Yep, got to level 10 this morning, thought I'd be level 9 for another couple of weeks or so WOO HOO :P

Christmas is supposed to be the best time of the year :D.  For many people Christmas is the hardest time to get through be it because they have no money and feel obliged to buy pressies for people who they only see once a year :?or because they miss people who aren't around any more.  For me it 's the second one.  I miss my grandfather and my father-in-law. :(  My grandfather loved christmas. He owned a florist and every christmas I would help him deliver the bouquets and wreaths to people. We had so much fun together.  He died the year before I was married and I miss him so much, that was 8 years ago and still I miss him at this time of year. :(  My father in law died last year from lung cancer. He was a lovely man who adored his children and grandchildren.  My children miss him and always ask questions about him and whether he would like the song they are singing or whatever.  It's hard enough to deal with your own grief but to deal with a child's grief is even harder.  YOu try and shelther them from the big bad world but they do pick up on things and you have to explain it to them and deal

On a plus side, my children told me this morning that it's only 5 big sleeps til Santa so you boys and girls had better be good. :D

Sorry for ranting :? 

Merry Christmas

Star

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So my baby started school today. It's been a quick four years or so since he was born. I cried when I left him but i know that he was and will be fine there. He has his big sis to take care of him. I know for me that i always feel responsible for my little bro as my daugther does for my son. But I can't help feeling that he is too young and that I'll regret putting him in so early, only time will tell.

Always, him in school will give me time to myself so that I can decide what I want to do now. I know that working full time is out of the question because i don't want someone else minding my children after school, so it will either be part time while they are in school or go back to college and study for a couple of years. Decisions, Decisions.

why is it that when you decide to go outside that clouds start to form and then u decide to stay in and play xbox, the sun is spiltting the trees. Today is no exception. I brought the kids to the park, it rained. Now i'm home and i'm playing SSX3 (gettting in some practice before ssx on tour comes out) and the sun is now beaming down on us. GGGGRRRRRRRRRRR.

Sorry just annoyed over such things.