[QUOTE="wemhim"]Agreed, I lack the self confidence to ask ANYONE out, however, I know it's my own doing, not others. Just like I don't blame employers for being unemployed(Like most people), I blame myself for only applying at Best Buy in the last 3 years or so.
blooddemon666
I lack self confidence (I'm one ugly mofo) but I take full responsibility for everything, whether its work, not doing chores, not getting my life straight or what have you. I don't try to shift the blame "bawwww they don't want to hire me." or "bawwww mcdonalds makes me fat."
I'm the only one that controls my life, and I'm the only one in control of changing it.
My situation is a little more complicated.What people don't realize about mental illness is that alot of times people can be well aware that the problem is stupid, but the whole point of the illness is that logic doesn't matter. I am normally a confident person except when it comes to talking to people and especially approaching people.
I am not as bad once I get to know the person a little, but I just get so insanely tense and anxious in public that I can't even relax when I am eating.
In fact, eating in public is the worst for me. It seemse like everyone is staring at me watching me eat so if I eat a bit fast then I start thinking "man they must think I'm a pig" and stuff like that.
I hate it when people laugh by me while I'm eating because my brain automatically assumes they're laughing at me...
In one sense its my fault for not getting over the problem but I will be damned if anyone tries and calls me weak for not getting over it. People have no idea how hard controlling your mind is untill it gets out of control....
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