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This song is just so good. enjoy

hmm I didn't get the emblem.. weird

I have a dream. I want to fly like a bird and get away from this world. School, work, relationship.. I feel like I am trapped in a cell. I go to school because I am told to. I amd told to get a  white-collar job because that's what this society so calls "successful life". I am somewhat depressed nowadays and it is hard to break out of it. To be honest, I think I want to be depressed. Maybe I want to be miserable as hell. I listen to sad songs to make sure I stay depressed. Depression is like a highly addictive drug. Once you experience the depression, you want to stay depressed until you open up your eyes to see the real world. In my case, I think I just want to be depressed so that I can be like one of those miserable characters in movies. Some might say I am a poser and I say back to them yes I am a poser. I am a poser who seek for the comfort zone. I am a poser with many heartbreaking memories. I am a poser with a depressed human soul. I am a bird flying in the sky.

I guess I am one of those people who lie to get attentions. well I used to be. I realized how pathetic I was and I am really ashamed of myself. Yes, I really am regretting all the lies that I've said and I wish I could take them back but I can't. The Bible says (or rather God says in the Bible) that don't look behind but focus on what's ahead of you because you can't never change the past. I've been trying not to lie and actually, I haven't lied for about 4 or 5 months now. The problem is I am getting paranoid by the fact that everyone will just assume that I'm lying. Well I guess I deserve all of that but it makes me really nervous and irritate. I am willing to focus what's ahead of me. No more lies.. no more lies.

Many people seem getting new blog headers so I decided to get a new one myself. I got that from another site and I was very impressed with a design. Anyway, I hope you guys like my new profile look as much as I do.

I do not love you as if you were the salt-rose, or topaz, or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.

I love you as certain dark things are to be loved, in secret, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that never blooms but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers; thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance, risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.

I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride; so I love you because I know no other way thank this: where I does not exist, nor you, so close that your hand on my chest is my hand, so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.

I just love this poem and yes, this is a poem

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Well yesterday I bought a dvd "The Departed full screen version" and I really didn't careless about it since I didn't know the difference between full screen and widescreen. Now, I saw that movie at the theatres and when i was watching it yesterday, I realize that I couldn't see the whole scene. It felt like the movie was cut into half. Anyway, so I went to the Future Shop and trade in for the Widescreen version. Now, I realize that I made a right movie because I was right. For the full screen version, i couldn't see the whole picture but they modified it. I am glad that I got the widescreen now and I am planning to watch that movie for a long time.

War at Home is on today. YAY!!!

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