God I hate it when indie movies try to be "indie" and you know it. Detracts from the movie, not to mention it wasn't that good and Sean Penn is a douche.
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