That I'm leaving, and I'm really sorry...

but I hope that you guys can take one more lie.

Becuz that was one of them!     ;)

I'M STAYING!!!

(Fireworks go off.)

Okay, it might not be "that" big of a deal, but I feel pretty good about it.

I have fogiven myself, and now I feel my relatioship with God growing stronger.

Oh, and everybody except Emma should know that I'm a Christian.

If you're not that's okay, but I'm just telling you that I am.

EMMA YOU'RE MY BEST FRIEND ON THIS WEBSITE TOO!!!

And if this makes anybody feel left out I'm really sorry.

I knew Emma before Katherine, and I knew Katherine before Gwen, and I knew Gwen before I knew anybody else...sssooo that's why I like Emma best.

I LUV EVERYBODY ELSE TOO!!! AND YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE BECAUSE I WROTE IN A BLOG ABOUT YOU.

And before I forget. There's probably someone out there who feels like I forgot about them, but I haven't.

So Paco, this is for you.

elpaquilloloco (Paco): Your comments made me feel better. Even though you didn't know me that well, you still accepted me as a friend, and that was really nice. I'm really glad that I met you, and that we're friends. I'm going to try and write another story like "Pickled?", but it will be a different story. You're a nice person.

Okay, what else...ummm.

VOLLEYBALL CAMP WAS AWESUM!!! I DIDN'T WANT TO LEAVE!!! THERE WERE TWELVE GURLS AND I LUV ALL OF THEM!!! I'M GOING BACK NEXT YEAR!!!

When I got home, my brother gave me a present because he missed me.

It's a small snow globe with a little angel panda bear sitting on a cloud.

I LUV MY BROTHER!!! I LUV MY PRESENT!!! MY BROTHER IS SO SWEET!!!

God bless you all!!!

-Chrissy ;)

PS. Look for another story like "Pickled?" starting soon on my blog!

Why didn't you ever tell me that you knew? It would've made my life easier.

But I guess there was no easy way to let me know that you knew without making it sound like you were mad at me, right?

Anyway, I'm glad that I told the truth too.

I don't know if I'm going to leave, cuz it seems kinda hard to be friends with people when they know that you lied.

I'm glad that you still accept me as who I am, but I don't know if I can accept myself.

I feel really bad about it, and in a way I want you guys to be mad at me.

I don't deserve you guys as friends.

I'm going to be at volleyball camp this week and when I get back I'll make my decision final.

I'm still not sure if I want to leave, but right now I'm leaning towards leaving.

It's not that you guys are bad, or that no one cares about me...

It's that the punishment to myself is that I leave this website.

It's not your fault and it's not your problem...

"It's not you...it's me."

And this time...it truly is.

I'm sorry that I failed you guys. We'll always be friends.

We all fall...sometimes

We all...let ourselves down

Soemtimes there's nothing left, but to live with what's been done

And know you're not the only one who falls

We all fail...sometimes

We all...let someone down

Sometimes there's nothing left, but to promise to ourselves that next time we won't be the one to fail

I wanna tell you you can go on

That beginnings come from ends

I still believe in you...and so does God

 He's the one who still believes in those who fail

He's the one who still believes in us...who fall

       We All Fall, Superchick

The song is a little over-dramatic, but I feel really bad, and I know I'm being over-dramatic, but I don't lie that much, and I lied to people.

I'm really really sorry.

I let you, and more importantly myself, down.

-Chrissy

PS. You're all really good friends.

Everyone I just wanted to tell you that I am leaving this website, almost permanently, along with invisible13 and 1Judelovr, because I’m them.

You know how people tell you not to lie about yourself on the internet? Well…I think I broke that rule.

First off I’m not a twin and my brother didn’t die. Here’s the real me.

“It’s always hard to admit you’re wrong, especially about someone that you thought you knew well.”

Name: Carissa

Siblings: One brother, who is nine and is doing alright, besides his lung problem and being in the hospital that one time. He has asthma, I wasn’t lying about that.

Parents: A mom and a dad, they have normal jobs, nothing out of the ordinary.

Deaths: I have had no deaths in my family at all. That was a BIG FAT LIE!

Jennifer wasn’t real, and I’m sorry about that because the story made even me cry and I knew that it wasn’t real.

Best friends: They’re twins, Krystal and Kenessa and my second best friend is Danielle.

Boyfriend: Well at least one thing was true. I do have a friend named Matt, but he isn’t my boyfriend nor is he a twin. I don’t have a boyfriend, and I’ll probably never get one.

Birthday: I was right about something else too. It’s Oct. 8th and I am a Libra.

Pets: I have a little dog named Shaggy. He’s a Shih Tzu…that’s a type of dog.

Cousins: I do have a cousin named Stephany, and like fifteen others, but I don’t want to give out their names.

Hair: My hair is brown and poofy, I wasn’t lying about that. And I do wear it in a ponytail most of the time.

Favorite Color: It is black, and my second favorite color is blue.

Moving: Nope, lived in the same town all my life. I think that it would be cool to move around everywhere though.

It all started on nick.com, I told everybody that I had a twin sister named Jessica when I really didn’t. Then nick.com got boring and I moved to TV.com. I thought that people would recognize my name from nick.com if they got on tv.com so I built up the same lie.

I finally couldn’t handle it and decided to make invisible13, who I made to be truthful and the real me.

PhantomFan told me about fanfiction.net and how she wrote fanfics on there so I decided to check it out and I fell in love with that place, because I want to become a famous author when I grow up.

Everything that I wrote on fanfiction.net in my profile is true, because I vowed that it would be.

While I grew as a writer on fanfiction.net, I failed to make any more friends as invisible13, and instead gained more friends being crusheddp and having to continue the lie of webs.

I wanted to get rid of Jessica and the other Carissa so I tried to make them leave this website, but all I got was loyalty of one of their friends.

While I didn’t update as much on Jessica and Carissa’s blog’s I made a lot more friends by pretending that my brother had died.

Those friends were tricked even more when I told them that I had moved to a new town, but finally I got sick of writing more and more lies.

“Sometimes we have to give up the thing we want the most to do what’s right.”

So now I’m telling you the awful truth.

“We can try to be someone different and impress people, but all we’re really doing is covering up the awful truth.”

I hope you understand,

I tried to be someone that I wasn’t so I could meet new people. I don’t have a lot of friends in real life so I wanted to be someone different.

I hope you’ll understand, and I’m really sorry.

I’m going to dedicate this part of my blog to all of my friends that I have right now. I have fourteen wonderful friends, and I’m sorry that I have to stop tracking you right after I delete this blog post, which will be in a week.

redpoet2: I didn’t really know you that long since we just became friends today, but I can tell that you’re a good writer and I’m sorry that I didn’t get to know you better.

roxy_rocks: Same thing as redpoet2, we just became friends today, and I’m sorry that I didn’t get to know you better.

pablomaster: I don’t you that well even though we were friends for a little while. It was nice to meet you.

hsp_hsp (Bree…I think?): I didn’t know you that well, although I knew that you were Teh Muffin Queen, which is funny. I’m sorry that I didn’t get to know you better.

DANNYxxSAM_x3: We’ve only been friends since yesterday, and I’m sorry that we didn’t meet sooner.

lyokophantom (Gabby, right?): Yeah, we’ve been friends for a little while. You made me laugh a couple times.

adamactr (Adam): The story that we all worked on was awesome. In my heart I’ll always remember that story as “Pickled?” no matter what you name it. I’m sorry that I won’t be writing the next story with you. Good luck on your movie.

kaybee_2 (Katherine): MY FIRST FRIEND ON TV.COM! I miss you because you aren’t on as much anymore, and yet we did have some fun times, on TV and nick.com. Even though we didn’t hang out that much, I’ll always remember you.

PhantomFan (Gwen): You were my second friend on this website and I appreciate that. We both have accounts on youtube.com and…yes, fanfiction.net. I’ll talk to you there, if you still want to talk to me. I won’t forget you.

charmed4eva5000 (Felicia): I lied to you. That is me on fanfiction.net. After reading your message, I decided to tell the truth, so that no one would have to make a mistake again. You’re a great friend. I’ll miss you, but you also know where to find me.

Yarnalee (Susan): You made me laugh with the Hangitol, you helped write that story with me, and you were overall and awesome friend. I will NEVER amount to your level of awesomeness. You’re one of the best people that I have ever known, I won’t forget you.

sam_manson (Emma): Emma, you were there when the lie started at nick.com, my family being ghost hunters and me being a twin. I’m sorry that I had to put you through it first. You were a friend of mine way before anyone else on this list was. I’ll miss your songs, your friendliness, and most of all, you. I’ll probably miss you the most. We’ve been friends for a long time, and I’m sorry to see that fade away. I hope you’ll forgive me for lying to you. You’re the best.

Nana

Nanananana

I miss you

Miss ya so bad

I don’t forget you

Oh it’s so sad

I hope you can hear me

I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away

Was the day I found it won’t be the same

Oh

Nana

Nanananana

I didn’t get around to kiss you goodbye on the hand

I wish that I could see you again

I know that I can’t

Oh

I hope you can hear me

Cause I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away

Was the day I found it won’t be the same

Oh

I’ve had my wake up

Won’t you wake up?

I keep askin why?

And I can’t take it

It wasn’t faking

It happened that you passed by

Now you’re gone, now you’re gone

There you go, there you go

Somewhere I can’t bring you back

Now you’re gone, now you’re gone

There you go, there you go

Somewhere you’re not coming back

The day you slipped away

Was the day I found it won’t be the same

The day you slipped away

Was the day that I found it won’t be the same

Nana

Nanananana

I miss you

                        Avril Lavigne: Slipped Away

I might not leave for good. EMMA YOU’RE AWESOME! REMEMBER YOU GOT MY BACK!

You guys are all great friends and I'm sorry that I betrayed your trust.

-crusheddp, invisible13, and 1Judelovr, aka, Carissa