It's Oni-Link from Legend of Zelda: Majora's Mask. He turns into this when he get's the Oni mask from the kid an dturns into this essence of awesomeness!!! Like it?

Well Mindy told her parents and they said it's okay and it's natural for people to get attracted to each other. They're not putting phone restrictions or anything! They're just allowing us to do the same things we already were going to do! PRAISE GOD! HALLELUJAH! I'm ecstatic!!!! Also, I finally beat SUper Mario 64 DS.

Bowser = PWNED!!!

Well I spoke most of the day with Mindy and stuff and I could go into that, but I'm not going to. About 5 minuites before her 8:30 computer/phone curfew, Jen (my youth pastor's wife) calls and tells Mindy that both her and Troy realize that she SHOULD tell her parents. They said it'd be going above beyond the call of righteousness. Well she's going to do it, she just got off MSN messenger with me (my phone line is down) and she said she needed to do it now or never. The time is now. She's going to tell her parents about the past 2 months and stuff and it's going to be hard for her. Its going to be hard for her to tell her parents and it's going to be hard forboth of us if her parents put "restrictions" on us. Such as we can only talk 4 hours every 3 days or something. My feelings and her feelings won't change, I know that much. but if they put "restirctions" or whatever, so be it, she still has to honor er parents and I'm not going to be stumbling block. I'm calling her early tomorrow to find out how it went after me an dher got off MSN. I'm really really REALLY nervous about this, and I can only imagine what she must going through right now. I prayed for her the MOMENT we got off MSN... God be with her, with us.

Well I woke up today at about 9:30, did regular morning stuff. I was waiting for Mindy to call me and so I read JF's entry saying he's getting back into Metroid Prime, so I figured I should too! But then I realized I haven't tended to my town in Animal Crossing. Also my dad told me I'd need to mow the backyard today. So I'm restoring my town for about 20 minutes when she calls, so therefore I turned the game off.

We talked to each other a long time today and I tried my best to make her feel better about what's recdently been going on because it IS hard to hold in your feelings, so we can't say stuff like "I miss you." and stuff, or at least not that often. We now have to be in the "friend" status, although we're slightly more. We're "more-than-friends-in-waiting" I guess. She mentioned that her friend said, "You're single now" and she's like 'No... I'm not" her friend is like "Yes you are." And she tells me directly "I don't want to be called single." But when she told me that I told her that we're not really single, but we're not not single. We're just waiting for the right time. She worried a bit that now she can't even say anything or do anything to show that she still cares about me and she's worried I'm going to forget that and thus it makes it easier for lies to get in. She's crazy if she thinks I'll ever doubt her affection for me, I won't. I know that she does care about me and I'm not going to doubt it.

So we talked until 5:00 when my dad walks in and tells me to go and I ask him for 15 more minutes, and he says okay. Then he comes in exactly 9 minutes later and yells at me and tells me to get off the phone and thus I have a forced quick "goodbye" with her, which I hate. That's why I needed the extra 15 minutes, we can't just say "goodbye" then *click* It doesn't work like that. So then I'm mowing the yard until a time (I mow in an enclosng rectangle) when the small recantangle has a big black wasp on it. Now, when it comes to snakes, wasps, scorpions, large spiders, and large roaches, I get into a psychological state where I feel I HAVE to get away from it. It's a phobia. Now I'm on a riding lawnmower and then I try to cut around it again and the little thing where all the grass flies out of, it blows the wasp away... for a while. I'm riding down after I see it blown away and after about 2 seconds it's flying parallel to me and it's VERY close. Now this is a riding lawn mower, I can't just get off and it'll stop. It got really wacky because I kept like trying to just put it in neutral or take the key to start it out and I kept like going backwards and foward, it was crazy.

I asked my dad to the last part and he yells at for "never being able to finish a job." If someone yells at me, it's VERY hard for me not to lose my temper. And considering the way he treated me all day, I've had enough. We yelled a little bit, then he finally did it and I had to sweep out basketball court and the porch to the house that we rent out behind our house. I do and then he tells me I have to weedwhack. I get it started and he DEMANDS to use it for a while and he does like 10% and then I finish up the rest. I fnish up and it's hot and I'm tired and very sweaty and it's about 7:15 so I'm done and I go take a shower.

Then I call Mindy afterwards and my dad yells at me telling me I didn't sweep OUR backyard porch (which he never told me to sweep, he said I should just know!) I then have to say goodbye to Mindy for the final time (we talked for about 40 minutes) and I get angry at my dad and I just sweep the porch and I don't say anything to him when I'm done and I get in the house, but he starts yelling at me again. Then we both argue and I'm yelling at him for being obnoxious and criticizing everything I've done for him today. I mean, I'm mowing the lawn for free when my brother used to get paid when he did it. So he's going to criticize a free favor. And it was just ARGH! He said "Is this the kind of job you do for the church when they ask you to do a job!?!?" And I say "I don't have to mow the church's lawn!" and he says "Yes, but whatever they ask you to do, do you do it like you do this!?!?" and I said "I do it to the best of my ability, just like I mowed and weedwhacked today to the best of my ability! I'm sorry my best is not good enough for you, *insert 4 letter profanity starting with D and ending with A-M-N* it!"

I stormed out and went to my room and after about 20 seconds I prayed and asked God to forgive me for dishonoring my father like that and letting my temper get the best of me and letting certain words come out that shouldn't have been said. That's the first time I've cursed in like a year, I'm so disappointed in myself... So then after I prayed I went outside and I apologized to him for getting angry and saying that word to him (Although he didn't care I said that word, he's not Christian). Then he apologizes to me for being so "hasty" with me and for not realizing that I'm trying my best. Because, you know, when you try your best and then someone criticizes what you just attempted to do, it isn't encouraging :(... Then I went and played some Metroid Prime on hard mode and I got the plasma beam! Those space pirates better watch their back! Plasma beam = total ownage! 8)

And he gave me some sound advice. He told me to strip that title of "boyfriend and girlfriend" and stop the whole putting my arm around her stuff, the small-time cuddling, and definitely stop the kisses on the cheek and keep everything else the same and he says that's what we should do. I agree, I mean I care about her NOT because of superficial and shallow things like touching an dlooks alone, I like her the most for 1) her Christian charater and 2) everything else abotu her personality. I mean she's a great person to be with, to joke around with and if we just stop pretty much all the "touching" stuff and downplay the whole "I miss you"s (for her sake, not my own. Because with girls they'll always take a step ahead of everything else as far as emotionally) I DO miss her, but I it'd be best to not let her know because then she'll get slightly emotional and whatnot and I don't want to put her through all that, you know? I'm looking out fo rher and I'm praying for her as well as us. And so it'd be best if I don't say anything that's related to my REAL emotions, because they're strong. Sure I can tell her that I'm still affectionate towards her, but only in a serious matter. I can't just say it like every hour. She knows my heart, she knows how I feel, even though I don't show it. The LAST thing I would want would be to keep reminding her of it because then she's going to get upset about how far away it is and whatnot. I just need to tell her that we got a long way to go and let's just see where God takes us. So needless to say, I'll be praying for us and mostly her because SHE does need strength much more than I. I'm taking all "patience and longsuffering with joyfulness." (Colossians 1:11). So J-Freak, don't worry about me, but just pray for her if you can and pray that God will give her the strength she needs to make it. I go tmyself covered, but I'm still praying mostly fo rher because she's not taking it with joyfulness because from my view she's looking at the path and how difficult it's going to be while I'm looking at what's the end of that path. I'm focusing on what's waiting for me at the end. So if you could J, pray that God will give her strength and relieve her of her grief, I'd appreciate it :).

in prayer. After getting off GS I spent the whole day off and on praying for me and Mindy. She just called me and we spoke a little bit and thanks J-Freak for saying "Keep on keepin' on" in your last entry, I told her how you said it in response to my entry and she laughed quite a bit. Later on when things got more serious, I used it again as a bit off a mood shifter. In the begining we were like "Hey. What's on your mind? What'd you do all day?" but then later on in our roughly ten minute conversation she was crying because she was so grief-stricken. She says how she doesn't know what part God needs to take off, because in her perspective this is "pruning" from God as mentioned in Matthew where the dead branches (bad characterics) are cut off and while this hurts the plant for the time being, it's for the better of it eventually. She views this situation as the same. So then I try to give her wisdom and cheer her up. She said she was going to call her friend again to see if you she was there, because she needs it. She needs someone to be there with her, other than me. She said if there's time left she'll call me back. Immediately after I got off the phone I prayed. I would have been in tears, but I ran out of those last night. I then got on the comp to type this up. The phone rings... She just called again and throughout the whole thing we were just saying how we need to pray for each other, and we need to talk to our respective youth pastors by gender. I prayed immediately after I got off again, and this time, one tear came out. My desire to see His will accomplished, supersedes my own. "Before we can pray, 'Thy kingdom come' we must be willing to pray, 'My kingdom go.'" - Alan Redpath. And it's true. No matter what I want, His will and His plan needs to be done. No matter how thick the fog gets, the light will always be there for me to follow, and that's what I intend to do. No matter the obstacles that are along my path, I know I can rely on Him to give me strength and to make it through. For at the end is He, and all that He has prepared for me.

There was a festival yesterday and a concert starring Third Day and it was also Mindy and I's 2-month anniversary. We go, it's fun, yeah whatever. The conecrts over and I go back to the bus with her friend's younger brother as her and her friend go to the bathrooms. I wait on the bus for her to come back and she does. We sat in the back of the bus on the right side. I sat to the right of her and had the window seat. She got back and we talked for a little bit but she was tired and I put my arm around her, but she had her back slightly towards me and so instead of leaning on my shoulder/chest, she leaned on the upper section of my arm. I rub her neckas I know it makes her go to sleep. Eventually I think she DID go to sleep, but I'm not sure. I whisper to her if she could hear me and she makes no sound. I do it again to double check, still no sound from her. I then begin telling her (even though she's asleep) that I care about her so much and that she means so much to me, and that it's getting harder everyday not to say 3 little words that mean so much; and that I want her to be "the one." Turns out she WAS awake and she could hear me and she tells me, "be careful" and I assume from this that she means not to speak about it so often because we'd then be rushing things and since we have such a long time to go, rushing things would be unhealthy, and she's right. I mean, I know she wants me to "the one" for her as well, but if we keep talking about it it's just going to make it harder to live without. She then asks me what I'm thinking and I tell her "About how you're right. And how much I care about you. And ho wmuch you mean to me. And how I can't go on with this list..." For every thought I got out, it became harder to speak as it IS usually hard to speak when you're in tears. She already is facing back towards me by now and then she rests her head against the lower left side of my chest. And then I'm reminded of something that God laid on my heart ever since May 17th. He told me to tell her something and He was asking me to do something that I felt I couldn't do. God used this night to break me, and make it easier to do what's right. I then tell her, "I also have to tell you something that's been on my heart for the past week or so. God's laid this on my heart. This whole sneaking around and hiding from your parents thing is something I can't let you do babe. You are dishonoring and disobeying your parents and I'm the reason because of it. I don't want to be your scource of sin." I was barely able to say that, I was sobbing so much. I then said the hardest thing I've had to say, "And that's why I think we should hold off until you're 18." That was the hardest thing I've ever had to do. Her parents won't allow her to date until she's 18, which is going to be October 1st this year. I made it clear to myself I put God above all else. She's sobbing and so am I. The reason it was so hard was because that means for a little over the next 4 months, we won't be able to hold hands, hug like we hugged, and talk like we used to. It's also because the last time I liked a girl and she liked me back, but we had to "hold off" for a while before we could start something, it fizzled out. I guess it was not the same in this case though because I more than just like her, and she more than just likes me. Also, the other was a blessing in disguise because had it not fizzled out, I never would've found Mindy. It's going to be hard, but we need to rely on Him for strength. We cried some more and eventually we tried getting back to normal joking conversation and whatnot. Before we arrived back to the church, we hugged each other closely and deeply for one last time. Because for the next four months we wouldn't be able to do it again. She also made me promise I wouldn't call her tomorrow (today) because she's going to be praying ll day, and so am I. I'm only on here to let J-Freak know what's up. It may not seem like a lot to you, but when you care about some one this much, and turn that person over to God, it's hard to do what I did. We got back and I went to my car and prayed and asked God for strength, for both of us. I come back home, I get online to tell J-Freak to expect an important entry tomorrow (today) and I write in my own personal journal about all this. I stopped in the middle somewhere because I couldn't take it anymore and just go ton my knees and prayed and sobbed to God again. I asked Him for strength and endurance. I thanked Him for that night and for breaking me down to where I could do what's right. I prayed for a long while, then cam eback to my journal an dfinished it. Those pages had tear stains all over them. After I did, I went to bed and prayed once again in tears to God. I cried myself to sleep that night, I know you can't see why or how it hurts so bad, but it does. Little did I know Mindy and I's 3-month anniversary would be 5 months away.

The previous night I told Mindy that I would wake her up via a phone call in the morning, since she thinks it's cute to "wake up with me" so to speak. I tried doing that yesterday but I went back to sleep after my alarm went off. Last night I set like 3 alarms for me to wake up at the right time and I also left a message on my phone telling anyone if they woke up past the time I wanted to wake up (I wanted to wake up at 7:30) then they need to wake me up IMMEDIATELY! I woke up at the right time and turned off the alarms and deleted the message and I didn't want to call her THAT early yet, so I play some SUper Mario 64 DS and get like 3 more stars or something. I then am about ot use my phone, but then I see the words, "NO LINE" on thme! This means that the phone line is down and I can't call anybody no matter what phone I use. This happened a couple days ago, but it stopped in about half an hour to an hour later. Also, my cousin wasn't there so I couldn't use his cell phone. I was so frustrated and for about 10 seconds I just groaned in frustration. I then said to myself, "I'm calling her SOMEHOW." I get to thinking and it comes to me in a matter of seconds. I round up all the quarters in my house, YES! THAT'S RIGHT! I drive to the nearest gas station payphone with about 10+ quarters! Yes, this is what I'm willing to do to get to talk to her! I spoke with her at the payphone for like an hour and then when our 4th 15 minute session was ove rI told her to call my house to see if the phone is working yet. It was and I headed back to the house and I spoke with her for about 2 more hours, then I told her I had to go "somewhere" which I hate making her feel suspicious, but she'll find out tomorrow. I needed ot go to K-mart and buy wrapping paper and stuff for my gift to her (PaRappa the Rapper). Wrapped it, she was still wondering wher eI went, but I told her nto to worry about it. I SO wanted to tell her! But I couldn't.... She'll see tomorrow! Then when I got done at about 1:30 or 2, we kept talking until her phone curfew which is at 8:30. We probably spent 8 or 9 hours talking on the phone today. It was such a great day.... So much fun....

ONE! Yesterday I was on the phone with Mindy and all of a sudden the phone line completely cut off. And by that I mean the PHONE LINE got cut off! And I had no cell phone :( I'm in my sandals, my hair looks like afroturf and I run to my next door neighbors house to see if I can use his phone. No one is there! I see my friend's house a few houses down and I run to his house and no one is there either! I didn't just want to go up to a stranger's house! My nearest friend lives about 2 or 3 blocks away, a total of about 0.3 miles. I RUN to his house and he's not there but his mom is and she lets me use the phone, thank God! Point is I ran like so far just to talk to her and she found it so heroic. I would run any length just to talk to her again. Later on I got really frustrated because my mom was being retarded and yelling at me for the phone line getting cut because it's SOMEHOW my fault :roll: and she tells me to fix it like I'm some sort of telephone technician. I tell her I don't know how to fix it and she calls me a "good-for-nothing" in Spanish. Then very shortly after my mom stops yelling at me she starts using the phone. Meanwhile I'm talking with Mindy on AIM and if you know my phone, you know whenever there's an incoming or outgoing call, I get knocked off the internet. And it was SO frustrating and finally I just needed to talk to her so my cousin let's me use his phone for a little while and we pray over the phone because I was so mentally frustrated and tired. I just wanted to talk to her and not listen to my mom's insults or seeing by my DSL box's blinking lights that I’ve been knocked off and I can't talk to her. It was just so frustrating. I just needed strength from the only One who could give me strength. And that was my Savior, Jesus Christ. We prayed over the phone and it was great and after out prayer and my cousin needed his cell phone back, I felt worlds better! Its great when God just answers your prayers just like that. So then today I go to lunch with my parents to a Colombian restaurant. When we come back, I was supposed to call her but I told her I needed to go somewhere after I got back. What I needed to do was look up in all the local video games stores to see if they have Parappa the Rapper. Your first reaction might be :? but let me explain. Several days ago Mindy told me that she wants to buy that game one day because she had such fun with it back when it first released, but she never got around to buying it. Since our 2-month anniversary is this Friday, and me not being completely thoughtless, I figure TWO! I should buy it for her and give it to her as a gift for Friday. Luckily our anniversary is the day of a church event so we'll be able to spend that day together. And it's TEN HOURS LONG! Huzzah! I love spending time with her :) Anyways like I said, I THOUGHT finding Parappa the Rapper would be a breeze.... Boy, was I in for a rude awakening.... I called about 7 video game stores and the nearest one was about 12 miles away. And since I'm low on money, I had to NOT go on the toll roads and go on the lesser roads, until I got to the interstate (not a toll). I use mapquest to find the place and I just write the directions down but the road that that GameStop was on, has two "900"s in it. That GS was on 933 and it was VERY VERY shortly after my turn on the road, but I've never been there before and all of a sudden I see the numbers counting down from like 900, but I thought I would've seen it if I past it. NOT THE CASE! I keep going down and the OTHER 900s start but there's like a quantum leap at one point from like 890 to like 960. So then I'm looking around in that area and I can't find it and it takes me a while to find a store that will let me use their phone and phone book. I call them and they say they are JUST NEAR the intersection of the road I was on and the road I came from. I go back and I see it and I buy it. Get this, a game made during the PLAYSTATION era and is used, still cost me 17 bucks plus tax :| I didn't care though, she's worth more than trivial prices. I went back home (after a few mix-ups during the ride back, that is) and I talked to her and it turned out that she couldn't go to youth group that night because her parent's won't take her because they arrived home too late :cry: it's okay though, I probably wouldn't have been in the best of spirits anyway considering how knackered I was and still am. Got home spoke to her just a LITTLE bit longer. Then aid good night. Today has been exhausting, but I know she's worth any trouble... No matter how tiring...

My PS2 is officially broken!.... How surprising right? That's broken PS2 #3! I don't move it around a lot, I don't dance on it.... Sony keeps rippin' us customers off... I hate it! And I hate that most of devs mae games only for that company... ARGH! Now I'm contemplating whether or not if I should buy a new one until the George-Foreman-Grill-Station 3 comes out a.k.a. PS3... I mean, there's still a bit of games that I NEED to play on it... I need money fast.... :(