I'm going to take a break from blogs for now. (or blogging on this site)
I'm not going to post blogs or read anyone else's. Everytime I do, I feel worse and worse.
I'm still going to be here, submitting things.
So, later
(like anyone's even going to read this :roll: )
I'm so frustrated right now.
I feel upset but I'm not sure why (well, I think I know the main reason why, but I dont really feel like saying)
but for one thing, college is so...disappointing. I don't know why I'm going. Every time I go, I feel so alone. I miss high school; I miss the people I'd see.
*sigh* Anyway, I decided I'd make a list of shows I'm planning on online watching (most likely on veoh.com)
Cardcaptor Sakura -- # 66 (5 more & a movie to go)
Detective Conan --#3 (over 400 to go)
The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya -- (does anyone have a suggestion of which order to watch the episodes in??)
X-Men Evolution -- #1
Batman Beyond -- #1 (if I can find the episodes)
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It was the final examination for an introductory English course at the local university. Like many such freshman courses, it was designed to weed out new students, having over 700 students in the cla$$.The examination was two hours long, and exam booklets were provided. The professor was very strict and told the cla$$ that any exam that was not on his desk in exactly two hours would not be accepted and the student would fail. 1/2 hour into the exam, a student came rushing in and asked the professor for an exam booklet.
"You're not going to have time to finish this," the professor stated sarcastically as he handed the student a booklet.
"Yes I will," replied the student. He then took a seat and began writing.
After two hours, the professor called for the exams, and the students filed up and handed them in. All except the late student, who continued writing.
1/2 hour later, the last student came up to the professor who was sitting at his desk preparing for his next cla$$. He attempted to put his exam on the stack of exam booklets already there.
"No you don't, I'm not going to accept that. It's late."
The student looked incredulous and angry.
"Do you know WHO I am?"
"No, as a matter of fact I don't," replied the professor with an air of sarcasm in his voice.
"DO YOU KNOW WHO I AM?" the student asked again.
"No, and I don't care." replied the professor with an air of superiority.
"Good," replied the student, who quickly lifted the stack of completed exams, stuffed his in the middle, and walked out of the room.
Many times I get the feeling that things I say and do go completely unnoticed; like I'm transparent and no one sees me.
It's funny. I never thought I'd be here. As I said before, I'm a dreamer--I'm not a realist--and I can only imagine things to be the way I want them to be. But I can't see myself in the future.
I've always hated it when people ask those questions "Where do you think you'll be in 10 years?" How the he!! am I supposed to know? :evil:
But I'm still not even sure what I want out of life--to be happy, I suppose, btu I don't know how I want that happiness to be achieved.
My point is...well, I'm not really sure--this is just a rant.
My life is so boring. I can see how I could get passed by.
There's something I want to say (or type) but I'm not sure if I should. Well, actually, there are several things. Maybe another time.
:lol:
Not really....but..maybe you should think about it :P
I think this is mainly something teen girls would have read.
Twilight and the other novels that follow is about a girl who moves to Forks, Washington, and she meets a "family" of vampires. She and one of them, Edward, fall in love and--well, you have to read it (if you haven't)
Stephenie Meyer is such a talented author. I don't know if I will ever be about to create a book the way she does :?
I'm waiting for Eclipse. It came out in the beginning of August, but I didn't buy the book. Instead, I put it on hold at the library. When I last checked, I was number 70-something out of 90-something :roll:
Paranormal romance is such a great genre ;)
My first course of college was yesterday, geology. It was ok, kind of boring actually. I was surprised at how few students there were in there (about 12)
The teacher is nice, but kind of weird :P Also, he has a strong Chinese accent, so it's difficult to understand him.
My other three courses were today--Intro to Language and Math. Those teachers are really nice too.
In my last c.l.a.s.s (Environmental Science--my only lecture hall), the teacher didn't show up. After about 15-20 minutes, one guy stands up and says we should sign our names on a paper and leave; so we did.
So, it wasn't bad; except Env Sci is still a mystery.
The only thing is, I felt so left out. Everyone seemed to already know someone else. Now, I feel a bit frustrated.
Also, I changed my icon...
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"College is the best time of your life. When else are your parents going to spend several thousand dollars a year just for you to go to a strange town and get drunk every night?"
Question: If you could live forever, would you and why?
Answer: "I would not live forever, because we should not live forever, because if we were supposed to live forever, then we would live forever, but we cannot live forever, which is why I would not live forever,"
--Miss Alabama in the 1994 Miss USA contest.
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Black is my number 1 favorite color
But I also love blue and purple. It's hard for me to choose between them sometimes, though I usually choose blue.
These are actually the results I got.
I love it when they accurately describe me--which these do ;)
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You Have a Melancholic Temperament
Introspective and reflective, you think about everything and anything.
You are a soft-hearted daydreamer. You long for your ideal life.
You love silence and solitude. Everyday life is usually too chaotic for you.
Given enough time alone, it's easy for you to find inner peace.
You tend to be spiritual, having found your own meaning of life.
Wise and patient, you can help people through difficult times.
At your worst, you brood and sulk. Your negative thoughts can trap you.
You are reserved and withdrawn. This makes it hard to connect to others.
You tend to over think small things, making decisions difficult.
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Your Psyche is Blue
You are deeply emotional and very connected to everything (and everyone) around you.
By simply understanding other people, you are able to help them heal and let go.
While you are a very deep and thoughtful person, you do have a very silly, superficial side.
When you are too blue: the weight of the world's problems hangs over you
When you don't have enough blue: you lack perspective and understanding
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Your Brain is Purple
Of all the brain types, yours is the most idealistic.
You tend to think wild, amazing thoughts. Your dreams and fantasies are intense.
Your thoughts are creative, inventive, and without boundaries.
You tend to spend a lot of time thinking of fictional people and places - or a very different life for yourself.
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You Are A Blue Girl
Relationships and feelings are the most important things to you.
You are empathetic and accepting - and good at avoiding conflict.
If someone close to you is in pain, it makes you hurt as well.
You try to heal the ones you love with your kind and open heart.
What Color Girl Are You?
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You Are a Purple Crayon
My first c.l.a.s.s of college is later today, at 4:30 PM (Eastern). It's only one c.l.a.s.s, geology.
I'm still nervous. Even though it'sa couple ofhours from now, I'm slightly shaking now. I hate the way I get nervous and anxious so easily.
Anyway I'll post tomorrow how it was. But then, it'd have already went to all four of my c.l.a.s.s.es. :?
And my icon isn't showing up, and I'm trying to change it, but the stupid page isn't loading :evil:
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A Child's Point of View
SAFETY: I was driving with my three young children one warm summer evening when a woman in the convertible ahead of us stood up and waved. She was stark naked!
As I was reeling from the shock, I heard my five-year-old shout from the back seat, "Mom! That lady isn't wearing a seat belt!"
SCHOOL 1: On the first day of school, a first grader handed his teacher a note from his mother. The note read, "The opinions expressed by this child are not necessarily those of his parents."
SCHOOL 2: A little girl had just finished her first week of school. "I'm just wasting my time," she said to her mother. "I can't read, I can't write and they won't let me talk!"
PHONE: A woman was trying hard to get the catsup to come out of the bottle. During her struggle the phone rang so she asked her four-year old daughter to answer the phone.
"It's the minister, Mommy," the child said to her mother. Then she added, "Mommy can't come to the phone to talk to you right now. She's hitting the bottle."
MODESTY: A little boy got lost at the YMCA and found himself in the women's locker room. When he was spotted, the room burst into shrieks, with ladies grabbing towels and running for cover. The little boy watched in amazement and then asked, "What's the matter haven't you ever seen a little boy before?"
ELDERLY: While working for an organization that delivers lunches to elderly shut-ins, I used to take my four-year-old daughter on my afternoon rounds. She was unfailingly intrigued by the various appliances of old age, particularly the canes, walkers and wheelchairs.
One day I found her staring at a pair of false teeth soaking in a glass. As I braced myself for the inevitable barrage of questions, she merely turned and whispered, "The tooth fairy will never believe this!"
DEATH: While walking along the sidewalk in front of his church, our minister heard the intoning of a prayer that nearly made his collar wilt. Apparently, his five-year-old son and his playmates had found a dead robin. Feeling that proper burial should be performed, they had secured a small box and cotton batting, then dug a hole and made ready for the disposal of the deceased.
The minister's son was chosen to say the appropriate prayers and with sonorous dignity intoned his version of what he thought his father always said: "Glory be unto the Faaaather.... and unto the Sonnn..... and into the hole he gooooes."
BIBLE: A little boy opened the big family bible. He was fascinated as he fingered through the old pages.
Suddenly, something fell out of the Bible. He picked up the object and looked at it. What he saw was an old leaf that had been pressed in between the pages. "Mama, look what I found", the boy called out. "What have you got there, dear"? With astonishment in the young boy's voice, he answered, "I think it's Adam's underwear.
I was browsing around and I found these facts.
First, I thought this one was very weird:
Sit down and swing your right foot in clock-wise circles. Now, draw the number "6" in the air.
Your foot changed direction, didn't it?? ;)
Well, here are some more interesting tidbits.
- The strongest muscle in the human body is the tongue.
- Babies are born without kneecaps. They appear when the child is 2-6 years of age.
- The colder the room you sleep in, the better the chances are that you'll have a bad dream.
- After eating too much, your hearing is less sharp.
- A hair is 70 per cent easier to cut when soaked in warm water for two minutes.
- Apples, not caffeine, are more efficient at waking you up in the morning.
- As of 2006, more than one in eight people in the United States show signs of addiction to the internet. (I think I'm one of them)
- Music can help reduce chronic pain by more than 20% and can alleviate depression by up to 25%.
- Watching television can act as a natural painkiller for children
- A newborn expels its own body weight in waste every 60 hours.
- Men can read smaller print than women; women can hear better than men.
- On average, a 4-year-old child asks 437 questions a day. (Wow, that must be annoying :lol: )
I start college next week Monday, and I'm really nervous.
Part of me is excited to start something different, but I'm also worried about the courses.
I feel as though once I start going all anything will be is study, and school. I've never done that before. I never study--only for major tests.
Also, I have no clue what I want to do after college. :?
I love writing, and I'd love to be a novelist. But not only have I never finished a story, but also being an author isn't a secure source of money.
*sigh*
And anyway, I'm not in a good mood because I just had (another) argument with my sister. (Inever mentioned her before--she's 23)
The thing is, I wanted to know how to find the c.l.a.s.s.es for college online and she sent me a bunch of emails, and I didn't know which one to read. And a while ago, she was leaving for work and I was saying I didn't know which ones to read and I had to figure it out on my own. And she said she told me before which ones to read.
I don't want to bring it up again.
The point is, she's very pugnacious and argues with everyone (parents, friends her boyfriend)
It's so frustrating to talk to her.
She left about 10 minutes ago, and I still feel upset. I'm shaking a bit right now. There are so many things I want to do right now and I have to stop myself from doing it. (Don't ask...well, I may not answer anyway)
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It's Black_Grace's 15th birthday today. Happy birthday, Amy!
Warning: this is one of those :( blogs I mentioned before.
This is just something I have to get out. I've never been one to express myself through talking, so I feel that ranting here would be more effective than talking....of course, there's also that I don't have anyone to talk to.
First of all, I don't want anyone to get offended. This isn't a message for any one specific person, it's may seem to describe you specifically, but it's actually a generalization about a few people.
Anyway, many times I feel fake and I'm doing it for attention. I say and do things and I think people look at me and think "Who is she trying to fool? That's not really who she is" When it actually is me--even if I don't like it.
On this site, I seem so busy trying to console other people that I don't have time for myself. My comments include "I know how you feel" and I wonder if they look at my blogs and think "What a liar, she doesn't act like that at all." or
"She's only saying that either to make me feel better that I'm not the only one going through this, or she wants us to be closer or something."
In school, I was usually depressed, and after a while my friends seemed to kind of ignore it. I hadn't realized it but it must have been annoying.
Them: Hi...Oh, what's wrong?
Me: ....nothing.
I guess I just wanted that friend who would take me aside and say "I know something bothering you. Do you want to talk about it?"
But I should have known that what I want, I never get. (It must sound really selfish)
I should have stopped being so stupid.
So basically my friends didn't talk to me if I looked sad, but if they ever even frowned, I found myself rushing to their side (along with the other couple of other people who were already there) to find out what was wrong.
Maybe I am being selfish, but it seems as though I'm always the one comforting and helping other people while no one does this for me.
But that's over and done with, and now I don't have anyone. It's so much easier to have friends during school and now that it's over, I don't see them and I have nothing to say.
And I'm really hoping and praying that college will be better. I don't know what to expect though. (I'd explain something here, but I think this blog is long enough as it is...later)
I don't know. I don't know what I want. To be accepted? To be consoled myself? Pity??
:?
I just had to let all of that out.
It has occurred to me that I actually forgot about the last part of those English-related blogs.
Well, here the last one-- English trivia:
Actually, I love random facts/trivia. So I may end up posting more of these, except it won't be about English, it'll be other topics.
I suppose my English "series" has now brought on a Random Facts & Trivia "series" ;)
Thoughts:
Who decided what order to put the alphabet in?
Why isn't palindrome spelled the same way backwards?
You Belong in the UK
Blimey!
A little proper, a little saucy.
You're so witty and charming...
No one notices your curry breath
What English Speaking Country Are You?
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I'm Level 18 now and, I'm the editor for another show Paradise Kiss :)
It's so frustrating to wait for a new show to be added. I submitted for PK to be added last week, and I was a bit nervous, wondering someone else would end up being editor. But no,I got it. :P :)
Another thing, I seem to be become addicted to smileys :o I'm constantly using them now ever since I found this list of emoticons
8) :D
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