[QUOTE="Rekunta"][QUOTE="gamerguru100"]
Am I the only one on here who's just sick and tired of the world?
I'm usually angry, frustrated, and confused. I don't experience happiness a whole lot. I have trouble expressing emotions "properly". I'm almost ready to consider myself a misanthrope due to the way people treat me and look at me. I can't go into public without being stared at. Yesterday, while I was going for a walk, some punk drove by me and told me to "get off the streets". I wasn't sure what he meant. I mean, I'm not a gangster nor am I homeless, obviously. I was dressed in jean shorts that went below my knee, a white sleeveless shirt, and white tennis shoes. It was about 90 degrees Fahrenheit outside. I was carrying a bottle of water as a result. So, I don't understand the statement. As he drove past, I heard laughing. I turned around and flipped him off. He just kept driving as he probably didn't notice it.
As I continued walking, people in cars driving past me were staring at me giving me weird looks. Finally, as I was walking home, some stupid *** yelled something to me. All I remember is the word "f*gg*t" It was weird because they were driving on a different street. I'm confused as to why the ******* noticed me so fast. Then again, right when I heard his stupid voice, I just turned around and held up my middle finger. I was very ****ed off. Later that night, my mom and I went to Walgreen's, a small department store. As we checked out our stuff, the cashier looked at me with a blank look on his face and quietly said "How are you doing?". I just gave a weak smile and said "good". I don't understand why the d-bag gave me that stupid look. People are always doing that. Sometimes, they stare and shake their head. What the ****?
In school, people do the usual staring crap. A few times, people would throw something at me; or at least attempt to. I've been called "weird" and "anti-social". In public, little kids give me "dirty looks", too. What the heck? I'm so sick of this crap. I also hate my voice. I can barely get words out and I sometimes sound like a little kid when I talk, too. The same goes for laughing. I'm so f-ing sick of this! I'm always angry and confused and I can barely express these emotions "properly" as I stated earlier. What the **** is wrong with people? Why do random people hate me so much? It doesn't make any sense.
gamerguru100
I know how you feel, believe me I do. You're not alone. One of my all-time favorite sayings is "Hell is other people". I know it's hard, but try to ignore them. Are you in high school? If so, you're probably not in the best of moods and may be putting off a hostile vibe that other people pick up on and respond negatively to. From your post,it seems you are.You may also be seeing things that are not there, maybe a bit paranoid?
Hate the world back, it works for me.
Thanks for your reply. I think I have hallucinations but I'm not really sure. I don't believe I'm paranoid, though. Again, thanks for your reply.All thats happening to you happened to me a couple of years back (I was suicidal back then actually) but anyway, what i did was change schools to get away from the people that looked wierd at me, got a fresh start, actually raised my self esteem a lot, and found myself in a position in which not so many people insulted me anymore.
Im not saying change your personality im just saying hang in there that usually works, there are around 7,000,000,000 people in the world (if im not wrong), many people pass through whats happening to you, trust me i speak from experience that you arent the only one, just hang in there youll get through this
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