it's 2:16am on a thursday night, I have work in the morning.
I'm pounding my way through the beers, listening to old school prodigy tracks while ignoring a certain mental person on msn and I don't care that I have work in the morning.
this is how life should be, care free. why do people worry so much about what somebody "high up" says. most of these people that are "high up" feed off greed and others anyway.

In the words of Tyler Durden "I say you have to give up, and let the chips fall as they may".

I'm ready to fall asleep.

Well for the last few days (read week) I've been just randomly driving about until quite late at night, at which point I return home to watch red dwarf on DVD. It's about time I come to realise why I've been doing this.....It seems the reason is that I'm actually worryingly lonely. I've made a lot of phone calls to people in attempt to organise something to do which generally results in people not answering their phones or giving me some excuse. infact it seems that my time with a certain previous girlfriend not only screwed me up mentally but also socially. Thanks to various badmouthing about me through to jealousy and generally wanting to get back at me nobody wants to give me the time of day and the people that do are too busy or I've just lost contact with due to being stuck in an endless cycle of bull**** with the ex. At moments of pure desperateness I've actually called said ex just to talk to so that I can avoid just sitting around staring at a wall. I haven't played any games in weeks now as I haven't been able so sit at home for long enough without just wanting to escape, I guess it's a claustrophobic feeling.
Wouldn't it be great if things could go back to the way they were where we'd go out and have a good time, we'd all be close friends and everything fine instead of just being here wishing something would come along and take me away from here. In my last relationship I'd find myself begging for some time to myself and now I want to exact opposite? Isn't it funny how things turn out?


Well that's something I needed to get off my chest.....Sorry for the deepness and no it doesn't matter if you didn't read it, infact it's probably for the best..........I miss spontinuitity (how the hell do you spell that?).

So work asked me to knock up a corporate looking site. Which I did and it took me a fair bit of time to get it looking right.

so there I am waiting a few days for all the info to arrive from the big boss man and today that info arrives......there's hardly any of it. This is a design for a site with a navigation menu and the front page split into 3 sections that link off to the main part.

So these 3 panes of information have now been done away with, as has the menu. Which means my design has now been reduced to a banner with a small chunk of text below it.

Why do I bother?

I love it when you put your trust in people and somebody has to come along and make you realise there will always be a collection of people who take joy in ruining things.......I believe they're called a**holes.

Thanks for nothing.

Well after much faffing about I ordered a new car stereo (an Alpine 9853R) which seems to have every feature under the sun and then a few more thrown in for good measure.

Car insurance is now sorted too and the car is paid for....it's being delivered to me in just under 6 hours.....why the hell am I at work? I'm getting so impatient.

Anyway at work I just finished off a design for a corporate that that's looking very sweet indeed if I may say so myself.


dammit I want to get out of here and get this car!

I haven't been around lately as I've been hiding in a corner curled up in a ball with my stomach feeling like somebody stuck a knife in it while my nose continued to leak......so basically I was off work from tuesday to thursday playing games until it hurt and I had to stop. I managed to complete Project Gotham Racing 2 and finally make some decent progress on Far Cry after acquiring some patches that meant the game didn't constantly freeze.

So what have I missed (other than my beautiful friends of course hehe)

Well last week I did a fine job of burning through some beer.

started the week just casually drinking while watching movies and such with friends....did that every day until friday where I went out and hit the town for some more extensive drinking of desperado. Saturday went to see a band play a the local while having various pints and a couple of vodkas. Sunday me and my bro' bought 20 bottles of beer, chilled out for a while playing games then watched the entire series of The Mighty Boosh which is so damn funny.

so now my flat is nicely decorated with a lot of beer bottles.

so much coffee

still can't concentrate. brain just keeps flitting between various things......none of which are work.

I could get used to this living in town lark.
went out last night (yes on a monday) with my 2 flatmates and a few other friends, had some bottles of corona extra (the sunshine beer) and smoked a cigar for the first time.
Twas a fine night and then we retired back to mine to watch some movies and sleep. 6 more weeks of this.....awesome :D