i just got the dead space 2 beta and I'm loving every second of it :D. I was worried at first when they announced the MP for the game but after playing this i know I'm going to be spending a good amount of time online with this.

Well its been awhile hasn't it? Sorry for the long absence I was feeling kind of lethargic for like the longest time. I really don't want to bore you with the details I just wanted some place to vent my feelings so here we go.

I try to hard. If anybody knows me you know I'm on MW2 alot. Sure i play other games here and there but MW2 and that series of games are just so addicting I just can't really stop. I also hate all the cheap tactics that go wrong with the game like the oma danger close noob tubes and MLC pro combo. However, unlike many people I'm good, really good. I know the game so well I can predict tactics, know how to deal with campers and perhaps out play a majority of players 1v1. Really the only thing wrong with MW2 is the danger close oma combo imo because once they get in there spot they can take you out over and over again.

But the point of this blog is not to complain about MW2 since everybody already does that and its not cool anymore. My problem with the game is more about me. I play to win. I get enjoyment out of winning and getting really high kill streaks and what not, but I noticed something recently which actually should have been apparent much earlier. I'm better than most of my friends. You see I do like to win but its a different kind of joy. I like winning when I can just blend in with the crowd like being third or 4th place amongst my team relying on others to carry my team to victory. When I get a party of 4-6 players I get the feeling that no matter who we play we cant lose and for the most part it holds true but now in the days of MW2 50% of the time while i'm in a party I have to step up my game otherwise we may lose.

This feeling of winning without actually trying on my part is really hard to convey to you. In my mind you playing a game for fun should be the only enjoyment I need and once it stops being fun you move on. For awhile that works for me until I start getting a losing streak and losses keep coming one after the other. Then when i get serious and do really well my teammates don't care as much about the win so they play the same ****as they do and it rests solely on me again to make sure we take win.

This need of wanting to win without to much effort might stem from my early days of soccer where winning was more of a team effort. If everybody does their part you can win without that need for a superstar who can do everything.

So i guess that's the biggest problem I have when it comes to competitive FPS's I don't want to be that superstar. Many people play so much, using the best weapons, and even cheap perks to become that guy where everybody looks at him and say he's a beast or (if you're on the losing team) he's using hacks. I'd much rather be that player who was essential in defending the flag or the one capturing the flag. Once I start to do everything at once capturing, defending, and killing all at the same time that's when I start to feel the pressure and the stress this game has over me.

Well its been awhile since I blog. The reason being is that Ive been really lazy and when i did have stuff i wanted to talk about it was during work when I thought of it and due to my lack of long term memory I forgot what I wanted to say immediately on my way back home.

Anyways lets start off by saying how awesome this game White knight chronicles is. I've been playing almost nonstop since yesterday. It does an interesting job of splitting the single player and online multiplayer modes. You see when you start, you create your own character and instead of that character taking up the role as the main hero you are actually a minor sidekick character who often times gets ignored and have very little screen time. Which shifts the focus on the real main characters of the game and there story. Its kind of odd but it works for this game, since you can take that character you made, goonline and meet up with others to take on quests or just hang out in someone's town. So this game has an MMO feel with exception of the PvP battles. Though sometimes I wish i could have killed some people for making fun of my avatar :evil:but i digress. :P

I really don't want to say alot about this game right now because I have that "new game feel" where everything is new and fresh so i tend to look over the faults until after i play the game for, let's say, more than 20 or so hours. Although i will say this about the faults ive had so far. the saving time takes too long (like two whole minutes to save since it save and then it has to "auto save" afterwards. not sure if i turn that feature off I should look into it), online navigating friends/strangers profiles gets annoying because you have to constantly back outto your home page, and the overworld is like FFXII in the sense that its to large to go from one place to the next. Sure it makes sense to have that large open area for online sopeople can gooff andexplore on there own and not feel like they are just tagging along with the party leader, but the least you could do is use smaller mapsfor the single player experience since half the time you aren't going to explore half of it anyway (unless you really wanted to.)

So I've been a major tales fan ever since I played my first tales game when Tales of Symphonia came out back on the gamecube. I was drawn to it because of its unique art style and the fact that it was 1 of those rare multiplayer rpg games. It actually kept that aspect of being multiplayer from its 2nd game, Tales of Destiny, and onward with exception to a few games like Tales of Legendia. Throughout the years I've tried to complete a Tales game from start to finish with my cousin only to be deterred with another game on the horizion and managed to probably only get 10 hours max into a Tales game before we both quit.

However now I'm going to now attempt to play through Tales of the Abyss with 2 players from start to finish something I don't think anyone has ever done on youtube. And if we do manage to play through this game from start to finish we have considered playing all the other Tales games in 2 player from start to finish. As of right now I don't have any vids up but I do have the first 3 and a half hours recorded and hopefully that'll last for two weeks till we can get back together again and do another session of Tales

Anyways check my youtube page http://www.youtube.com/user/syb1and the first 30 minutes or so will be up tomorrow at the latest.

So I just got another platinum on God of War 2. I would have tried to get another platinum on the first God of war but to beat the game in under 5 hours is just crazy. Course getting 3 platinums within less than a week is pretty crazy in itself. Though I do admit that the first two platinums i did were more than half done when I went back to playing them and this 3rd platinum I started friday from beginning to the end. Now I'm just 9% away from beating my trophy rival natalie. Though I do have her beat in platinum count :D

Woo Hoo I finally got my platinum on Modern Warfare 2. This game is perhaps one of the more difficult games that I had to platinum since I needed to find a good partner for spec ops and also rely a bit of luck to get through my missions. Although I say that Cod:WaW is the harder game to platinum due to all the frags you have to dodge in the main campaign. And even with my level 13 status on psn I'm still some 20% below my trophy rival Natalie :evil:

Well at least with this platinum I tied her up in the platinum category.

Well haven't done one of these in awhile due to the past couple of weeks all I was doing was just work, eat and sleep. But since Christmas has passed that means less work and more free time. So a double edge sword of sorts. Well I just came here to announce a couple of things, one being that I just beat AC2 and got my 9th platinum :D. Finding all the feathers wasn'tas much of a pain I thought it would be. I always hated games that reward you for finding 100 of anything and all of those items were either in hard to get spaces or hidden away somewhere. But it seemed easier to find them and didn't exactly take all that long to find them all.

The second thing I'd like to annouce is I think the sybillium4 curse has finally been lifted. Or at the very least only causes the YLOD. For those of you that don't know Syb4 is my cousin and a while back I introduced him to a friend on psn. So he added her and after about a week she stopped going online... for 5 months. At the time I thought something happened to her since she was on everyday and wouldn't be offline for more than a day. Still being clueless I introduced him to another friend and he added her and same thing happened to her she went offline for roughly 5 months. So ever since then I've avoided introducing girl gamers to him because he apparently killed them by accepting his friend requests. But 2days ago both of them showed up online and on the same day coincidently. I asked one what happened and she got the YLOD and she said she'd be getting a new ps3 soon.:) So I assumed the same thing happened to my other friend. It sucked losing them since I was getting really close to them before that happened.

So i gotta psp go a couple of days ago due to the fact that I somehow lost my psp (actually I think it got stolen). Now I looked everywhere for my psp and I didn't exactly go anywhere since the last day I remember using it so if its not other than shopping since I was using it on the day of black friday. I also had my iTouch that day and I remember paying more attention to that since I got that for my birthday and I didn't want to lose it so soon. In doingso I also neglected looking after my psp which could've easily been taken while I was in the store. So yeah... but I'm over it.

Anyways I've always wanted a Go since half the games I own for my psp were bought from psn and any UMD games I did own were mostly sold down the line. In fact I only have like 10 UMD games and I only play like 1 or 2 regularly. So I'll end up selling those and get me a psn card and buy some more stuff. I just recently bought RE2 and Disgaea 2 to add tothe collection and probably add RE3 and maybe Dino crisis to that :D

My only complaint with the go so far is that it doesn't have the complete psp library and there's only one game that I want but its not like its a must have title. Its a game I tend to go back to after months of not playing and trying to get that kind of fix if you know what i mean. :P

So that's it for now.

For those of you that don't know I had my birthday last saturday so I've been busy these past couple of days which is why I haven't been on GS all that much. I went to Disneyland wednesday, worked Thursday and Friday, had my B-day party Saturday, and to top it all off I went to six flags on Sunday. The first time I've ever been there and I really want to go more often. Too bad I went with my "scaredy-cat" cousins who hate roller coasters so we pretty much only went on the"moderate" rides and ones that had no loops. I did go on a couple of intense rides by myself but its not nearly as fun without someone you know screaming and shouting with you.

Oh also the total amount of money/gifts I got was $195 cash, $95 in gift cards, and I got me an iTouch (I'm so ready for black friday now :D)Now i don't need my psp as an mp3 player anymore and thank god since my music was taking up so much space on the memory sticks and also ithas a crappy shuffle and folder management. Now I need to find some good games/apps for the iTouch. So far I've only found a flashlight app and a e-mail to text app. :?

:? I'm not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing. Its kind of weird too since he's not really a gamer more of the casual crowd gamer type. You know the ones that goes out and buys all those things for the wii and stuff. He also just bought MW2 but he's afraid to go online and get his a$$ handed to him by all the expert players and rightfully so since he's struggling on the regular difficulty in campaign mode. But it could be a good thing to have him as a friend since I could always ask if he needs help at work and pick up a shift since he's the cool boss and not like the other boss whichheis very quietand just gives you that look that just makes you work harder for the fear of losing your job. I can't really explain it well but he is definitely not the kind of guy you want as an enemy.

But anyways this was the real main focus of my blog. I was in a chatroom I helped create more than a week ago and people are still joining the chatroom (mainly because of the name "invite all your friends even if they are offline") so there are always new faces in the chatroom. So there this girl (at least according to her psn id) not really complaining but stating that her life sucked. No one was really chatting since I'm sure everyone was off to playing their respective games so I decided to take a few minutes out of my time to make her feel special. She started to complain about her ex-boyfriend I guess (she wasn't really being descriptive) and saying that she was betrayed at love or something. I told her well everyone has problems and you just have to deal with it. There was alot of back and forth bickering between us then she said something "If you and your lover were on fire would you save yourself or your lover?" I told her I'd save myself since I can't really save someone if I'm in trouble too. I'd help her out after I somehow managed to put myself out too but I think any person that didn't panic in that kind of situation would stop, drop, and roll. I think a better analogy would to be if you were both in quicksand would you save her or yourself. Well since I'm in the same trouble I don't think anything I could do would be beneficial for her but if I could save myself I would be in a much better position to help her out afterwards.

Well she called me heartless for not trying to save her at the cost of my life. I tried explaining my logic to her but she wouldn't hear of it. But sacrificing yourself to save someone isn't really saving someone if they loved you. I could go on a long rant about that but I just want to wrap this up and seeing as thatstatement shouldn't be in the same topic as this since you both were in trouble not just one person who needs to sacrifice his/her life to save the other. (which I'd probably do anyway, yes I'm a hypocrite) I called her childish for thinking that love is the only thing that's important in life. She thinks with her heart and disregards logic. Then she said that I'm not old enough to understand what love is, which is funny since I think she really doesn't understand love. I pretty much called her a teenager cause that's typical teenager girl stuff that girls go through in life. Not that I would know... I just watch too many crappy movies based on sterotypical boy/girl love. And it turns out I was right since she said she was 19 just got out of high school and went into college.

So if you did manage to read all that (wow I'm impressed :o) Basically same question if both of you and your lover were in the same trouble would you save yourself or save your lover. I don't really care if you take her side or my side, or who's right and wrong (though I have to say I'm right :P) I just want it to put in perspective of how many people out there think like me or her or maybe you have your own solution.