Yaya!

:D

Are you really that immature that you invite me to a xbox live party, than ridicule me, and then subsequently kick me? You're a jerk, and it's not just on OT either. I figure the elitist swag you had was just a persona you liked to show on these forums, but apparently it's in real conversation too. Oh, and this time you invited me as opposed to last time where you kicked me from your party when I joined for a yet again unrevealed reason. You're pathetic, primarily because you belittle people, or at least let your 'friends' belittle people without stepping in to stop it.

/rant

Btw, you know who the HELL you are.

Ducks all the way bay-bay!

:D

I need to revert back to blink. Halo Reach is old news now. haha jk

But seriously...

Ya'll good at Xmas-izing sigs? And avatars? haha

Any help would be greatly appreciated! :)

Alas, I will tag the unfortunate fiends.. err I mean friends whose lists I wanna see! Muahaha!

Btw, you don't have to go crazy like I did and post 100 songs. Just post any life-changing songs with any amount you want! :)

@Suzy_Q

@Theokhoth

@Genetic_Code

@sammyjenkis

@harashawn

@chessmaster

@C_Lee

@Dark_Knight

@Robbo

@Darth_Caedus

@t3rubickscube

@Hey_Jay

@grunt1096

@HAZE-unit

@Just PlainLucas

@mindstorm

@MistressMinako

"Dream On" - Aerosmith - First song I ever remember that gave me hope for my future in life. :)

"The Great I Am" - Agraceful - Just a great lamentation to God. Helped me a lot during senior year.

"Amazing, Because It Is" - The Almost - The most heartfelt and awesome rendition of Amazing Grace ever.

"Change the World (Lost Ones) - Anberlin - First song that gave me confidence in my ability to legitimate change things around me. :)

"Everything's Magic" - AVA - ALWAYS, ALWAYS, ALWAYS, cheers me up when I'm down. :)

"Secret Crowds" - AVA - Made me imagine a world lacking violence... And made me almost 'visualize' it.

"Rite of Spring" - AVA - "Do what you like and do it honestly." Basically how I wanna live my life...

"Epic Holiday" - AVA - Helps me think about I need to shut up sometimes and just accept life as just a 'good time'.

"A Little's Enough" - AVA - Made me think about God really wants to be in my life. :)

"Stick Stickly" - Attack Attack! - Made me seriously get into metalcore and is an amazing praise song.

"Bro, Ashley's Here" - Attack Attack! - Same.^

"Show Me How to Live" - Audioslave - My anthem song concerning God sometimes.

"Composure" - ABR - STOP FEELING SORRY FOR YOURSELF. ;)

"Eleanor Rigby" - The Beatles - Made me think about all the people who live life alone. :(

"The Luckiest" - Ben Folds - Makes me envision my wife. Or at least, makes me think about the girl I will end up marrying...

"Still Fighting It" - Ben Folds - Made me realize how amazing of a father my brother is to my nephew.. :)

"Pitiful" - Blindside - Made me contemplate how pathetic I am in the face of my sin.

"Stockholm Syndrome" - blink-182 - The middle portion of the song essentially describe my senior year.

"Down" - blink-182 - Same^, except for every lyric of the song.

"Always" - blink-182 - Favorite song instrumentally and vocally, and makes me think of the best times of high school.

"Easy Target" - blink-182 - This song describes a former love interest to a tee...

"I'm Lost Without You" - blink-182 - Makes me think of the first dance I'll ever share with my wife, whoever she may be. :)

"Adam's Song" - blink-182 - Sophomore year. To a tee. It makes me tear up even now...

"Not Now" - blink-182 - Great song to God where Tom pours his heart out. Really impacted me in a positive way.

"Anthem Part Two - blink-182 - This song made me realize how much of a rebel I am. At least, in my 'circles.'

"Stay Together for the Kids" - blink-182 - Made me aware of how ****ING stupid divorce is and how destructive it is.

"I Feel So" - Box Car Racer - When I'm pissed off, this is my song. Tom understands me. lol

"Letters to God" - Box Car Racer - Amazing lamentation again, if a bit of an angry one. Still an amazing song.

"There Is" - Box Car Racer - Makes me realize that there is that one girl out there who is feeling the same way about life and love...

"The Diary of Jane" - Breaking Benjamin - First song that broke me free from my Linkin Park addiction, this song describes a certain former love interest perfectly.

"Song for the Broken" - Close Your Eyes - This basically describes what my life goal is: to give hope to those who have none.

"You Had Me at Hello" - A Day to Remember - Just an amazing and hopeful love song. Can't go wrong with that.

"Have Faith in Me" - A Day to Remember - My song to a girl used to love that would 'assure' her that she can trust in me.

:)

"If It Means A Lot to You" - ADtR - Basically a song of not wanting a relationship to end. Though I've never been in one, I definitely can connect to the message.

"Saints" - Destroy the Runner - Made me realize that the only reason a song is Christian is 'simply' the lyrics.

"Danger: Wildman" - The Devil Wears Prada - "All of love can be traced to a maker". One of my favorite music lyrics ever. Love the message of the song.

"Studying Politics" - Emery - Once I broke free from "cheesy" rock, this song helped me establish a love for harder rock and a special distain for dishonest girls.

"Lose Yourself" - Eminem - A song that gave me the courage to "take" what I wanted.

"Think Twice" - Eve 6 - A sad song about being cheated on. Again, never actually experienced it, but I can connect to it greatly despite it.

"Mad World - Gary Jules w/ Michael Andrews - Introduced me to Donnie Darko, and made me seriously think about death on more than just a surface value.

"Better Days" - Goo Goo Dolls - Just a cheer-up song. One of them that never gets old to this day.

"Good Riddance" - Green Day - Subtley sarcastic, and a beautiful potrayal of how I felt about a former love interest. Love this song.

"Why So Serious" - Hans Zimmer - Basically, introduced to me the idea that simplicity is NOT a bad thing. Plus, it's so BA.

"What This Means to Me" - I See Stars - I love this song because it is positive while still providing a good message. Awesome. :)

"Sweetly Broken" - Jeremy Riddle - Favorite worship song. Hands down.

"The Middle" - Jimmy Eat World - Makes me think of my good friend, and has an overall positive message.

"The Battle of Yavin" - John Williams - Makes me realize how important imagination is for me to function properly. :P

"Hurt" - Johnny Cash - Basically, everything you can achieve in this life will become meaningless in death...

"God's Gonna Cut You Down" - Johnny Cash - God will take you back, and I mean that LITERALLY. :P :)

"My Curse" - Killswitch Engage - Headbanging is muy bien. :P

"Use Somebody" - Kings of Leon - Life requires relationships. Doesn't need em, life REQUIRES them.

"Revelry" - Kings of Leon - Life is too short to dwell on the past.

"Shoots and Ladders" - Korn - What we have learned to think is 'acceptable' is a fairly gray issue.

"Pride Away" - Kutless - Made me do away with my arrogance and accept humility.

"Somewhere I Belong" - Linkin Park - The title lends itself to it's importance... :P

"In the End" - Linkin Park - Sophomore year. Freaking beezy didn't even care, but led me on to believe that she did. So for that, I've listened to this song countless times.

"Numb" - Linkin Park - I refuse to cater to those around me who don't care about me but who demand for me to live in a certain way. Screw them.

"What I've Done" - Linkin Park - Forgive yourself, move on and don't repeat the mistakes of history.

"Beat It" - Michael Jackson - Sometimes the best way to beat your opponent is to 'beat' it. :P

"Man in the Mirror" - Michael Jackson - I need to change who I am before I command others to change.

"They Don't Care About Us" - Michael Jackson - Politicians, media journalists, etc. don't really care about the people, only about $.

"Float On" - Modest Mouse - **** happens. But it's ok. Life goes on. :)

"Knights of Cydonia" - Muse - You will catch me dead before I give up my right to free speech.

"Heart-Shaped Box" - Nirvana - Perfectly describes a love interest I once had.

"Smells like Teen Spirit" - First 90s song I effectively fell in love with...

"Wonderwall" - Oasis - For once a positive song about girls I used to like. :P

"Son of the Morning" - Oh, Sleeper - God is bigger than Satan. A LOT bigger.

"Youth of the Nation" - POD - Makes me want to help kids who are depressed because I can relate to how they feel.

"Ignorance" - Paramore - You don't like me? I'm shocked... But don't be a jerk just because I've changed who I am. ;)

"All I Wanted - Paramore - 'All I wanted' was Hannah... One of my love interests when I first heard this song.

"Lisztomania" - Phoenix - Fun, engaging, upbeat pop music? Pfft, no way. :P

"Killing in the Name" - Rage Against the Machine - Killing while claiming Jesus =/= good

"Breathe Into Me" - Red - A great lamentation. Gives me goosebumps everytime. :)

"Pieces" - Red - God loves His followers regardless of what they have done... And He will pick up right where you have 'left off'. :)

"Us" - Regina Spektor - It was in 500 Days of Summer. That movie changed my life. lol

"Prayer of the Refugee" - Rise Against - Made my appreciation for rock guitar 'hooks' increase tenfold, and made me realize how much more I hated the high school I was going to. :P

"Across the Universe" - Rufus Wainwright - Made me really appreciate acoustic music. And it cheers me up every time I listen to it.

"You're Not Alone" - Saosin - As the title implies, I LOVE this song because it proved to me that I was far from alone during the times when I thought I was.

"Clocks and Time Pieces" - Search the City - A hard rock pop song? What? Plus, this made me think of Hannah. Hell, half of these songs are probably connected to that girl. lol

"Perfectly Done" - Shawn McDonald - I didn't need to be "good" enough, because I am already well above 'good enough'...

"Smile In Your Sleep" - Silverstein - Makes me think fo Hannah. *sigh*

"Rebirthing" - Skillet - Along with Breaking Benjamin, this band emerged after my LP phase. This was my favorite song when I liked them. :P

"Disarm" - Smashing Pumpkins - Made me refrain from judging someone too quickly without getting to know more about them.

"Chasing Cars" - Snow Patrol - Sweet, sugary pop song that has stuck with me ever since the first time I listened to it.

"Run" - Snow Patrol - Same^

"Pieces" - Sum 41 - Basically inspired me to not cater to what others think of me because it's not worth it.

"This Is Your Life" - Switchfoot - Basically, don't take your life for granted.

"Dare You to Move" - Switchfoot - Similar to previous song.

"Jumper" - Third Eye Blind - Makes me think of all the times my friends were screwing up their lives and how I was there to ask why they were doing it...

"Motorcyle Driveby" - Makes me think of a romantic love interest. This time, it's NOT Hannah. :P

"Image of the Invisible" - Thrice - Awareness of the undesirable people of modern-day society...

"Come Back Home" - Two Door Cinema Club - Makes me think of my brother and how he should come back home...

"Searching, Seeking, Reaching, Always" - We Came as Romans - Perfection is unattainable, but bettering yourself is definitely attainable.

"Way Away" - Yellowcard - I identify with the loneliness he talks about in the song. Or at least, loneliness in the sense of idealogical beliefs.

"Keep Ya Head Up" - 2pac - Always, always, keep your head held high.

"Letter 2 My Unborn - 2pac - Made me identify with how my brother felt when my nephew was in the womb.

"Changes" - 2pac - Times call for change, but sometimes the changes you wish for just can't happen.

"A Beautiful Lie" - 30 Seconds to Mars - Hannah. *sigh*

"The Kill" - 30 Seconds to Mars - Initially made me think of Hannah, but lately made me think of the people who don't like me... :P

"155" - +44 - Again, Hannah...

Are there a lot of really annoying attention whores on OT? It's bothering me. I feel like I'm in a high school sometimes when I go on here...

And yes, I use ****ing elipses. Big... ****ing.... deal.

$50 altogether. This is why I love singleplayer games. You don't have to buy them them within the first couple of weeks and miss out on the community or your friends already playing the "next" game. But yeah, I am excited! Finally have some more action games, although I'll probably end up buying The Force Unleashed 2 next week as well.

:P

And how have you guys been? I've been really busy with college and friends... Good stuff. :D

10) Thomas Mars (Phoenix lead singer)

Key tracks:

"Lisztomania"

"1901"

9) Mike Hranica (The Devil Wears Prada frontman)

Key tracks:

"Danger: Wildman"

"Assistant to the Regional Manager"

8) Ryan Neff (Miss May I's clean vocals/bassist)

Key tracks:

"Relentless Chaos"

"Architect"(halfway in)

7) Kyle Pavone (clean vocals/keys for We Came as Romans)

Key tracks:

"Searching, Seeking, Reaching, Always"

"To Plant a Seed"

6) Austin Carlile (former frontman for Attack Attack! and Of Mice and Men)

Key tracks:

"Catfish Soup"

"They Don't Call it the South for Nothing"

5) Stephen Christian (Anberlin singer)

Key tracks:

"Godspeed"

"The Unwinding Cable Car"

4) Stephan Jenkins (Third Eye Blind singer/lead guitarist)

Key tracks:

"Motorcycle Drive By"

"Blinded (When I See You)"

3) Mark Hoppus (blink 182 bassist/lead(ish) singer and +44's bassist/lead singer)

Key tracks:

"Adam's Song"

"155"

2) Caleb Followill

Key tracks:

"Revelrie"

"Closer"

1) Tom Delonge

Key tracks:

"There Is"

"Always"

Hope you enjoy!

:D

Remember Reach.

I figured I was gonna post this on a blog instead of OT because I figured the responses here would be much more constructive. To put it plainly, this blog is about women, and my ever-so-elusive attempts to befriend them on a much deeper level than I have in the past.

See, I'm looking through my phone, and there's a ton of contacts on my phone who are female that I'd love to hang out with, whether in groups or perhaps one on one. (To be honest, that kinda scares me too.) But I dread the idea of having a one-on-one conversation with a girl, especially when I have to "lead" one. I'm not too shy, and I just recently talked to this one girl I know for about an hour about philosophy and politics and such. But this paralyzing fear... will it pass with time?

Or do I really just have to suck up the potential awkwardness to become more "experienced"?

What do you guys think? Serious responses too please.