So after hearing that Joey was back on GS, I decided to check back here as well just to see what had changed. Not much appearently. Other than Nick and Dbz becoming mods and this new design I now have to get used to, nothing else has really changed.

SSU is still pretty much dead from what I can tell. Maybe I can help Dbz along like I have in the past but don't expect much from me... I'm a very busy guy these days. And my insane nature has been buried so deep I doubt I can dig it out anymore.

Meh... I'll stay for a bit more and wait to see if things change with my presence here. If not, then I'm going back to Neo-Gen.

So after all this controversy surrounding Jeff's firing, I chose to follow the crowd and leave this place before it completely crumbles. GameSpot has lost all credibility, and by no fault of their own. Money and power corrupt... and that's exactly what happened here. I knew this happened often in government, but I never thought it extended to something that should be so humble such as the video game industry... and in turn, my fantastical vision of the industry has shattered.

So I leave GameSpot, nodding my head in shame and disapproval. Shame because I was one that took GS review very seriously, and even before I created my account with GS, I looked at GS's reviews to help with my game purchases... yet now I know the truth behind them -- they were nothing more than ads themselves... sponsored by their own developers.

Goodbye GameSpot! You helped me find some great friends, but that will be all that I take from you. If anyone feels the need to contact me, I shall be at Neo-Genesis forums. I hear they are taking GS refugees there... ;)

As it seems to be a current trend here at GS, I will now proceed to diss Spork.

I don't like it. I mean serious make up your mind! Either you're one thing or the other. You can't say you're this... then change completely and be a totally different thing. That's being a hypocrite, and for that I say we should ban Spork. Yeah... that's the solution. A world-wide ban on Spork.

Don't get me wrong, it's useful for something. But does convenience override confusion? 'Cause what is it really? Is it a Fork? Or is it a Spoon? Or is it some totally new tool for eating dinner? These are the questions and arguements that come to my mind when I think of Spork.

Hate 'em or love 'em... Spork will always be around. As long as there are lazy people in this world who can't bother to simply switch eating utensils during a meal. Damn you lazy people!

So I'm kinda back. Not really, fully, 100% back... but I'm here now ain't I? Don't expect me to EVER be as active as I use to be but I'll drop by every once in a while.Mostly, my life has gotten much better since I left: schoolwork's improving, social life has boomed, and I even have a new girlfriend now. Not spending my free-time online was the best idea I've had yet.

Anyway, I came back mainly for new game news and such since I'm looking forward to A LOT of games that are coming out in the next 4 months. Mostly Wii games such as Smash Bros Brawl, Battalion Wars II, and Metroid Prime 3... all of which will be online so I hope I can pick up some friend codes while I'm here also.

And that's it. The squirrels have revolted against me and my clones are on vacation... so it's just me this time. *Puts on cup* BRING IT ON!!! :evil:

Yeah, this time it's for real. I've been struggling for a while on how to go through with this, but I guess I might as well just do it. I'm leaving for good. It's my decision based on multiple factors which I don't really want to go into. It's not like it even matters anymore. I've been really absent from here for the last few months, so it's not like almost anyone will miss me.

Just know that the main reason is my life. I'm tired of BS'ing everything for the sake of spending time here. I've tried so hard to focus on college, yet everytime I try, I get pulled back here for one reason or another. And now, I've seen that it's really affecting my performance and preventing me from achieving my goals. So I've decided to finally grow-up and move on.

So yeah... that's pretty much it. I've enjoyed the 2 years I've spent here, but my time has come. I need to focus on other things if I'm to ever make anything of my future. And I know myself, so if I don't permanently take off any distractions, then I'll only get pulled back later. So I'm cutting my internet also, so there's no way for me to come back.

To dbz, Mike, Yoshi, and anyone else whose union/site I have a high ranking position: you may demote me from that position. I won't be using it so there's no point in me occupying that spot.

To everyone I've come to meet these last two years: thank you for the good times. You kept me entertained through periods of boredom, and I've grown close to many of you.

To those I've grown close to: I'm sorry, but it's the only way for me to grow up. I'll miss you all and think about you often, from now until I'm gone from existance. Enjoy each other's company while you can... and may you all have great lives. Goodbye!

Been a while since I wrote one of these. If you're wondering where I've been these past few weeks, I've been here. Yeah I've actually not been gone just cut down on posting.

Anyway, finals week is here and as you know, that usually means a lot of last minute cram sessions and working on final projects/reports. That being said, I probably won't be on much, either here or on TC, these next few days.

Also, one of my best friends (since guys can't have just one best friend) joined the US Marines. He's been at boot camp these last 3 months, but he recently returned on Friday.So, since Friday, we've been going out to make up for lost time, and just enjoying having our brother back, safe and sound. Altough we all try to conceal it, we can all see that he's really changed; he doesn't seem like himself anymore. Everytime he speaks to us about his experience, there's this somber look in his eyes that really chokes me up. And he keeps repeating how he doesn't want to go back, yet he's signed away 4 years of his life to the Marines and he knows there's no way around it now. He only has 10 days with us before he goes back for another 3-4 months, so we're enjoying every moment we can with him.

And finally, in relationship news, I've recently been going out with my ex's best friend. I personally feel bad doing this as I wouldn't like one of my best friends going out with one of my ex'es. But many people have told me that it's not so bad since my ex and I only dated for half a year, and we shouldn't feel like we were committed to each other. So, while we officially aren't girlfriend and boyfriend yet, we've gone out MANY times and I've actually already gotten a "departing kiss" meaning this'll probably happen sooner than later.

So that's it. I have many things to do these next few days with three things running my life: trying to study for finals, spending time with my Marine friend, and trying to advance my relationship with a girl. And while I've never actually been good at juggling multiple things at once, I know that if I am to accomplish all of these things then every second counts.

I've been looking back at my blogs, recently, and most of them seem to be downers. Like my life is full of tragedy and sadness, almost to a point where I can be classified as an emo or something. But I guess that isn't true, I like my life... I'm enjoying it to the fullest extent.

On recent breakup news, I still haven't called my "ex-girlfriend" or even talked to her at all this week. Like I said before, I'm trying to give her time to cool down. I'll probably give her a call later today, if not tomorrow. Hopefully she still isn't broken up about it and angry. And yet, I must be the most romantice bastard ever or something. There are girls lining up for me since I broke up with my girlfriend last week... which I find extremely flattering, but weird.

For example, there's this girl in my math class. And for the class, we have to attend about 15 hours of math lab (a place to do math homework and ask for help on math). Anyway, it's been about 9 weeks since the class started, and I haven't completed a single hour of math lab. So this girl asks me if I wanted to go to the math lab with her this week, which I thought was a pretty innocent thing to do, so I went with her. At the math lab, we talked and talked, and didn't actually do any math work, but it was still fun. I told her that that was my first hour of math lab, and she was amazed. Then, out of the blue, she starts making a calendar of dates we're gonna go to the math lab together, which I would have thought was a friendly gesture as well, 'cept she's almost done with her 15 hours. I told her that if we followed the calendar, she would go WAY over the required 15 hours, to which she said "I don't care, and we can go out to lunch afterward!" or something to that extent. I wouldn't have thought anything of it, but when I looked into her eyes as she said it, there was this like twinkle of light in it... and I instantly knew she wanted something more than a friendship.

Another example, I know this girl from my high school who goes to college with me. We would talk back in high school, but we never actually got that close. I saw her the other day, after not seeing her for about a month or so, and she asks me for a ride back home since her friend that usually gives her a ride left early or something, which I think is an innocent request. I give her a ride, and during the ride we talk and talk about stupid things, but it's pretty funny since that's my sense of humor. Then she said she was hungry, I really wasn't but I had nothing else to do so whatever, and we went to a fastfood place. We ordered our things and went to sit down, then our food came and we ate and talked. Then, for no appearent reason, she starts like a mini-food fight with me, which was fun, but then she started like touching me, acting like she was trying to stop me from throwing fries at her, but I knew she was doing it purposely to touch me. And then, she actually fed me a fry... which was so weird!! Friends don't do these kinds of things, especially when I've known her so long and know she doesn't act this way around everyone. So then I took her home, and she said we should do that again sometime. I hate my luck with women...

So that's it. My last blog entrees have been nothing but downers, though I had a reason to be down, but not anymore. I'm gonna enjoy life, and continue to roll with the punches. 'Cause in reality, life has been really good to me, so I shouldn't complain.

I'm leaving a lot of things behind me. I've realized that things have to change for me to be happy, and for others around me to be happy as well. I know it'll bring on some emotional pain, but they just have to be done... and it'll eventually be better for them.

So, I've decided to end my relationship with my girlfriend. I've notice, ever so slowly, that I don't really love her. I have feelings for her, but they're not the feelings I'm suppose to have toward a girlfriend... or to someone I'd eventually like to spend the rest of my life with. So I'm planning on telling her this weekend. I'm hoping to god she doesn't cry, but I know she will. I have this thing with seeing girls cry that just makes me so weak. And it'll be hard for me, because she will be the first heart I've broken... and I'm hoping that doesn't eat me inside. I've been heartbroken before, but never actually been the one who broke hearts. But, it'll be for the best. I don't want to live a life of deceite, pretending I love her when I don't, and I don't want her to end up even more heartbroken if time goes by and she grows closer to me.

So that's it. I'd probably blame my "8 month curse" right now, but I actually blame myself. I'm the one at fault, and it's actually only been about 6 months since we got together. She's a good girl, but she deserves someone that truly loves her, and that's not me.

They say "you gotta keep rolling with the punches," but sometimes life just knocks you out with a single punch. Anyway, remember that whole bad thing I was talking about in my last blog entry? Well I might as well tell you what it is since I'm not as depressed about it anymore. Not that it's gone away or that I've numbed myself to the point where I no longer feel anything, but I guess you can say I got up and accepted any punishment that came my way.

So for the last few years, my parents haven't been getting along very well. I thought it was a temporary thing and it would go away, but more than 3 years have passed and it hasn't. I mean they even had another kid, for crying out loud, and that still didn't work. So, my parents approached me and my brother the other day and told us they were getting divorced. I kinda knew it was coming, but it still hit me like a ton of bricks. I admit, I cried for a couple days.

But then, I accepted it. I knew they had been having troubles, but this probably was the best way to go at it. Sure I'm still heartbroken, but if it's for the best, then I guess I'll have to roll with it. Luckily for me, I'm old enough and will probably leave home soon, anyway. The only one I'm concerned for, now, is my baby sister. She's only 3 years old, but now she's gonna grow up in a totally different way than me and my brother, with a split family.

So this is the part where I say "here's hoping for the best" and all that crap, but I know the best won't be around for a long time to come. We're gonna go through a lot of tough times these next few years, but that's life. It kicks you when you're down then makes out with your girl. But you know what, I'm gonna be a better man after all this is over with, 'cause I know I don't want to make the same mistakes as my parents. Nor am I gonna wallow in self-pity.

I'm gonna stand strong, and take whatever life dishes out on me. I know I'll go down once in a while, but I'll get back up. And soon enough, I'll be able to overcome anything life has behind it's back, and that will truely be the best day of my life.

It was too good to be true. Just like I said in my last blog, once you're at the top, the only way to go is down. And in my case, I guess I went from Mount Everest to Death Valley. I guess I jynxed myself or something. Stupid me.

So, you know how I said in my last blog that I was happy and that everything was going smoothly? Well, that stopped pretty much yesterday. I got some very personal problems concerning my parents. I don't wanna go into much detail, but by the way I said it you can probably already figure out what it's about. I might let it out later but no, I don't wanna talk about it right now.

So I'm just letting you know, if I seem depressed or moody for the next few days/weeks/months/years, then you kinda know why. I don't know what's going to happen, but I don't wanna think about it either. Here's hoping for the best.