im going through this, friends still being in the same area but just ever so distant, and the ones with the most history i have with want to move away. i hate making new friends, i know its supposed to be an experience that collectively as a species we are supposed to enjoy willingly but sometimes the commitment is just not worth it, or nobody wants to make it worth anything. im just so tired of my whole social scenario between the two-faces, the thieves, the condescending attitudes, the flakes, and the workaholics making friends just seems more of a hassle when you think everyones there just to take you for a ride and bounce.
sometimes i just sit by myself and think about where i went wrong or if i was the one that was giving people the rides. i think i try reasonably hard not to make people think that im out to get them but theres just no telling what people think about you even if you ask them. im just so tired of the social scene it seems like i never left high school or something everyones always has a problem with somebody for whatever the reason and the issue never gets resolved becuase everyones too good to kiss and make up, no one wants to make common ground, its always a competition. i feel like all the great times ive had with my great friends, i cant have those with anyone else, the ingredients for those happenings were too perfect, and i dont see anyone else in my life who would want to recreate those memories with me. and now it feels like im falling apart at the seams as im typing this but i guess bryan adams said it best didnt he.
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