and i want it to be an online game, the one i have now is well, none, but i dont like socom, and i was wondering if metal gear port ops or killzone liberations is good? is there texting or voice? and is there ctf in any of em? which is funnest? which has more features?Â
you know, its one thing not shedding a tear, but i never got a chance to say goodbye you know? never got the chance to tell her i loved her, i dont think ive ever said this to my grandma my entire life after she's taken care of me when i was a baby to when i was six, that hurts as well, is not being able to tell them you care when you really do
i mean i was sad and shed a tear here and there when i heard she got cancer, but now when i found out she died, i'm not even shedding one single tear, you might think im an a-hole or something but i cant help it, its just so sudden that she died, just 2 months ago she was able to talk, walk, move her legs, arms, even eat by herself, then when the cancer eventually spread, she got weaker and weaker, not able to move a single arm, leg, finger, she couldn't even speak, she could but her tongue would slur, and she was unable to even open her eyes, it just seemed so sudden that its overwelming
i just found out my grandma died, right now, just a little over 10 minutes ago, she's had cancer for about 2 months now (metastasis cancer) where it spreads. im not sure if anyone of you have read my previous thread a couple of weeks ago, but well, she died tonight a few minutes ago when my parents jut got a call from the nursing home my grandma was in. the sad thing about this whole thing is, i'm not crying, i'm sad by the fact that she died, but its just painful that im not crying or shedding even a single tear.
(P.S. this isn't some lame joke im trying to pull off to make all of you feel sorry for me which i don't expect you do or not i just want to share my feelings with others, im not a real emotional guy when you know me in real life, which is the reason for posting this, because you can be anyone you want to be and no one would still know your true self, well this is my way of doing that)
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