[QUOTE="peppersfan2"] I always feel like people are laughing at me or talking behind my back. I feel like people are always watching me when I'm in public. I have to move the furniture in my room because it "doesn't look right" tofu-lion91

I'd say that 98% of the time its just in your head. When that 2% happens just walk past them. They can't handle the awesome.

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[QUOTE="btaylor2404"] This is damn good advice, follow it up with Still by NIN and you should be just fine. Need a good sound system.DrSponge

NIN is my favorite band in theworld. I listen to TDS every day. I prefer With Teeth beause its more optimistic.

As we speak I'm listening to "I do Not Want this" Anyway TDS ends on a less than desirable endpoint for people dealing with problems lol.

I don't see my therapist for about a month so I'm going to just spend the time inbetween to self reflect and spend time by myself. Maybe work on writing something. and catch up on my school work.

I'm feeling alot better right now I just kinda had a really bad day yesterday and I've been having some problems for awhile but I'm going to get help for them. I don't think they are as dramatic as something like schizophrenia but i'm not exactly all there either. However I still have alot of personal responsibilty. I can't just use "theres something wrong with me" as an exuse. I have to drive myself towards overcoming my problems.

So thank you Gamespot.

[QUOTE="DrSponge"]Go listen to The Downward Spiral (album)-NIN ;)btaylor2404

NIN is my favorite band in theworld. I listen to TDS every day. I prefer With Teeth beause its more optimistic.

Anti Psychiatry is a dogma in and of itself. The idea that all individuals diagnosed with a disorder simply need to "toughen up" is foolish and naive.

Just because psychollogy is a new science (which its not) we should not apply what we know at all in practice? Thats not a good idea.

Yeah I know. I feel better by posting this and I'm going to talk about it and try to get help.

I just felt really bad today and I felt like I needed to make a topic about how I felt. I didn't really expect any good responses but I did get some good ones.

Thanks.

I'm going to school for Psychology right now, and just as a forewarning, I am NOT a mental health professional yet. But from all the classes I've taken here is my assessment of you.

You obviously have a lot of paranoid delusions about people scheming or plotting against you, as well as unreasonable thoughts about others following you and possibly wanting to cause harm to you. This, coupled with the reclusiveness and severe discomfort around people, and your highly active fantasy world are all pretty clear signs that you might be suffering from Paranoid Schizophrenia. The emotional numbness you mentioned is also an indicator of this; it's called flat affect.

You didn't mention this, but do you everhallucinate; hear things that aren't there, see things that aren't there, feel things that aren't there? If the answer is yes, then it is even more likely that you have this disorder. Another thing I'm curious about is how old are you? My guess is 17-23.

But if you care about your future, and becoming happy and content again, I'd advise you too seekimmediate psychological help, because whether or not you have Schizophrenia, you have some pretty big problems. If you do have schizophrenia, you need to consider with your doctor the possibility of neuroleptics(anti-psychotic drugs), as well as regular psychologicalassistancefrom a psychologist or social worker.

Again, I'm not a professional yet, and I'd strongly advice you to seek professionalassistance. You are potentially dealing with something extremely serious. If you have any questions for me, just post them here.

Best of luck to you pal

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I don't really see things or hear things.

Also I don't belive myself to be rational in my beliefs. I know that their not realistic afterwards or even during but I can get caught up in the moment. Let me give you an example of something that happens In this instance whenever I get my hair cut.

"hmmn those hair stylists don't speak english. What if their talking about me and saying bad things about my hair?"

"what if they heard that? Don't think of something racist! Damn! What if they heard that and want to mess up my hair as revenge?"

"no thats not realistic your just being crazy again. Nobody can read your mind! Stop being stupid." "Listen if you are reading my mind I'm sorry I didn't mean that"

Then I leave and am so releaved to be out of that situation. Other times I get scared my friends are hacking into my computer or can see my Myspace edit history. I know that they would never do that but I just get so worried by the idea of it. Then I feel bad for suspecting them even though I know they would never do that.

Othertimes I wonder what if my laptops microphone is on and somebody is listening to me.

I am seeing a therapist right now. I haven't really told her any of this stuff. From the little that I have told her about my OCD she wants to put me on anti anxiety medication and in a few weeks I'm going to see a new doctor who is better trained.

When I see her I'm going to be more honest and tell her whats really going on. All of it. I can't keep this stuff up any longer.

1. You are anxious about something you have done, find it and fix it. 2. You are anxious about something you have done, find it and fix it. 3. Chill out you can not control everything, live in the present. 4. Confess your secrets, don't hold them in, be yourself (as they say) 5. You're worried about what people think of you, don't, you shouldn't care what people think because they can only do that, think. 6. Find something you like doing, a hobby or go to the gym (v useful) 7. You are lacking structure in your life, doing something everyday like going to the gym balances out your day. Nobody is sunshine all day long you just have to live for the moment. 8. Most importantly, shut up there's nothing wrong with you it's just a phase.clembo1990

No its not just a phase. Its not just a matter of "growing up and being more confident" i feel paralyzed and unable to move Its not just anxiety but fear. I can't just shrug it off.

There is a difference between normal adolecent turmoil and what I'm feeling.

I keep busy and I go to college full time.

No offense dude, but you sound like you shouldn't even be allowed in public. Like you're padded room crazy. :|Pirate700

Its not like I've ever been arrested or anything. My freinds think I'm happy. People don't see whats going on underneth. I just act cool and collected no matter how I feel.