This one was sort of a toughy, considering I don't like Katie much. But I decided on this song because I'm always pulling her out of jams. I also think that this should be the theme for Fried Green Tomatoes, also.

Song: Breathe 2AM by Anna Nalick

Youtube video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iavCY1S8ATs

Lyrics:

2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake,
can you help me unravel my latest mistake,
I don't love him, winter just wasn't my season
Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to critisize,
hypocrites, you're all here for the very same reason

'Cause you can't jump the track,we're like cars on a cable
and life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button girl,
So cradle your head in you hands
And breathe, just breathe,
Woah breathe, just breathe

May he turn 21 on the base at Fort Bliss
Just today he sat down to the flask in his fist,
Ain't been sober, since maybe October of last year.
Here in town you can tell he's been down for a while,
But my God it's so beautiful when the boy smiles,
Wanna hold him, maybe I'll just sing about it.

Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table.
No one can find the rewind button boys,
So cradle your head in your hands,
And breathe, just breathe,
Woah breathe, just breahte

There's a light at each end of this tunnel, you shout
But you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
These mistakes you've made, you'll just make them again
If you only try turning around.

2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, its no longer
inside of me, threatening the life they belong to
And i feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you'll use them, however you want to

Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand.
and breathe, just breathe
woah breathe, just breathe,
oh breathe, just breathe.

I thought this might be a fun little thing to start. They're songs that describe my relationships with my pals. Bry, you can pick our song out if you want to. I just need to know what it is. For tonight's, I picked Me & Lucas. Bry, I'm gonna say this now because I know what you're going to say. I say this in a loving way. Bite me. This is the only song I could think of, OK? But you're still a dear almost a sister to me. I was wrong, OK? You win. I can't fight it off anymore. But you can still have him. The song does say "I hate how much I love you." And it's true. I do.

Song: Hate That I Love You by Rihanna and Ne-Yo

Video:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=shgMel8FwRI Another SasuSaku video

Lyrics:

Rihanna: As much as I love you
As much as I need you
And I can't stand you
Must everything you do make me wanna smile
Can I not like you for awhile?

Ne-Yo:
Coz' you won't let me
You upset me girl
And then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forget (that I was upset)
Can't remember what you did

Rihanna:
But I hate it...
You know exactly what to do
So that I can't stay mad at you
For too long that's wrong

Ne-Yo:
But I hate it...
You know exactly how to touch
So that I don't want to fuss... and fight no more
Said I despise that I adore you

Rihanna:
And I hate how much I love you boy
I can't stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just can't let you go
And I hate that I love you so

Ne-Yo:
And you completely know the power that you have
The only that one makes me laugh

Rihanna:
Sad and it's not fair
How you take advantage of the fact
That I... love you beyond the reason why
And it just ain't right

Ne-Yo:
And I hate how much I love you girl
I can't stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you girl
But I just can't let you go
But I hate that I love you so

Both:
One of these days maybe your magic won't affect me
And your kiss won't make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you'll probably always have a spell on me...

Ne-Yo:
Yeaahhh... Oohh...

Rihanna:
As much I love you As much as I need you oh...
As much as I need you Oooh... as so much I love you
As much I love you
As much as I need you

And I hate that I love you soooo
And I hate how much I love you boy
I can't stand how much I need ya Can't stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just can't let you go
And I hate that I love you so
And I hate that I love you so... soo...

seiYAY! I FINISHED MY FANFICTION! It's called That Which Does Not Kill Us. Here is the link. It'sa SasukexSakura story. http://www.fanfiction.net/secure/live_preview.php?storyid=3880668&chapter=1

http://groups.msn.com/NarutoMangaReturns/chapter379.msnw?action=ShowPhoto&PhotoID=46116 Now, you may or may not know, Jiraiya-sensei was in a terrible fight with Pain, and well..... HE GOT HIS LEFT ARM SLICED OFF! It's so terrible..... If he dies, I will sue Kishimoto-sensei for every penny he's got! LOL, not really. But still, I'm really sad about Jiraiya-sensei. EVERYONE PRAY THAT HE MAKES A FULL RECOVERY! PLEASE! Oh, and also I've been stuck with my Dad today who acts A LOT like Isshin Kurosaki. And if that's the case, then I'm definately Karin.God help me!

I took some quizzes on this website called http://www.narutofever.com/. The first one is my result from Which Naruto guy are you most compatable with?, (Got Kakashi!:D:P)the second is the same, only girls. I was curious to see who I'd get and I got Sakura. Well that ought to be interesting. The third is Which Naruto killer are you?.I got Zabuza. Well as all of you know, today is Thanksgiving. It's a time for celebration, or according to Larry and Abby from Dharma & Greg, a time for eating pumpkins grown from vomit and Pilgrim bashing. Whatever you do, I hope you enjoy it. Also, today is the one year anniversary of when my first boyfriend asked me out. What a fool I was to say yes. I hate him and I'm glad he moved to Pennsylvania. Or did he? *shifty eyes*

You know, when Lucas told me he lied about liking me a few weeks ago, I was really down. I mean REALLY down. You probably don't know this, but shortly before I got an account on here, I was extremely suicidal. I don't think there was a night I couldn't get through without trying to smother myself in my pillow or drowning myself in our pool. And why? For no good reason that I can think of. When Lucastold me how he really felt about me, it reopened all those emotions. Emotions that I don't know how I could have ever felt. I have so much to be thankful for, and when I look back on how I was all those months ago, I become ashamed. So very ashamed..... But I've learned. I've learned from my mistakes, and I've become stronger. Lucas is like a brother to me, and falling in love with your brother is incest, and it's a crime!Sonow thatI'm over myself, I want to do something great and spectacular for the whole world! I want everyone to be happy and join hands!That's my new goal. To make a difference! I encourage all of you to reach out and make a difference in someone's life this week!GOD BLESS YOU ALL!

OH SWEET INTERNET I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WILL NEVER EVER TAKE YOU FOR GRANTED AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You see, my computer contracted a virus and I was forced to find other things to do for 3 WHOLE DAYS! I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO DIE! But then my daddy comes home today (God bless him!) and said that the computer was all better so now I am jumping for joy!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't want to believe it, but it turns out when Lucas told me he liked me, it was a cruel, sick, joke that he invented so people would stop saying he liked Alexa. Lucas doesn't love me. Never did. I would never have believed this if it came from someone else's mouth, but it came from his own, which hurt 10 times as much. Did he think I wouldn't be emotionally scarred by this? Well, at least he told me at the end of the day, so I didn't lose it in the middle of school. None of my friends have EVER seen me even get so much as misty eyed. Instead I got home, threw myself on the couch, and cried until no more tears came. My mom called home and I told her I had a terrible headache, and it was partially the truth. I stayed curled up under a blanket on the couch, half asleep, and listened to my parents talk for an hour, and I must've fallen asleep for the other hour. I woke up, went to take a shower, and just sat there like the girl in the picture, letting the water pour over me. I saw my razor just lying so innocently on the shelf next to my soap. Idea! So away I went. Nothing happened, not even a trickle. I don't know how you emo people do it. Fingernails work much better. And before you even BEGIN to comment, I will say this. Don't bad mouth Lucas. No matter how much of a jerk he is, I still love him. Second, don't bad mouth me. I know there are other people in the world who have problems worse than me. I'm emo (sort of), not ignorant! After my shower, Mom demanded I write a thank you not to my god parents for sending me Halloween candy. She just plopped the card in front of me and expected me to write. I didn't know what to say to those people! I mean, sure, they're nice and all, but I haven't seen them in years! The most recent picture they have of me is my 2nd grade schoolpic! So we ended up in an arguement, and that is not something I would start crying over, but with the recent events, I just lost it. Mom was annoyed and said I was acting like a little kid, and I don't blame her. I probably did seem like it. But, we're cool now. When I get Lucas back and we get married and have kids, I swear, I'll NEVER demand that they do anything. Possibly. All I pray is that this blows over.

I heard this song on the radio and it reminded me of Margaret Houlihan from M*A*S*H. Isshe singing aboutHawkeye or Frank? You decide.

Song: Tattoo by Jordin Sparks

Lyrics:

No matter what you say about love
I keep coming back for more
Keep my hand in the fire
Sooner or later I get what I'm asking for

No matter what you say about life
I learn every time I bleed
The truth is a stranger
Soul is in danger I gotta let my spirit be free
To admit that I'm wrong and then change my mind
Sorry but I have to move on and leave you behind

I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realized nothings broken
No need to worry about everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back got a new direction
I loved you once needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo
Just like a tattoo
I'll always have you (I'll always have you)

Sick of playing all of these games
It's not about taking sides
When I looked in the mirror didn't deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could stop
Admit that I'm wrong and then change my mind
Sorry but I've gotta be strong and leave you behind

I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothings broken
No need to worry about everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back got a new direction
I loved you once needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo
Just like a tattoo
I'll always have you (I'll always have you)

If I live every moment
Won't change any moment
Still a part of me in you
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything I do, oh

I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothings broken (yeah)
No need to worry about everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back got a new direction (don't look back)
I loved you once needed protection (no, no)
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo

I can't waste time so give it a moment (i can't waste time)
I realized nothings broken
No need to worry about everything I've done (no need to worry)
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back got a new direction (don't you ever look back)
I loved you once needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo

I can't waste time so give it a moment I realized nothings broken
No need to worry about everything I've done Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back got a new direction

I loved you once needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo
Just like a tattoo
I'll always have you

Just like a tattoo
I'll always have you

Well, if you've read my previous blog, then you know that yesterday Lucas confessed his feelings for me. Today at the Mega Party at school, Patrick did the same thing, only he asked me out. I told him as nicely as I could that I wasn't really interestedin a boyfriend at the moment, which is partially true. I was interested in him being my boyfriend. But that excuse will work, because Lucas doesn't believe inJr. High relationships. It would've been fine and dandy after that, except for Patrick refused to talk to anyone after that. He just sat alone and if anyone would talk to him, he'd just give them an icy stare. I feel terrible. And knowing Patrick, I wouldn't put it past him to do something terrible to himself. I hope he doesn't.Patrick's been after me for a year. Maybe longer,that's just how long I've known. I went out with this creep named Cody last year, and Patrick tried to beat him up. Lucky for Cody, he played football and Patrick is autistic, so he didn't even get a scratch. And should this happen again, Lucas could take Patrick, so I'm not worried. I just hope I didn't hurt Patrick too much.This situation reminds me of the triangle on Fruits Basket. *note the pictures* Kyo (orange hair)and Yuki(purple hair) both love Tohru. I think in the end she picks Kyo, am I right?

Well, Lucas finally stepped up and confessed his feelings for me like a man. (Even if it was via e-mail!:P)And I must say, I'm rather glad he did. I was getting tired of waiting. Our lunch table had a bet on who he liked. Me, Brooke, and Haley S. bet on me, and Alexa, Katie and Andrea bet on Katelynn, who is another one of Lucas's friends. I can't wait to get into school on Monday and see the look on Alexa's face when I tell her that she lost the bet. Ah, sweet revenge!